What did the poor master graduate leave before committing suicide?

I believe many people know that it is not easy to get into graduate school, and it is even harder for poor families to persist in getting into graduate school! Recently, a poor graduate student committed suicide because of emotional failure. This graduate student is a Hu Da graduate who has just completed his studies with financial aid. His name is Chen Luyang. Chen Luyang lived up to his expectations. With the support of caring people, he studied hard and was admitted to Central South University. One year later, he won the excellent student scholarship, the first-class professional scholarship and the national inspirational scholarship of Central South University, and then he was admitted to the civil engineering graduate school of Hunan University. ?

With the support of caring people, Chen Luyang, who has passed the biggest hurdle in life and never gives up, what crushed the last straw in his life? When sorting out Chen Luyang's relics, he wrote a diary before 18, which solved the mystery. The diary records the news that he quarreled with his girlfriend and got back together with her. As can be seen from the news, Chen Luyang suffers from depression. The last message is June 27th. It says in the diary: It's over. I love you and the world, but your selfishness and indifference have abandoned me! At the end of my life, I hate you! I have worked so hard to realize our future and my promise to you. You can say no if you don't love. You said that life is such a process of losing and accepting. I just want to say, why must we lose it? Why can't you insist? That's it. I lost my expectation of life. I have no strength and I don't want to work hard. I know there are many important people and interesting things in life. I will meet people who really care about me, but I'm sorry, those who love me will be selfish. My heartbeat doesn't move with you anymore, because it won't beat at all.

It's a pity that such a good young man, who should have a bright future, ended his life because he was deeply tortured by emotion. He wrote in his diary: he lost his expectation for life and didn't want to work hard. Although there are many interesting things ahead and some people who can't let go, he wants to be selfish and end his pain. Love is not everything to a person. Before jumping off the building, I don't know if this classmate thought about the caring people who donated money to him in the society, or the family members who insisted on sending him to school despite their poor family. Don't be discouraged when you are in trouble. Be a gentleman and you will get through it!