Letter from an Unknown Woman

The famous novelist R received a very special letter on his 41st birthday, which was from a "strange" woman.

I added this quotation mark. Why should I add quotation marks? Because she is a stranger to him, although they were once affectionate; But he is so familiar to her. She knows everything about him, even more than he knows about himself. He is the only one in her world, and her life has always belonged to him, but he knows nothing about the life of the woman who loves him all her life.

that year, he was 25 and she was 13. When he first looked at her with his warm, soft and affectionate eyes, she began to sink. As a result, her life has changed. His appearance is like a beam of light accidentally shot into her boring life, illuminating her childhood life, just as she wrote in her letter: "The real meaning of my life began from the day I met you. Before that, my life was a mess, so I will never remember those days before I met you. It is like a sealed cellar, full of damp and moldy people and things, with cobwebs and dust of time on it. These past events are indifferent and subtle to me. "

From the age of 13 to 16, she spent every hour paying attention to his life. She watched his life carefully and learned everything about him. Since then, he has become her whole life. In the letter, she described it this way: "year after year, my heart is so nervous and trembling for you: but you, you have no feeling about it, just like you have a pocket watch in your pocket, but you have no feeling about its tight clockwork." This tireless clockwork patiently counts your hours and time in the darkness that you don't care about, and accompanies you with a heartbeat that you can't hear. And you, in its millions of rotations, only glanced at it once, and there was no intersection from then on. " Because of him, her life trajectory changed from now on, but he never knew it. It seems to have nothing to do with him, or it really has nothing to do with it.

One day when she turned 16, it was a great bad news for her. Mother remarried and they will move to Innsbruck. From then on, she will stay away from his life. From the age of 16 to the age of 18, she spent two long years there. She refused everything around her. "There is nothing more terrible in the world than being alone in a crowd." This is her truest feeling. During this time, she thought over and over again about every meeting with him and waiting for him.

at the age of 18, she finally broke free and came to Vienna, the city with him. Every night after that, she stood in front of his house until the light in that window went out. However, she still didn't have the courage to face him. She said, "It's just that I didn't think that for your mind, whether it's mountains and rivers separated by thousands of miles, or between you and my eyes looking up, the result is just the same distance through the glass of your window." It's close at hand and seems to be far away. Finally, she caught his attention, and they once again had an intersection. She once again indulged in his tender, affectionate and breathtaking eyes. They spent three nights together, and then he went out for a trip. He promised to inform her as soon as he came back. However, at the last moment of her life, she didn't receive a word from him. She gave him her whole life, but she didn't even receive a letter from him.

even so, she still loves him deeply. Because she knows that the feeling of being relaxed, happy, dance academy and carefree is what he likes. He is deeply afraid of interfering with other people's fate. He is willing to abuse his feelings on everyone, on all people, but he is unwilling to make any sacrifice. She knows him, and she said, "I love you just like this. I am passionate and forgetful, and I am passionate and loving but not expert."

soon, she found out that she was pregnant, and she felt very happy. Later, because of poverty, she gave birth to a child in a humble maternity hospital where only a poor and abandoned woman had to go, and suffered both mental and physical shame. In order to prevent his children from living in the garbage dump in this mean alley, growing up in a rotten and humble environment and sucking dirty air in such a humble room. She chose to be the mistress of the rich, because she felt that his children should have everything, all the wealth in the world, all the relaxed and happy life, he should have the life and glory that the upper class should have like his father, and he should enter his father's life circle. Because, he is his child.

The child is a gift from God, and she transferred her love for him to the child. Then, on his birthday every year, she always sends him a bunch of white roses, just like the flowers he gave her after the first night of love. She just silently gave him flowers once a year, trying to awaken his memory of that moment, but he never remembered her. She imagined that maybe he would appear in her life and call her to his side again, even if it was only for an hour. For this reason, perhaps, for this imaginary one-hour meeting, she refused all the marriage proposals, just so that when she heard him calling her one day, she could be called away at the first time.

It's like hearing her call. One day, they met in the ballroom, and she sank in his tender and blazing eyes again. They had a wonderful night. The next day, he told her to go out of town. She said, "The man I love always likes to go out of town". He said, "He will come back"; "Yes," she replied, "he will come back, but when he comes back, he will forget everything"; He added, "Good things can't be forgotten. Believe me, I won't forget you." The truth is that he never thought of her.

She tried again and again to evoke his memory, expecting him to recognize her in one of their meetings. However, he didn't have it once, even if there was a vague feeling for a moment, he just regarded her as one of the many women he met, nothing special, just one of them. The saddest thing is that in the end, the morning after they spent that lingering night, when she left, it was his servant John, who recognized her, even though the old man had never seen her since she moved away from childhood. But the old man still recognized her, but he didn't recognize her once.

The secret that belongs to her will always be treasured in her heart. She will choose to love him in her own way and the man who appeared in her life at the age of 13. Maybe he will never know that someone loves him so deeply.

Fate always likes to play jokes on people. Her son died of a high fever. No, it should be said that their son died. At the same time, she also had a premonition that she was going to die. Otherwise, I'm afraid he wouldn't receive this letter, which tells the story of a woman who loved him all her life. As she said, "Only when I die will you receive my last confession and a will from a woman who wants to tell you her love. She loves you more than anyone else, but you have never recognized her. She is always waiting for you around you, but you have never called her once. "

At the end of the letter, she begged him to buy some white roses for his birthday every year and put them in the blue crystal vase in his room. At this moment, he realized that the vase was empty now. For many years, it was the first time that the vase was empty and there was no flower arrangement on his birthday.

I don't know whether he will buy a bunch of white roses and put them in that blue vase on his birthday in the future. I don't know how much waves this letter from a strange woman will arouse in his heart, and I don't know whether he will think of the clues of the woman who loves him deeply in the later days ............................................................................................ All I know is that this woman really knows this man and knows everything about him better than herself. She chooses to love him in her way, or should I say that she loves him in the way he is used to, and tries not to interfere with his life.

because I know you, I choose to love you like this.