Composition of the heart

1, worried

I feel a lot of growing pains, and these pains are growing.

My mother told me that we should lay a good foundation now and prepare for entering the society and having a good position in the future. Mom also said that a person with social status will have money. When the time comes, you will have whatever you want, and you will never live a hard life like laid-off workers again. So I want to study hard, learn knowledge well and be admitted to a famous university. With a good diploma, you have a good job, and there is nothing to worry about in your later life. After listening to these words, I thought to myself, yes, my mother thinks about my future with adult thinking, and my mother will never hurt me.

But then I found that these words seemed right, but they didn't seem right. Study at school every day and accept some principles of being a man. According to the Chinese book, you can't just care about yourself and ignore others. The teacher said, learn knowledge well and serve the motherland. I'm starting to get confused. Why should I study? How important is status, money and honor in life? Who can tell me what to do? This is really a very realistic and contradictory question.

When you are a child, you don't have to think about these things. After eating, you can play, go shopping, climb mountains, go fishing, catch cicadas, go home, lie on the bed, tilt your feet, hum songs, read comic books and fairy tales, and be free. It's different now. It seems that overnight, everything needs your input and thinking.

When the class chooses class cadres, the teacher wants each student to go to the stage and say that he is willing to be a certain position. When I got home, my mother boasted and wanted to be the monitor. Not only can you exercise yourself, but most importantly, it will be easier to join the party after paving the way for the future. When I fill out any form, I won't say that I haven't done anything. I have self-knowledge, and with my ability, it is impossible to be a monitor. My mother encourages me, but I just want to be ordinary and study quietly. I've had enough of my mother's endless nagging. I thought about my mother's wish that the girl would become a phoenix, so I agreed. I gave a speech on the stage that day. I said that I wanted to be a monitor most. Although I worked as a propaganda committee member in primary school, I lost my job later. My ability is not strong, but I think life should constantly improve myself, so if I become a monitor, I will try my best to help the class and do my best. I was very unhappy when I walked off the platform. I thought what I just said was a lie. I really admire myself for having such ability and making it up so well. It is a very painful thing to bite the bullet and do something you don't want to do.

Step 2: Mind

Trouble, as its name implies, is people's thoughts. There are generally two kinds of troubles, one is happy and the other is unhappy. Adults have worries, and so do children. Take me for example. I have happy thoughts and unhappy thoughts.

When I was a child, I often stood on my balcony with a heavy heart and stared at the blue sky in a daze. What am I doing here? I won't know until I ask. I'm worried about whether the sky will fall. After hearing this sentence, you may laugh. But it doesn't look funny to me. Think about it, what would happen if you fell naively? It must have fallen apart, leading to world chaos. The whole world will become dark, and even when you go to the bathroom, your head will hit the ceiling. Are you comfortable? If you say to me, "Don't worry, son, the sky won't fall." Then you will get the answer: "the sky is so far away from us that there is no pillar to support it." It must have dropped in a few days! " "Hey hey, I was a little worried?

I was worried about another problem at that time. That is whether I will be old or not. What's said on TV about the elixir of life? Just because I heard these stories, I feel that as long as I take this medicine, I can live forever. You may be tempted to say, "What kind of elixir is there in the world? People get old. You don't have to be so scared, do you? " Because I was too young to understand, I couldn't listen to a word you said (of course not now).

Of course, as a "good boy" in the eyes of a teacher like me, there are also embarrassing things in my heart. When I was in kindergarten, I used to play truant. That day, my family took me to school by motorcycle. When I arrived at the school gate, I was too naughty because I was happy the day before. As a result, we were "helped" by the teacher, and we were still worried, so we got off the motorcycle and ran back like flying. That speed is amazing. Mom saw it and quickly got off the bus to chase it, and the security guard at the door came to join in the fun. I ran for a while, and suddenly my shoulder was firmly grasped by a big hand. I looked back, oh, no, it was dad! I'm really in a dilemma. Under the gentle pull of my father, I got on the motorcycle again. When I got home, I was greeted by a "storm": my parents put on airs and bombed me in turn, giving me a good lesson.

I won't tell others about these worries. Just, you must keep a secret for me and don't tell anyone else!

Step 3 worry

Trouble is an elusive thing, which can't be recruited and lingers. I often think: What am I thinking? No one can give me the answer, and no one knows.

My mind is like a tramp, it may not come at any time, but it slips away quietly. No one can get rid of it, and there is no escape.

I used to live a carefree life every day, but the mid-term exam came, which brought me a lot of troubles: my math calculation ability, Chinese reading ability and English listening ability all made me uneasy, so I quickly reviewed to avoid bad grades in the exam.

The actual test paper is not as difficult as I thought, but I still have no idea. So I fidget every day, just like my sister-in-law Xianglin loses her hair. Although my parents won't blame me too much, I am still a little afraid that my classmates will laugh at me.

Finally, it's time to release the results. My grades in all subjects are not good, but I can rank more than 500, ranking 20th in my class. Although the ranking is average, I am not satisfied with my achievements. Although my parents said it doesn't matter, I will try my best next time, but I still feel a little uncomfortable. I always feel that I shouldn't be like this. This is what I've been thinking recently.

Similar to me is my deskmate. She said that she had always done well in primary school, and this time she was worse than me. I can see that her mind is very heavy. Maybe her parents are not as kind as mine. In a word, after the mid-term exam, everyone in our class is worried, except the students with good grades.

As we all know, we always have to see the parents' meeting after the exam. At this time, the atmosphere is many times more tense than before you knew the exam results. When you are afraid of holding a parent-teacher conference, the teacher will tell your parents about his school and then go home and be scolded so that you can't sleep. That feeling must be hard.

After another wave of anxiety, I am about to leave the shadow of the exam and am surrounded by worry. It was the teacher who made me monitor this time. At that time, I was deceived. I don't know what to do. I staggered home and told my parents that they were happy for me and called my grandmother specially. But I don't think this is a good thing. I have doubts about myself: can I be a good person?

Because I have no experience as a monitor, I am at a loss and don't know what to do. After school, I asked the teacher, "Can I do it well?" The teacher's answer is: "No one is born to be a teacher. Work hard. " I think so, so my heart is relieved. I also believe that I can do it well.

People are not afraid of troubles, but when you encounter troubles, you should learn to solve them. Don't hide them in your heart and let the backlog of troubles turn into troubles. So we should learn to adjust our mood.