My heart is with Guanghuang, I dream of returning to my farmhouse - educated youth in Xiaguan, Yunnan

There is a period of ups and downs in life in the place where the soul is haunted by dreams. People say that those are wasted years. Let time go by without sighing. You have wasted your years without regretting it. Time flies by day and night without giving up. But everyone was indifferent, and their youth faded away for no reason, but people still did not hesitate. Even if the future is bleak, he still remains committed to it, resolutely responds to the call, steps into the vast world, takes root in the border areas, and works peacefully in farming. When you are young, you should be sitting in school, studying hard, chasing your dreams, and blooming in the passionate years. However, having too many fantasies can lead to confusion, distant visions, and the impermanence of life, which will only leave mottled traces and spiritual trauma.

Time has passed and the past cannot be recalled. The sea has turned into a mulberry field, the sky does not seem so bright, the Erhai Lake is no longer so wide, those beautiful stories are gradually forgotten by people, the good wishes cannot become reality, and the destination of the soul has changed. For empty talk. Fortunately, that period of history, as a spiritual wealth, has been recognized and praised by the world, engraved on brand-new stone tablets, recorded in historical books, and will remain in the hearts of educated youth forever.

I cannot forget the scene of leaving school. The sadness I felt when I walked into the campus and said goodbye to my alma mater still makes me feel sad. Take a last look at the beautiful flower beds, the lush pomegranate garden, and the dense cypress forest, where there are footprints of students walking among them. The beautiful red house, the spacious and bright classrooms, and how many outstanding young students have come out of it are so dazzling. Large football fields, standard basketball courts, and multi-functional auditoriums are places that people talk about and never forget. Many literary and artistic backbones and top sportsmen are all obsessed with them and stand out. Now, I can only sigh, five years of high school study life is over like this, farewell to the beautiful campus! From then on, there were no more students on campus and the school ceased to exist. The students have to go to the vast world, jump in and settle down, and receive re-education. They will no longer be the students they were before and become educated youth in the vast world. This is also true. Three years later, the school address was allocated to a large factory, and everything on the campus disappeared in the turbulent years. And this generation has wasted ten years and can no longer go to school. They are completely desperate for further education.

The educated youth set out to leave their hometown. The citizens saw them off and hoped to return. They carried their treasured books and took root. The children of Fengcheng arrived in Binchuan. This scene from more than fifty years ago is unforgettable. It is the shadow that cannot be erased, the scar that is difficult to heal, and the complex of the "educated youth", which is exciting. Integrated into my life are not only classmates and alumni, but also fellow educated youths who have gone through thick and thin, working hand in hand on the road of life, like a link throughout the ups and downs.

The winter of 1968 was the most unbearable in the past few years. The thousand-year-old snow on Cangshan Mountain was so cold that it made people tremble. It did not have the softness of the "Silver Green Jade Er" in the past, nor the "lust". The courage to compete with God." The waves of the Erhai Lake are turbulent, violently pushing the torrent, hitting the embankment and setting off wild waves. The sound of the waves echoes among the "Hundred Mountains and Rivers", continues to spread into the distance, and disappears into the silent seaside city. People no longer have the passion and interest to use their pens and ink to point out the world. At the end of the year, those influential figures who once performed passionately on the ups and downs of the stage looked up to the sky and sighed in confusion, watching the sunset and the remaining light of the snow gradually dissipating, and the mist on the green land became heavy, and they regretted the impermanence of life and the harshness of the world. The most intelligent radicals in society may never have thought that their extreme behavior not only cost them a heavy price, but also caused kind-hearted people to suffer. Ordinary people are still living their days in fear, not knowing where they are going. They let the west wind blowing from Jiangfeng Temple howl and pick up the sand, circling on the desolate embankment, feeling the uneasiness caused by the angry impact of the windy city. The most unrestrained ones are the students, a group of unfettered darlings. They don't know yet that a storm is coming.

The New Year has just passed. People are immersed in the joyful atmosphere of the festival and have not yet recovered. Sudden changes have put everyone under tremendous pressure again. Students from Xiaguan Middle School have to go to the countryside to settle down. This incident touches people's hearts and is a major event involving thousands of households. No matter how you understand it, it will always stir up everyone's spirit. Although the top directive has already spread to every corner of the city and is deeply rooted in the hearts of the people, it is an abstract provision after all and cannot eliminate the doubts in the minds of students and parents.

When the overall situation was decided and the plan came out, the border towns began to boil with excitement. Slogans, banners and flags, documents and notices were all over the streets and alleys. Media, newspapers and radio broadcasted the news, urging people to express their stance and take active actions. Teams from all walks of life marched into the campus, and many people gave lectures step by step. Students expressed their determination to the organization and resolutely settled in the countryside. Parents expressed their hopes to their work units and supported their children in going to the countryside without holding them back. From the time the top directive was issued to the students starting their journey, everything was ready within a few months. The decision-makers plan and finalize the case, the executors handle the matter quickly, the parents consider the overall situation, and the students make resolute decisions. The children of Fengcheng go to the countryside with pride, jump in and settle down there, and take root.

The classmates of the old high school seniors and the old high school sophomores are older and have many worries. They have traveled all over the world through wind and rain. They are senior and have deep experience. They have seen the world and see far. Most of them are worried and feel that their future is bleak. The students in the first and second grades of junior high school are in their prime and full of courage. They have the aura radiated by the rising sun and have the courage to become a heroic young man who can hold the world in his hands. These students live a carefree life, happily go to the countryside, and are confident that they have a bright future.

January 19, 1969 is a day that can never be forgotten. On this day, more than 900 students from Xiaguan Middle School gathered at the illuminated stadium to hold a massive swearing-in ceremony. Facing the scorching sun, carrying my luggage and the Little Red Book, I swore to the statue of Chairman Mao to go to the countryside, to the vast world, and receive re-education from the poor and lower-middle peasants. The solemn vows lingered over the ancient city for a long time. From this moment on, students become educated youth. Although there is no essential change, they move towards society like a dream, and go to places where they have never wanted to go. People in the city are not willing to go. In the end, the world will not understand, because from this At that time, students could no longer be seen on the beautiful Xiaguan Middle School campus, and the sound of reading could no longer be heard. Some were sad and some sighed. "Educated youth" should be the halo that shows off to the world. They are young people who have received systematic education from school and are knowledgeable. It goes without saying that "educated youth" should be a colorful and affectionate title. However, the interpretation of history is very ruthless, and no expression or discussion can make it clear.

Looking at the exciting and noisy scene, facing the tearful farewell crowd, the students' blood was boiling, and they were so angry that they threw their arms away angrily and walked on foot, leaving the chaotic small town and setting foot on the flat road. Take the great road and walk into the vast world. If you don’t make great achievements, you will never look back.

Binchuan is adjacent to Xiaguan, a hundred and twenty miles away. It is very convenient to travel by car or on foot. In previous years, the desolate villages along the way, the deserted rocky hills, and the rocky road with danger of landslides at any time, were deserted and quiet. Except for trucks that occasionally passed by, there were only a few tourists. On January 19, 1969, educated youths from Xiaguan Middle School went to Binchuan to join the queue and settled in the countryside. From then on, this mountain road winding along the steep mountains became a bumpy road for educated youths.

More than 900 educated youths who walked from Xiaguan had to camp and stay at an old post station on the way. They took a break here and found the feeling of being an educated youth for the first time in life. The noisy scene of Xiaguan Lighting Stadium when I set out was always lingering in my mind. The indelible shadow often bothered me and made people feel depressed. The accommodation in this small area is limited, the mountains are remote, the villages are small, the accommodation is simple, the houses are narrow and short, and the troubles caused by rats and insect pests keep everyone awake all night. How could a pampered and pampered darling who could not tolerate grievances and restraints withstand unwarranted torture? When they were studying in school, the students lived in spacious dormitories, drank sweet spring water, and lived a carefree life without any worries. Young students who are accustomed to living a comfortable life suddenly come to a strange place where cocks crow and dogs bark. The huge contrast and sadness of loss make the depressed people more painful and the cowardly people are frightened.

Once in this life, hard to find in a hundred years, the deep affection will shine through the ages. Stepping into Binchuan County, the grand scene of poor and lower-middle peasants welcoming educated young people is deeply touching. Niujing Town is bustling with traffic, loud gongs and drums, flying flags, and welcoming people stretching for miles. "Welcome educated youth to settle down in the countryside", huge red cloth signs, some hung on both ends of the tall doors, and some floated on the big chun trees at the intersections beside the village. The eaves and walls of the houses in the central area were covered with welcoming slogans, and the neighborhood market was ablaze. Men, women, old and young took notice of the news and went to the streets to look up and wait for the arrival of the educated youth.

The walking team of educated youths were exhausted and came here with heavy steps. Looking at this scene, their eyes lit up, their eyebrows stretched, and they were extremely excited. The physical fatigue subsided instantly, and the melancholy in their hearts Gradually ease. Experienced coachmen drive carriages and wait by the roadside, quietly waiting for the arrival of educated youths to transport them in all directions. Kind old farmers driving bullock carts and simple horse-driving men were busy carrying luggage, so that the educated youths who had just arrived on foot could unburden themselves and make it easy for them to hit the road. The women, with their children in their hands, were happily walking through the crowd looking for queue jumpers from their own village. The young man happily held his new partner in front of him, thinking about how to have fun with his future playmate. Elementary school students wander around looking for future teachers and place their hopes and dreams on them. Because of the arrival of educated youth, the vast world is busy, and this scene and feeling will be unforgettable for the rest of my life.

Enter the vast world, take the first step in life, accept the test of society, and endure the temper of life. Entering a farmhouse for the first time, stepping into a farmer's house and experiencing rural family life. The strange village is full of criss-crossing paths. The gravel paths pass through the village and extend to every corner here. Mules, horses, cattle and sheep can be seen everywhere, chickens and dogs smell each other, smoke curls from cooking stoves, traditional countryside, scenes, rich countryside Life and resume are all around you. Outside the village are wide fields with criss-crossing fields, ponds and ditches intersecting with each other. People walk among the fields and work hard. The lives of farmers are closely linked to this land. Rows of houses are built along the hillside, with thatched roofs, thick walls, thick beams and vertical columns, wooden doors with hanging curtains, and gauzy window lattice, which are warm in winter and cool in summer. The poor and lower-middle peasants living here have stayed on this hot land all their lives, with houses that provide shelter from wind and rain, and they live a happy life.

It was the middle of winter when the educated youth came here. The warm sun shone on the high stone steps. People squatted against the corners of the mud walls to bask in the sun and chat, sitting on the stone steps leisurely. It is the slack period of farming, and there is little farm work in the fields. It is the time for wheat to joint and broad beans to bloom. Silt is being dredged, and ponds and canals are being built to prepare for the spring seedlings. The wheat is green in the early spring of this year, but the grain is still yellow in the late autumn of last year. The frogs in the lotus root pond in front of the door are noisy, and the bean flowers in the border fields beside the fence are fragrant. Before the Spring Festival, Guanghuang Village welcomed more than 30 educated youths. The village of more than 400 people had the conditions to accept these educated youths.

Looking back on the past, what I remember most is the Naxi River, which flows endlessly to the east of the village. Although the river is not deep, has no vast momentum, and does not have turbulent waves, the shallow waters separate Guanghuang and Lijiao Bazi, making it a secluded corner of the paradise. What is displayed in front of people is the aura endowed by the remaining veins at the foot of Jizu Mountain, the blessings God has given to the people of Guanghuang, and the simple and radiant cohesion of the folk customs. People living here can proudly say that this is a Lijiao city. The richest place, the farmers here have no worries about food and clothing. It is this small river that does not stir up waves that makes this red land full of vitality. Living near the water is the best choice for people, and being close to the mountains and rivers is a treasure land of Feng Shui. Anyone of that generation who has lived there will feel the envy of people from all over the world. In the course of my life, this period of life as an educated youth was only a short two or three years, and it left a very clear impression. No matter how scarce the daily necessities are, the life of educated youth is still guaranteed. The farmers have paid too much for us. After that period of physical exercise and mental tempering, I have many emotions. We must be grateful and grateful to the people who accepted us, those honest and kind rural people.

Enter social life and come to the bitter cold place in the northernmost part of the county, which should be the bottom of the countryside. They are all hard-working farmers and hospitable enthusiastic people. They have a deep friendship and jump in the queue for the educated youth to receive "re-education". They are willing to dedicate themselves and do their best to make these young students feel like home. Enter life, step into villages, and go from house to house to understand the living, production conditions, customs and customs of rural areas and farmers, experience first-hand the poverty in rural areas, the boring spiritual and cultural life, and experience how hard-won "meal on the plate" is.

The wading water is shallow at the foot of Jizu Mountain, and the roots are deep on the bank of Naxi River. Sitting in the field is soaked in dew, and walking in the market is dusty. This is a portrayal of the life of educated youth. There is no sadness or sadness. What you feel is the warm sunshine in the vast world, the fresh air, the trickling streams, and the joyful songs and laughter of the workers in the fields. Guanghuang Village is a remote corner, surrounded by mountains and hot water. The clear springs of Jizu Mountain nourish this fertile land.

The Naxi River flows slowly in front of the village. The paddy fields on both sides and the dry land on the hillside are the foundation for the survival of the villagers. The farmers who work hard on this land have lived here for generations. They are diligent and thrifty in managing their families, and are not afraid of hard work to build their own beauty. home. God rewards hard work and hard work pays off. People in the Li Jiao area are envious of the prosperous and livable villages.

Guanghuang Village is a large village with four production teams and more than 400 people living there. It has spacious courtyards, high-rise tile-roofed houses, and contiguous thatched huts. The villagers are self-sufficient. This kind of place is suitable for accepting educated youths. It is also very suitable for more than thirty people in a class to be arranged here. They are all classmates who know each other in the same class. They work and live in the same village. Everyone is satisfied. It is an ideal place to jump in and a new home for educated youth. A group of seven or eight people are assigned to a production team. They go to the homes of wealthy people to eat. They sit in the main room and eat at the same table with the head of the household and his family three times a day. There is no need to work or pay, and it is warm and cozy. Accommodation is in the public house of the production team, with tile-roofed roofs and pavilions, sheltered from the wind and facing the sun, spacious and bright, allowing for rest and entertainment without worries. The classmates and classmates back then are now living and working together again, resting from sunrise to sunset. You can see people working in the fields, you can hear the happy singing of classmates on the roadside at the entrance of the village, and you can see people running on the road. . We stay together day and night, live in harmony, say hello when we meet on the road, smoke and drink together in our free time, read books and newspapers, reminisce and chat, we meet every day and have topics to talk about every day.

The Spring Festival of 1969 came too late. New Year's Eve was not celebrated until mid-February, and the educated youth who had just settled down had to go home to celebrate the Spring Festival. The passenger terminals in the two places were overcrowded. People were waiting at the ticket windows with travel passes in hand, anxious as they would not be able to board the train until soon. It has only been about a month since I first joined the farm, and I haven't yet found the feeling of being an educated youth. It's a bit urgent that my classmates have to go home again. We walked in a mighty way when we arrived. On the day we arrived at Niujing, we were immediately dispersed to the production team, not knowing where to go home. It was the Chinese New Year, and the students gathered in Niujing again. How could the small bus station accommodate so many people? People who are eager to go home but don’t know what to do, who have no patience and don’t want to waste time, simply walk on foot. This is a confusing and tortuous, steep and desolate road. There is no green grass, only yellow sand, no woods, rugged rocks everywhere, drought, barrenness and desolation.

Running on this road, there are educated youths who are homesick for the past, and there are worried parents. They are so close, but the mountains are high, the water is deep, the sea is vast, and there are layers of barriers, making it difficult to move forward. Old people are often missed, old friends have been cherished for a long time, close friends are caring in every possible way, and many emotions in the world are expressed here. Educated youth start their journey with great difficulty. The vast world is not a gentle place. Their vain fantasies and unrealistic behaviors will only add trouble to themselves. This is a down-to-earth place of hard work. Some people call it purgatory, while others think it is an enlightenment school for self-cultivation and family development. No matter what, this is a place with great potential.