Osamu Dazai's happiness will shine slightly in the valley of sorrow.

On June 19, Showa 23rd, Osamu Dazai's 39th birthday, his body was found in Yushui, Yuchuan.

"I was born in this world, I'm sorry." At the mention of Osamu Dazai, the word "mourning" pokes us like a steel seal.

When we talk about Osamu Dazai, we will think of the pain and helplessness expressed by Ye Zang in Disqualification on Earth, and the confession of Osamu Dazai's helpless and desperate soul.

In fact, Mr. Osamu Dazai is a very gentle person ~

"It's like a glass of leftover absinthe."

1909, Osamu Dazai (formerly known as Dui Ma Xiuzhi) was born in a big landlord family.

The father's statesmanship gave the young Taizai invisible repression; In Osamu Dazai, the image of father is a symbol of majesty.

The identity of six men in the family set an obstacle between him and his father that he could never cross. Although the home is big, it is not warm for Taizai.

Neglected in his family, he used literature to fill the void in his heart.

During his studies, Osamu Dazai regarded Ryunosuke Akutagawa as an idol and deeply worshipped Akutagawa.

During the most radical 20-30 years of his life, he was full of ambition and creative passion, and his goal was the Akutagawa Prize.

2 1 year-old, became a student writer. He was expelled from the household registration by his father because he lived with a geisha in Liuxiang, Huajie.

Later, she died with a woman, but she survived.

Because of this incident, Yasunari Kawabata, the judge of the Akutagawa Prize at that time, thought that his personal morality was poor and removed him from the list of candidates for the Akutagawa Prize.

After that, the impact on the Akutagawa Prize was fruitless, which made him almost desperate-

"Please give me hope. Although I survived, please praise me.

Please hurry, please don't save me from destruction. I believe I can write good works. "

Osamu Dazai, who is sensitive and fragile by nature, still confides in the separated Kawabata Yasunari and intercedes with him.

Full of literary ambitions have been shattered again and again.

His inner sadness and depression made him unable to bear the blow of life and the collapse of faith. He began to sink, drinking too much and using painkillers too much in order to alleviate mental trauma.

"Bold and unrestrained, but there are too many weak parts in my heart, too much self-awareness."

Haruko Sato, the judge of Akutagawa Prize, commented on Osamu Dazai.

The more you are eager to pursue your desires, the more you will stagnate.

The eager pursuit of Akutagawa Prize is Osamu Dazai's superficial desire. What he really wants is recognition from the outside world, especially from his father.

Osamu Dazai's desire boils down to the demand for "love".

Osamu Dazai, who paid too much attention to external recognition, was gradually eroded by the sensitivity of self-internalization in the desperate and painful struggle, and the trauma of reality prevented him from moving forward.

As a result, the first generation's double suicide with the woman Hill failed again.

In the most radical twenty or thirty years of his life, Taizai suffered the bitterness of life.

"I love this world so much," I thought with tears in my eyes.

He is always looking for the light of hope in despair.

Osamu Dazai, who is nearly 30 years old, gradually put down her obsession and entered the marriage.

His mood has quietly changed.

"Marriage and family, I think, need to work hard to maintain and need to be taken seriously. I didn't mean to be frivolous. I will cherish my life even if I am poor. "

This is the oath he wrote when he got married, promising to run all his life in the spirit of marathon running.

At this time, it was the War of Resistance against Japanese Aggression period.

He has a family.

Started married life, at this stage, he explored a new creative path, and wrote monologues, which were dictated by Taizai and recorded by his wife Michiko. During this period, "female students" were born.

After her daughter was born, a new life began, which was a happy time for Osamu Dazai.

194 1 In the Pacific War, the trend of Japanese literary creation generally turned to war.

On the other hand, Taizai published royal papyrus.

This is a collection of fairy tales with unique style, which is carefully constructed by thinking.

Osamu Dazai created such lovely words as "Pipishan".

He has a child, writing for the child and writing for the family. Under the oppressive atmosphere of the war, Osamu Dazai's words ease the readers' breathing under the shadow of the war.

Smile.

Osamu Dazai's writing still revolves around "love" in life, but it is a subtle, sensitive and subtle love rooted in the heart.

There are many frank expressions of love in his works, just as in Puppet Girl, Osamu Dazai frankly expressed her inner fragility and sensitivity, as well as her understanding and concern for the subtle nature of the world.

"In this muddled world, I really want to live beautifully."

Osamu Dazai's words brought some comfort to the war-torn world.

At this time, Taizai is no longer entangled in the past, and has been faithfully fulfilling the wedding vows written seven years ago.

"The antonym of evil is punishment."

Twenty years of Showa 1945

Japan was defeated and the society changed dramatically.

After the war, the Japanese ecology tends to collapse and rot.

Difficult times, depression, depression, depression ...

Osamu Dazai realized that Japan needed profound introspection, and criticized it in introspection.

Although he didn't take part in the war, he also created works to appease readers in the war, but he thought he also took part in the war and was guilty.

Thus, a reflective work "Sunset" in chaotic times was born.

Sunset describes the decline of aristocratic girls' families after Japan's defeat.

War concerns every citizen. Osamu Dazai tried to explore the national character in the war and thought that people should stop being numb and ask and reflect on the times.

He wants to dig deep into the darkness of human nature, starting with dissecting himself!

He began to spy on himself and seek salvation.

Recall the past, recall ...

"I have done things that many people despise."

Sin, ugliness, selfishness and hypocrisy ...

Reflect on yourself in the past, reflect on your sinful past, and hope to gain the ability to love through reflection, understand the true meaning of love, and explore the expression of love with a sensitive and implicit attitude.

Osamu Dazai created the semi-autobiographical novel Disqualification on Earth from his past experience.

During this period, "hooliganism" appeared as a literary school.

In the special era when Japan's post-war social order and value system collapsed, literary writers who advocated introspection at that time showed similar tendencies in their work styles, so this category was uniformly labeled as "hooliganism" by Japanese critics and literary circles. )

This kind of literary works usually have rebellious consciousness, ridicule life, adopt sentimental brushwork and laugh at themselves.

What we see in this kind of literary works is not only desolation and gloom.

The starting point of literary creation is reflection and criticism, and it is towards beauty. It allows us to reflect on the environment of the times and spy on the inner world at the same time, and realize the goodness and beauty.

Osamu Dazai's works are mainly private novels, which mainly show his inner psychological activities from different perspectives, and the tone is melancholy and sentimental.

However, Osamu Dazai is a very gentle person. In Disqualification on Earth, he endowed this melancholy and sadness with profound meaning: despair for loneliness and hope for despair.

"If you commit more crimes, you will love deeply."

Family, wife and children are his happiness and happiness. He clearly realized that it was not enough to recall past experiences in order to reflect deeply on redemption.

The mentality that leads to Taizai is very contradictory, and it is difficult to get deep reflection from a happy family after experiencing grief.

"Tragic people are miserable, and fallen people are going to fall. I had nothing to do with that. This is the world. I am so hard-hearted, pretending to be indifferent and looking at them condescendingly, but it is extremely painful. "

-Osamu Dazai "Run! Meles

What Osamu Dazai wants to do carries so much weight that he goes to the extreme-thinking that if he wants to write down human sins, he can't live a happy life.

So go to self-destruction, to your own sins, and repeat your mistakes. ...

"Don't despair, get out of here."

In the middle of human disqualification, Zang made a self-judgment of "not qualified to be a man", but Taizai still left room for Ye Zang. In the end, the hotel owner said:

"We, Ye, are naive and clever. If we don't drink, no, even if we drink … we are good children of angels! "

Osamu Dazai fell into the extreme of his thoughts. Only when he realized his sin can he have a deeper understanding of love, sing the swan song of life and fix it as eternity.

In May of the 23rd year of Showa, the manuscript of human disqualification was completed.

A month after the manuscript was written, Taizai and his lover jumped into the water in Yuchuan. The body was found on June 19, which was his 39th birthday.

Taizai left a suicide note to his wife Michiko:

"I don't have many children. Please take good care of them. I have been thinking about you, and then my eyes are full of tears. Michi, I love you the most. "

"Happiness will sink to the bottom of the sad river and give off a faint light, just like placer gold." -"Sunset"