It hurts so much that I can’t bear to let go. Excellent sad diary

Introduction: That night, Mozi thought a lot about whether he had done something bad and God was doing this to him. If you can shorten your life by a few years, can you please not break up this home, the only harbor?

We experienced unimaginable events one after another, and then we remained strong despite being overwhelmed. It was another rainy night, Mozi was leaning on the bed, the fragrance of coffee was wafting on the seat, and now she felt a little bit of pain in her heart. The moment before, she was a little exhausted from eating and ran to the toilet to take selfies. When she heard her cell phone ringing, she hurriedly ran to get it. It was a text message from my mother, with obvious uneasiness on her face.

I don’t know since when, when she mentioned her family, I could see a trace of incomprehensible pain in her eyes. My mother said that tomorrow is my father’s 50th birthday and asked her to call him. Mom said that if Mozi got married, it would be time to celebrate his father's birthday. Mozi called her father obediently, with such a simple and pale conversation.

"Hey" it took a long time for a soft voice to come out. I know." Mozi suddenly didn't know how to answer the question. "Daddy's birthday is tomorrow, I'll come back." "Why are you back?" "To give birth to daddy." "No, I have to be busy tomorrow." "Okay, then you can rest." Mozi hung up the phone and was thinking, Dad Is it with that woman? Don't blame Mozi for being suspicious and sensitive, it's a normal reaction after being injured.

In this way, Mozi was forcefully pulled back to the night of January 10, 2009. Mozi’s happy life was completely shattered, so that for a long, long time in the future, Mozi could not Afraid of hearing others say "love". That day was the last day of the first semester of high school. When Mozi returned home, he saw his mother's crying face and his father's indifferent face. The whole story could be heard from their intermittent quarrels. Like all men, the nice gentleman and dad who don’t smoke or drink have a woman outside.

I am so vulgar that I cannot describe the sadness in Mozi’s heart. Only those who have experienced this kind of pain can understand this feeling. That night, the moon was extremely bright, but it was incomplete. Mozi listened to their argument outside her parents' room. She opened the door with trembling hands and asked her parents, "What's wrong with you? What's wrong with our family?" Dad, can you come back? I will be very good in the future. Dad, can you continue to love this family? Dad was silent. Where was the father who usually loved Mozi so much? Mozi was really desperate. She said to her father, you can't let go of your mother and this family. Dad said, I just pretend I never gave birth to a daughter like you. Mozi stood there, the moonlight gently shining on her body. She turned around and ran out of the house. Mom was chasing her in her pajamas. Her mother said behind her, "Mozi, what will mom do if you leave?" With such a gentle word, Mozi cried until she almost died.

That night, Mozi thought a lot about whether he had done something bad and God had done this to him. If you can shorten your life by a few years, can you please not break up this home, the only harbor? Mozi also thought of many ways. She thought about whether self-mutilation could bring back her lost father. Maybe it's because I don't have the courage, maybe I'm thinking about my mother. Finally, she did nothing.

It’s just that for a long time in the future, she didn’t call her “Dad”. Didn't talk to him either. Mom enlightened Mozi a lot, and it took a long time.

Should we advise Mozi not to be sad? We can’t control the affairs of our parents, so we should leave them alone. But Mozi said: I can't ignore it, because one is my father and the other is my mother. I love this family, I am so selfish, I just want the family to be together.

Yes, what Mozi wants to tell everyone is that now she is living a good life and she can support herself. She has had too many ups and downs in her life. She thought that after that incident, there would be nothing else. Things also made her sad. People always have to suffer to understand the meaning of life. But in the following time, her family has brought her a lot of pain that is unbearable for others.

It was her home, and even if it hurt her to death, I don't think she would let it go.