Night flight 1068 "when love is a thing of the past"

Not to mention the past, life has been stormy.

Even if the memory can't be erased, love and hate are still in my heart.

Really want to break the past and let tomorrow continue.

Don't ask me any more questions.

Love is a difficult problem, dazzling.

It may be possible to forget the pain, but it is too difficult to forget you.

You never really left, you in my heart forever.

I still have love for you, and there is nothing I can do for myself.

Because I still have a dream and still keep you in my heart.

Always easy to be moved by the past, always heartache for you.

Because of your years, I have many kinds of unintentional gentleness.

Don't ask me if I will meet again, and don't ask me if I mean it.

Why don't you understand (don't say I don't understand)? As long as there is love, there is pain.

One day you will know that life will not be different without me.

Life goes too fast, I'm so scared, my eyes are always hazy.

Forget me, there will be no pain, leaving the past in the wind.

(A) share the joys and sorrows of happiness

I am not his first love, and he is not my first love. However, this does not prevent us from loving each other deeply. That winter vacation, he wanted to hold my hand. When I felt the tension in his heart through the temperature and humidity of his palm, I laughed at the shyness of such a big boy, so he became my boyfriend.

He caught a cold and was too lazy to take medicine, so I poured boiling water from his cup and prepared pills. When I tasted whether the water was still too hot, he looked at me in surprise: "I have a cold. Aren't you afraid that I will infect you?" My reaction to this is to raise my face: "What are you afraid of? Being infected is a good thing. This is called happiness in common trouble. " Then he winked and smiled. I know he was very moved.

Gradually, it became a river of love. On a sunny winter day, we sat on the balcony and bathed in the warm sunshine, looking at the distant scenery and planning our bright future. When I lost in poker together, he would kiss my face and say "punishment", and I blushed and felt very happy. Sometimes we discuss whether his newly bought small oranges can continue to live, or not say anything. The two of us leaned together, and I lay on his knee, thinking. Occasionally, he will break this harmonious silence: "What are you thinking?" I will grin and giggle: "I miss you!" " "

In the quiet night, I stood at the window, watching the fireworks scattered all over the sky not far away and listening to his chest. My heart is full of happiness. I close my eyes, but our love can be as gorgeous and beautiful as this fireworks.

(2) I love you thousands of times in my life.

Good days always pass too fast, and winter holidays pass in a blink of an eye. He continued to teach at home, and I went back to Tianjin, thousands of miles away, to study at a university. Needless to say, I am reluctant to leave. I will call him, just to tell him that I miss him, or to listen to his voice, even his breathing. Smart people will never forget to kiss the microphone before hanging up, and then say "good night", and their hearts will be filled with joy and have a good dream.

"Five? During the long vacation, I backed the car from Jinan to him regardless of the crowd. He was thinner than before. During those three or four days, my affection for him grew day by day. I pestered him every night on the grounds of watching TV and didn't go back to my room until midnight. Sometimes, he will be as excited as a child and pick me up: "Oh, it's so heavy, I don't think I can hold you when I get married!" " "At that time, a warm and romantic lyric suddenly popped up in my heart: I want to be with you every day, hold you to sleep every night, and love you a thousand times in my life.

In the afternoon when I was going back to school, I went to the bathroom to wash my hands and prepare for dinner. While his mother was busy in the kitchen, he sneaked up behind me, hugged me tightly and buried his head on my shoulder. I am very happy with his natural reluctance. I am about to leave, and I am as reluctant as he is. I really hope that time stays at that moment, solidified and eternal.

Before he left, he turned on the computer and asked Tong Ange's "Do you still love me tomorrow?" for me to leave a message. I thought for a moment, and the words "I love you thousands of times in my life" were fixed on the screen. I hope our love can also be fixed on these words.

(3) Water marriage

Finally it's summer vacation. I am anxious to go back and look forward to seeing him. But at the railway station, I didn't meet him as promised. At night, I called him, but no one answered. I comforted myself: "Never mind, he may be taking a bath, so he didn't hear the phone ring." Call back, and the voice says, "Sorry, the number you dialed is power off. Sorry ... "Here we go. I don't understand what's wrong. I'm still thinking about that warm past, thinking about him quarreling with me when he was drunk, even saying sorry after waking up, thinking about the laughter and sadness, thinking about my chest. So, I lost sleep one night.

The next morning, I called him again. "Hello …" "Why didn't you answer my phone yesterday?" "Do you want to know why?" "... you want to break up, don't you? ""I'm sorry ... "So I stopped talking and put the phone down slowly, and my repressed tears were like water bursting its banks. At this time, I finally understood why he only said, "This is my little sister." Instead of saying, "This is my girlfriend." I finally know why he lost weight so quickly in just two months. It turned out that he was on the verge of breaking up and had such suffering in his heart.

Desperate, I picked up the shirt carefully selected for him and ran away from him. Arrange the 10 letters written to him in chronological order, and every word in them seems to be a bitter laugh at me. They hurt my eyes and my heart. So, a letter tore them into pieces, and beautiful fonts were scattered all over the floor, along with my broken heart. Adu's hoarse voice came with those broken voices "... suddenly I hate this world because I want to leave ..." Seeing me with tears on my face, he finally pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly, as if to melt me into his body: "I'm sorry, in fact, my heart is worse than yours ..." At this time, he has shed tears of heartache. He said that he loved me and will love me in the future, but at the same time. And I also know that what he wants, who is four years older than me and has worked for two years, is a marriage that fulfills his parents' wishes, and he can't afford to wait too long. Our marriage is destined to be in a hurry. Although we have taken care of it carefully, it still flows away inadvertently and never comes back.

(4) Suffering for you

I insist on returning his umbrella. Although I broke up, I still don't want to "separate". On campus, I didn't see him, but I accidentally met his mother. The enthusiasm for me is the same as before, just saying, "You are too young." Really? Am I too young? If I graduate, not just a junior, maybe she is already planning our wedding. But at this point, I only smiled at her. He told me that the beans we planted behind his back were lifeless. Yes, neither he nor I have any results. How can we live with the beans we planted with her? Isn't this a good hint?

I heard that he went fishing just to see him more and not to think about him. I was stubborn. I didn't cut corners or take a taxi. Instead, I walked a long way to go home by bus. The newly bought sandals bled my feet and made me limp. However, no matter how deep the pain, how can it be compared with a bleeding heart? Looking back on the recent past, the past is vivid:

I always think of him when I go shopping. When I see something, I always think, "This is a good gift for him." "It should look good next to his TV." Pick and choose, and finally choose a pair of stone carved pony and puppy, because he is a horse and I am a dog. I hope our zodiac animals can be together every day. When I went to the graduation party, the host told a touching story: "On the Aegean Sea in Athens, there lived a boy and a girl. They live happily. But in an unfortunate after the car accident, the boy didn't wake up for three days and nights, and the girl was very sad. My late grandmother fell asleep at night. Grandma said to her, Don't be sad, son. You weave a blue ribbon every day and hang it on a tree by the sea. When the ribbon is full, the person you love can feel your love and he will wake up. So this woman knits a blue ribbon every day. When the tree was covered with her blue ribbon, the boy really woke up, and the girl stretched her tired eyes and smiled sweetly. " Finally, the host said, "Did you see the blue ribbon on your wrists? Go, go, give it to the person you love the most, and may he be safe and healthy forever. " When I came back, I tied the ribbon on the pony. I thought, although I can't tie him on your wrist myself, I still hope you are healthy and safe. It's just that I worked hard. Can you feel it?

I cherish that feeling, not only for love, but also for love. I scrimp and save every day and cook the least meals every day. So on the way to Nankai University to see the art exhibition, the dual effects of hunger and carsickness made me black at the moment and I didn't know anything. I sat down with the help of my classmates, and my face was sallow all the way. After a recent period of suffering, my weight has also been reduced from 92 kg to 86 kg. Finally, I bought him a shirt with the money I saved. Although I suffered, I was willing, but how could he know the price I paid for that inexpensive dress?

(5) As long as you live better than me.

What a strange thing love is. No matter how hard you work, no matter how sad and happy you are, it will still end, like a semester, like a summer vacation, like a fireworks. It makes me hate the whole world, and it can't change the cruel facts. He finally threw himself into the arms of another woman. I still don't understand why he can open his heart to love others and why he can not care about his feelings. Their wedding is scheduled for "ten? I didn't attend, and I couldn't bear to see such a beautiful picture wet with my tears. I called him and said "congratulations", but tears flowed silently. On his wedding night, I sat alone in front of the cold computer screen and couldn't sleep all night.

Love is not necessarily possession, but happiness is his happiness and happiness is his happiness. So, on his birthday, I personally embroidered the mobile phone chain for him and attached a short message:

All stories can only have one theme song.

I know your last choice,

All love can only have one result,

I know it's definitely not me.

Because I loved it,

Why do you really exist,

Even if you leave, you won't feel too sad.

The midnight melody keeps repeating that song,

Will you still love me tomorrow? "

Remember this song? This used to be your favorite song.

I don't know if you're doing well now,

But I know that our love is doomed to have no result.

Some things can only go with the wind.

She can easily give you the happiness you want.

I can't do it.

Therefore, I sincerely hope that your life is better than mine.

Don't worry, don't worry.

I hate you,

But in front of love, hate seems so insignificant.

You're right, people who love each other may not be together.

I think this is our destiny.

In fact, on your wedding day,

Every "congratulations" I say is not from my heart.

Because I didn't understand the true meaning of love at that time,

I don't know the truth. If I love you, I won't stop you from flying to a happier place.

But now, I want to say "congratulations and best wishes" sincerely.

If I am still crying, it is because you have found true love.

There are as many people in the world as there is sand in the Sahara desert.

Meeting is fate, but we are deeply attached.

Although I didn't find the final emotional destination in this love.

But I still appreciate it.

Thank you for giving me a sad memory.

Thank you for letting me understand the rules of chasing love.

Thank you for giving me another choice,

Tomorrow is your birthday,

Happy birthday to you.

I don't know how he will feel after reading this short message, and I will never know. But I really hope everything is all right with him. And I can only "guard the moonlight in the distance, not block your wall." My love is to break my wings and send you flying. "

(6) When love is a thing of the past.

The hurried past can't keep the past years, but the road we walked and the words we said are like a sigh in the dark night, which can be dissipated by waving our hands. Seeing each other again, my heart is much more peaceful. I don't cry for him anymore, because all I have to say has been said, and my tears have already dried up. On the computer desk, there are sweet photos of him and his wife when they got married. Why did the woman in his arms change her face? That should be me! I really wanted to pick up the photo frame and throw it in his face, but I just took a look and put it back. On the computer, the QQ program that used to be our contact information was also deleted by him. When asked about the letter I gave him, he said it had been torn up. At this moment, we knew that he didn't want me to get involved in his life again. And he actually asked to hug me again, and I didn't refuse. I know this will be our last hug, but why don't I feel like a calm lake anymore? Is love bad, or have we changed?

(7) Conclusion

I haven't contacted him since that hug. It can only be a memory hidden deep in my mind, dusty in the softest corner of my heart, and let it sigh gently. It was seven months after he got married that I realized that college students can get married, but what we missed was exactly 2 10 days and missed this life. If there is an afterlife, if the afterlife is no longer a scene and happiness is no longer a beautiful memory, I am willing to accompany you to reincarnate and touch you, a person who cannot be changed in this life!