The road to art examination

An article by candidates from the Central Academy of Fine Arts-

Central America abused me a thousand times, and I treated Central America like my first love.

I have been in love with Yangmei for six years since 2008, when I was in the intensive pre-examination class of Yangmei High School. In 2008, I stayed in Yanjiao Campus for two months, and began to shift from calligraphy and Chinese painting to sketch, sketch and color training. It was my first contact with sketches and the first time I enjoyed the skylight classroom in Yangmei High School. After two months of hard training, I missed the attached middle school and failed the professional course. At the age of fifteen, I came to Beijing to study for the first time away from my hometown and my parents. I fell in love with her when I saw such a beautiful and artistic campus! Although I failed the list, my belief in Central America sprouted at that time.

In 2009, I entered the pre-examination class of the attached middle school again. This time, I obviously have more expectations and more confidence than last year. Although we are still unaccompanied and roommates in different places, listening to Yang Mei's lecture and looking at the model paintings of the teachers in the attached middle school, a group of children with the same dream live together day and night? Painting and happiness.

Although there was a little pressure on the playground on the day of the exam, I did well in the exam and passed the professional exam. This major passed the interview, but the cruel thing is that English only scored 2 points, and it was rejected by Central American high schools again. At that moment, I felt my heart was hurt by Yangmei for the first time. If a teenager doesn't know the taste of sadness for the first time, it's really sad this time. Because English is a short board, I specially signed up for a remedial class, just outside the north gate of the affiliated middle school. I didn't attend the final stage of English because I was nervous about my major, and she cursed me (probably because I didn't get that part of the tuition, and she said I wouldn't do well in the exam without attending the final stage). The name of this English chain consultation has faded, but that vicious witch makes me hate it to this day.

Also in 2009, I was admitted to the Fine Arts High School of Tianjin Academy of Fine Arts. Although I got the admission notice smoothly and easily, I chose the middle school in my hometown and didn't apply. It's not that I don't like the junior high school attached to Mei Tian, maybe it's the lightness I cherish, or maybe the shadow of Yangmei has been lingering in my heart. In fact, it is the same to spend high school there. All roads lead to the same goal, and eventually you will knock on Yangmei's school gate, just like you missed the bus and took another bus. The first year of high school may seem extraordinarily calm and ordinary. Actually, Mei Tian High School is not bad. The number of walks in Mei Tian is also the source base of Tsinghua Academy of Fine Arts. At that time, it was one of the reasons for giving up Mei Tian high school because the culture class could not be taken for the college entrance examination in different places.

At the beginning of the summer vacation of my sophomore year, I dragged my suitcase and embarked on a journey with my sketchpad on my back. Huajiadi ~ that familiar and unfamiliar place, where art students from all over the world gather to find their own studios. There are too many studios, so it will be difficult to choose. Considering teachers, majors, environment, and most importantly, the brilliant achievements of the studio. What is the first place in Central America, and what are the top few in Central America? I can only see the surge of emotion, so I have no choice. This year is 20 1 1, the year before the college entrance examination. In fact, this year's summer school is relatively easy, and there is no pressure before the exam. It can be said that we must first feel the prelude and environment of the art test. Or start to contact people's sketches and color head portraits from stone statues and still life paintings.

The real investment should be from September 20 1 1 year, and I resolutely gave up all cultural studies. Pencils rustle like beautiful music on the drawing board, clothes are covered with oil paints, and fluorescent lamps that are still burning at night are mixed with my dreams. How many days and nights, how many bald pens, how many boxes of painted pigments have been incalculable. The performance of the studio has always been among the best and won the appreciation of bishops and teachers. Excellent grades not only satisfy their pride, but also make parents more gratified. Pass the unified examination easily and get back to Beijing. The provincial unified examination is like a bull's-eye test, and you don't need a high score to pass. Then, it is easy to pass the exam to take an examination of Chuanmei, Mei Tian and Lu Mei. That year, I spent the Spring Festival in another country for the first time.

Although I didn't spend the New Year with my parents, I didn't feel particularly lonely, although I felt a little homesick. Have dinner with the students in the studio, watch the Spring Festival Gala and watch the night sky reflected by Beijing fireworks. A group of children pursuing the same ideal, a group of children with immature faces and full of expectations, and a group of children with beautiful dreams. We are happy, as if we will step into the sacred palace of Central America tomorrow, as if we will be blessed by God tomorrow ... My father's blessing message further resolved my homesickness and inspired my confidence and enthusiasm. It is a self-edited Spring Festival couplets: drawing a brilliant future person in a different place and depicting a wonderful life in Central America for the purpose of welcoming the New Year.

A month may not be a long time, but for me, it's like a year, and I feel extremely painful under the expression of trying to be calm. What is waiting hard is Yangmei's rejection again, and the fragile heart is dripping with disappointed blood. I only got 30 points on my knees this time, which is obviously beside the point, but it was close to 80 points that year. Although there is a discussion about whether there are all kinds of black desires in Shenyang test center on the Internet, I painfully doubt whether I have any talent after all, and I don't want to see anyone with my door locked. This year, my friends in the same studio and dormitory got the first place in Central America, and I was once again faced with the choice of repeating my studies or going to other schools. I once vowed that I would not repeat for many years like some seniors, but now I have unconsciously entered the strange circle of repeating. This time, I had a disagreement with my parents. Dad said, "If you only have Central America in your heart, then your stage is as big as Central America. If you have more than Central America in your heart, maybe your stage will have the whole world, which is wider than Central America. Mei Tian is also a good choice, which many artists dream of but can't get. " The final result ended in the compromise of parents. I deeply blame myself for my stubbornness, willfulness and ignorance, but for my dream, my parents are very cold to me!

20 12 April, Central America gave me a heavy blow, and the certificate was out of my hands. That moment seemed to fall into the abyss of pain, tears streaming down her face. I can't describe the mood at that time. In the chaos, I seem to have lost everything overnight, including my so-called power. Think of the sunshine when I went to Shenyang to catch the exam, the arrogance when I walked out of the examination room, and the ups and downs of these years and the expectations of my parents. What makes me sad, painful and puzzled is that several students in the studio who are usually not as good as me got the certificate, but I was ruthlessly abandoned by Yangmei empty-handed. I wasn't the only one who was heartbroken in the studio that year, and all the "elites" in the studio modeling class failed the list! Our bishop teacher also fell into deep confusion and reflection. He used to be the first in Central America.

The teacher is actually a few years older than us, more like a brother. He regrets us and often blames himself. Perhaps the teaching direction has deviated from the track of taking the exam, perhaps our frivolous personality has been over-publicized, or perhaps Yangmei is testing our piety. Maybe this is the prelude to his heart and bone efforts? During that time, I spent all kinds of whimsy. Even if the college entrance examination is just around the corner, my mood is fluctuating. I chose to repeat without any suspense, resolutely and without hesitation. One month after the college entrance examination, I packed my bags again. ......

Repetition requires not only courage, but also various pressures. The lost youth, the support of the economy and the eyes of people around us are still worried about whether to get a certificate. That year, I seemed to become mature and taciturn, continued to face my drawing board and continued to burn the midnight oil. That year seems to have really grown up a lot, learned hardships, learned how to be warm and cold, and even felt ulterior motives for the first time. I feel that there is less and less communication with my parents, unlike the chattering sparrow before. Until one day in June of 10, my parents arrived at my side in the shortest time, and my inner anxiety was instantly dispelled by my parents' tolerance. It's not easy to make a decision every time, but I don't hesitate to dream. That autumn, I cut off my long hair that I had raised for many years.

20 13 spring festival in Beijing, it feels particularly cold this winter. I didn't book a restaurant for the New Year's Eve dinner. I ate eggs with ice on their leaves and filled the cake. I remembered the steaming jiaozi at home and my favorite braised chicken. The stomach trouble caused by long-term dietary discomfort began to ache faintly, and tears of disappointment swirled in my eyes. I really feel homesick for the first time, so I'm worried. I sent a short message to my parents who wanted to celebrate the New Year, followed by a sentence "Dad, I will definitely celebrate the New Year at home next year". On the first morning, I went to the Lama Temple to burn incense and pray for my family and myself. Is this superstition? No, it's a way to comfort the soul. Superstition is that many children who paint, including me, dare not take pictures at the gates of Chinese and American schools, do not change new shoes before exams, and never choose eight schools to apply for exams.

The pace of 20 14 was particularly heavy and was abused beyond recognition by Central America. However, the faith in my heart is still strong, shining like the morning star, illuminating my mood and guiding my direction. This year is also a variety of pits, the reform of college entrance examination, the cancellation of English listening, the improvement of cultural achievements in art examination, the change of Lumei color to creative color, the various colors of Gome, and the eternal Sprite are all gone ... Everything is unknown.

This year, following my father's advice, I applied for Yi Shan (Totti). Even if I pass the exam, I won't go. It's a foregone conclusion in my mind. I once regretted my decision to apply for mountain art because my father waited for me on the platform hundreds of miles away, and because my father disappeared into the night after seeing me off at the station. After the Spring Festival, online newspaper, on-site confirmation and school examination are still taking turns, and high-speed rail, buses and taxis are still shuttling between cities. It was not until one day that I stood at the gate of Lu Mei High School (Yangmei test center) that I realized that Yangmei was coming! No more arrogance to kill the audience, more or less nervous. After all, it is ok, and it is normal to play. When I left the examination room, I put down all my anxiety and pinned my hopes on the certificate in April.

In fact, I have always liked Chinese painting from primary school to junior high school. How can there be a turning arrow when opening the bow? If I choose a shape, I will stick to it.

I don't regret that my belt is getting wider and wider. Who will make me haggard? I loved, hated and hurt, and gradually realized some philosophies in my growth, knowing how to have and how to give up. I accidentally experienced an episode this year and missed the exam of Tsinghua Academy of Fine Arts. I didn't grab the Mei Qing exam place in Beijing, but I lost my admission ticket after I confirmed it in Tianjin. Fortunately, a kind person called me. We managed to get to high-speed railway station, and the train tickets to the test center have been sold out. Maybe this is to let me give up my beauty and go out wholeheartedly? So I rewarded Mei Qing 100 yuan, and then gave up, although there were other ways to get to the examination room, although I was a little lost. In fact, I know this is not what I want, and my dream is not here. As dad said: Maybe God closed a window for you and opened another door for you.

Central America is coming, but I have a phobia. I haven't felt that painting in Shenyang these days, and I am often awakened by nightmares at night. Have you lost confidence after many failures? Are you afraid of failure and feel that you can't afford to lose? Six years of drifting in the North, three years of experience in a foreign country for the New Year, countless battles, big and small, all the ups and downs came like this. How strong are you? What about your heroism? What about your confidence? The night before the exam, my dad's phone call once again gave me confidence. It's a thousand miles away, and I dare not show my anxiety. Always believe in yourself! Be full of confidence, courage and strength! Let go of all the burdens and play to your normal level. The road is long and short, and the edge is deep and shallow. As long as you work hard, you will have no regrets!

The examination questions of Yangmei are also changing. The familiar color head has become a bust, and the original scene sketch has become a single and double combination sketch. Sketching seems simple, but it makes me feel that I have lost my advantage. Creation is the root of last year's sadness. I wanted to use the simplest idea this year (just to stay on topic), but I changed my mind when improvising. Everything is not extraordinary, but normal. After the exam, the overall feeling is ok, but I dare not estimate the results. On the train leaving Shenyang, I remembered the sentence that I sent my father during the Spring Festival,' I have been on my way home, not because I want to leave, but because I want to take the best home.

I have loved Yangmei for so many years, and I have been heartbroken for you and obsessed with your dreams. Central America, my first love! I will not move on because of your indifference, nor will I stop pursuing my pursuers because of your refusal. Central America, my first love! I won't linger in front of your door all the time, and one day I will be on your stage. Central America, my first love! Don't ignore my fiery enthusiasm again, and don't abuse me for a thousand times before you are willing. Central America, my first love! 20 14 love you forever! 20 14 Yangmei, I'm coming!

I want to dedicate this article to those children who have a central beauty complex. Come to an end for the time being and continue after the college entrance examination. 1 1 1 descendants of ling

Although it is not the first time to wait for the result, I still can't calm down, and I am still entangled, anxious and uneasy. You can't always study with peace of mind when you are in a good mood, even if you know the importance of culture class in your heart. Even making excuses not to go to school several times, or even running home after studying in the middle of the night, is it impossible to adapt to this long-lost alma mater? Can't you fit into a class full of strange faces? In the face of parents' earnest persuasion and the tireless guidance of the class teacher, I was so indifferent.

The result of Yangmei was so sudden, it seems that I didn't make any sudden psychological preparation, or all the preparations were destroyed by a blow. When I first saw' qualified' and then saw' ranking', was my vision blurred or my brain blurred? Yangmei and I played a modest joke, or found the best reason to refuse me. Is the proof that Liancheng Hospital can't walk well a gift from Yangmei? Did I study painting 12 and enter our college with a cultural score of 570+? Creative works that think they have good ideas are only given 50 points, while superficial "hide-and-seek" is above all others. I was overjoyed to see freshmen get their certificates easily, and I also saw the loss and helplessness of too many repeat students. Repetition-it turned out to be a point of no return.

The teasing of a bar friend is very vivid:' Beauty is like green tea, and youth is like money. Yangmei green tea is so expensive that I can only afford one bottle every year. I like drinking bayberry green tea very much. Three years in a row. Why? ? Every time you drink bayberry green tea, open the bottle cap and take a closer look. It says thank you for your patronage or come back next year.

It's so easy to say, only repeat students can understand their inner suffering. Those students who have been abused by America! How should we be strong?

In fact, from the moment I left Beijing after finishing my major, I had given up all the idea of re-reading, and I also threw away all the painting tools. However, such a result can't be accepted by yourself, or it can't be easily put down. Maybe I really missed Myrica rubra, maybe hiding this dream in my heart is the best destination, or maybe I only lived this life after looking back 500 times in my previous life ... After two days of stupid confinement, I walked out of the room. The weeping willows by the river in front of the building have pulled out new branches, and peach blossoms are in bud, full of spring. I don't feel the arrival of spring these days. After the epiphany, in fact, life is not as miserable as I thought.

Central America seems to have changed the grading standards in previous years, and people who get high marks are nothing new. Not to mention how good the painting is, it is the opposite to examine the original intention of creation from the perspective of conception. What is needed in creation is the spark of thinking and art, not to describe how good a thing is without thinking. In a limited time, it is impossible for candidates to create a shocking, unique and meticulous work. If so, why do some masters' works have a three-year or seven-year creative cycle?

"Where are all the people hiding?" Perhaps it is the theme that the old man falls without help, smog weather and so on that attacks the society? Maybe this is a real phenomenon. Can't you express it? Maybe this is against the requirements of creation. No upward intention? I was so cautious and wanted to draw the simplest and most superficial theme, but I didn't stray from the topic. However, I'm not thinking of hide and seek. Painted an unattended book stand. Where are all the people hiding? Is the lack of spiritual civilization and traditional culture and the proliferation of material pursuit also reflected in the lack of ambition?

Wu Guanzhong, a master of contemporary art, always exclaimed that "the level of contemporary art in China lags behind that in Africa". Universities should recruit outstanding young talents and teach students in accordance with their aptitude. Teachers and parents should explain their interests to students who apply for the Academy of Fine Arts. Learning art is tantamount to martyrdom, and their future and life are not guaranteed. If his impulse to learn painting is like pouring boiling water on the grass, it will not die, so that people can learn. The current situation is: the industrialization of education, the expansion of university enrollment, and a large number of students studying art. They just want to be admitted to a university, and the school will recruit more students and make more money, but in the future, when students graduate, the society will not be able to accommodate so many artists.

In the future, real painters are likely to come from the people. Like Matisse, they are not from the Academy of Fine Arts. Why? They have no constraints, and some are free. Now there are many rules in the school, and the artists are numb and have lost their feelings. China's art education function has always been hidden in universities and has nothing to do with social life. In art, technology is the foundation and realm is the most important. This realm is the truth of feelings. Technology is just a means, and it is easier to learn technology. Emotion is the result of many years of personality, which is the most important thing. Art is true nature. Real artists grow up from suffering. Mr. Wu said that society does not support poets and painters, and it is impossible for artists to grow without suffering and emotional and spiritual fluctuations.

Current licensing situation: Central American modeling, central national traditional Chinese painting, fine arts of Capital Normal University, oil painting of Renmin University, North India design, Gome traditional Chinese painting 2, Gome modeling,

Gome is a top art school, with the National People's Congress in Beijing and superior human resources. You can't have your cake and eat it. I hope the seniors and sisters will point out the maze.

In fact, from the moment I left Beijing after finishing my major, I had given up all the thoughts of re-reading, and I also' conveniently' lost all my painting tools. However, such a result can't be accepted by yourself, or it can't be easily put down. Maybe it's really out of reach with Yangmei. Maybe hiding this dream in the deep heart is the best destination. Maybe it's a passing time in this life after looking back 500 times in previous lives? After two days of stupid confinement, I walked out of the room. The weeping willows by the river in front of the building have pulled out new branches, and peach blossoms are in bud, full of spring. I didn't feel the arrival of spring in the chaos these days. Only after an epiphany did I find that life was not as miserable as I thought.

If life is just like the first time, you don't have to draw a fan in the autumn wind. I have pursued, been crazy, and worked hard. It is fate to meet Yangmei on the road of youth. After several years, I will recall this experience with no regrets. Although I haven't, I can't be a family after all. But whether it is pain or tears, whether it is dreams or longings, whether it is beautiful memories or vows of eternal love, Yangmei is like my first love. But I won't cry for you again. I know you don't believe in tears, and I also know that you are not the end of my dream, not all of me. I won't lose, maybe one day in the future, I will stand in front of you in another capacity, so that you who once ignored me will look at me with new eyes!

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Father's article? —

Read "Central America abused me a thousand times, and I treated Central America like my first love"

As the saying goes,' knowing a son is like a father'. In the days of accompanying my daughter in the art test, I experienced joy, entanglement, contradiction and confusion with my children. As the parents of art test candidates, I deeply understand how difficult it is for children to learn art. Perhaps the parents of non-art test candidates can't understand it, and neither can the students of Puwenpuli. They are fighting for their ideals. Who can know and understand the ups and downs? Although I got the professional certificate from Central Academy of Fine Arts, I still left a trace of regret. Fortunately, China Academy of Fine Arts, China Renmin University, Minzu University of China, Capital Normal University, Lu Xun Academy of Fine Arts and Beijing Institute of Printing extended olive branches one by one. I try to write this psychological course in a child's tone, whether it is sadness or pain, whether it is strong or brave, it is my child's and mine.

I haven't written for a long time. I read this article today, and I am filled with emotion. My son's paintings from childhood are excellent among children of the same age in the studio. Even in the fourth grade, he has made great progress. High school students call him the teacher's brother, which is a joke and a stupid trick. It seems to be an appreciation of children's painting achievements. Since the fifth and sixth grade, children have entered adolescence, and for some reasons, they have lost interest in painting. Until April of the third grade, they hardly went to the studio to study, but they were bullied and lured by me for a period of time in the summer vacation of the second grade, and their study during this period has made great progress. I have a dream of getting into the Central Academy of Fine Arts since I was a child. But because I don't know anything about painting, I don't know the true level of children, and I haven't paid attention to what is attached to the Central Academy of Fine Arts. 2013 April 12, I made up my mind to register in official website, and the attached middle school, that is, that day I found my teacher again and said that we were attached to the senior high school entrance examination. Now think about it, it's really troublesome for the teacher. I haven't had an animation pen for almost five years, and I have to go to the best art high school in China! /kloc-After 0/2 days' recovery (ironically, they only paint for one hour every day after school and only paint for a whole day on Sunday), a family of three went to Beijing to take the exam in Yangmei High School. The result can be imagined-fortunately, I didn't have much hope for this exam. During the exam, I met candidates and parents from all over the country and knew my own gap. Chatting with a parent in Henan, he said that primary school children have poor understanding ability and are not as good as junior high school students. The implication is that my children can't. I was still a little unconvinced at that time. However, what he said is right. The requirements of the attached middle school for cultural courses are also quite high, with a total score and a small score. My son only got more than 60 points in English. The trip to the middle school attached to the middle school touched the children very much, and after returning, they resumed their previous weekly studio study. On May 26th, I took the 12 middle school entrance examination for fine arts, and got the 17, which was not bad. I can go to 12 middle school for free. I spent a holiday in the studio after the senior high school entrance examination and made great progress. In the first year of high school, children's academic performance has been significantly improved compared with junior high school, which is also a major reason for wanting children to study in Beijing. 2014 65438+1On October 23rd, we embarked on a train to study in Beijing. After studying for ten days, the effect is remarkable. A family of three celebrated the Spring Festival in Beijing for the first time. During the study, a teacher said that children's grades can be tested in the United States 200 and Central America 300 in the future. Wow! I am really happy in my heart. It seems that hearing this sentence is the happiest thing in my life. However, after checking the admission results over the years, these two rankings are outside the admission, which is really cool. Strange to say, after studying in Beijing studio for ten days, a picture drawn by a child won a lot of praise. Some teachers even asked, "Did you take the Tsinghua exam?" A teacher said, "Central America is no problem, strive for the top ten". Really, it's so inspiring. However, the biggest problem has emerged. Children are now more focused on painting, but they are relaxed about studying culture. This is my most anxious thing now. How many children have high professional scores, but they are planted in cultural classes and English scores. After reading the article "I have been abused by Central America for thousands of times, and I regard Central America as my first love", my worries have deepened. It turns out that a good major may not get the approval certificate from Central America. The reform of college entrance examination started from 20 14, and we are at the forefront of the reform, especially the children of 20 16, who may not even grasp the opportunity to repeat. Actually, anxiety is also very interesting. My son didn't study well when he was a child. I'm not anxious at all. My child has good grades and has the opportunity to move towards higher goals. My anxiety is deepening day by day, probably because I have a higher pursuit, and this goal is too difficult to achieve. The experience of Ling Jun's descendants is certain, and many Central American suitors have gone the same way. Didn't Yantai enter the gate of Central America only after 10 college entrance examination? I wonder what kind of art test path my child will take in the future? Sincerely, sincerely, sincerely, I wish senior three, senior four, senior six, senior seven, senior eight, senior nine and senior ten can be admitted to their ideal universities this year!

I want to dedicate this article to those children who have a central beauty complex. Ling Jun's descendants were born in April 20 14.

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Comments by the owner of "Central American parents" at that time.

After this classmate's article was published on the blog, the third brother, the parent group owner of Yangmei at that time, read it, wrote a comment and sent it to the children. The content is as follows:

I have read everything written by Ling Jun's descendants from beginning to end, but I haven't finished reading it. My eyes are really wet. The child is not easy, and he is a very sensible child. I left him a message. If he is admitted this year, he must invite his parents to the Central American Parents Group. Let everyone share the hard-won joy of success. After he finished writing, I sorted it out and sent it to the group for appreciation. This post is an encouragement to each of our parents and children. Very real, very touching.

A parent of a Central American parent group said with emotion:

"A heart-wrenching art test road, a touching art tester."

20 19 Changsha August 18