QQ space classic long talk

>>1 The more distant something is and the more it is shrouded in layers of fog, the more it arouses people's desire to explain it. I didn't know the truth, so I was inexplicably touched, and I searched for the answer all the way, but I never thought about what I would do if I knew the truth. >>2 The memory of the last time we had dinner together is like a figure looking at each other across the chasm. At that time, you cried or laughed, I was quiet or spoke, I don’t know. It’s just that we have never met each other since then. The flow of life has taken a wrong turn, leaving you and me wandering in different worlds. After you left, I began to have hallucinations. I always felt like I met you on the road. I looked at you in a hurry, but all of them were unfamiliar faces. As I went up and down, my heart became more and more empty. I also imagined that you would suddenly appear one day, pat my shoulder and ask for directions, just like when you and I first met, the sun was warm and the air was filled with throbbing breath. When growing up, there are always facts that you don’t want to believe but have to face. I thought you would be with me, but you have already disappeared in the vast sea of ??people, but you are still lingering around me like a human figure. Some impressions from the past have been deeply engraved in my mind like imprints, and they cannot be removed. We drank and chatted freely on the bench under the street lamp, talking about our ideals, future and family. It seems like tomorrow we will be 70 and 80 years old. We go for a walk in the park with a cane in the morning, and watch the setting sun in front of our home in the evening. It is so peaceful and leisurely every day. If life can jump, I would rather choose such a day, even if it means losing most of my life. I told you before that I hate rainy days. However, I didn't tell you that after meeting you, I no longer hate rainy days. If there is a cool breeze and drizzle, we can walk among the crowd and look at all kinds of umbrellas. The world will not become dim due to the accumulation of dark clouds. I can turn my umbrella and stay with you like a child. In fact, what I am more happy about is the pouring rain. You tightly hold on to my clothes, allowing me to hold you in my arms. Every time, it seems that the world becomes blurred, only your figure is left in the pupils, and time is like a movie. The slow motion playback allows me to clearly see your smile and frown. I choose not to go near those places full of memories, for fear of recalling those happy days. However, the word love is always difficult to let go of. No matter how much you resist in your heart, it will inevitably pass by again. It's like just looking at it slightly, and you can feel the gentle breath again when you close your eyes. I don’t think anyone will like to walk one step above me when walking up the stairs. This is just so that you can put your hands on my shoulders comfortably and create a scene where you want to tease me. No more Who would find me in the crowd and then sneak up behind me and hold my finger, then turn around and pretend to be pitiful. In those young and carefree days, love was so young and pure. >>3 During the days when you left, I began to gradually become quieter, and those scenes of youth were less and less able to touch my increasingly silent heart. This was just my self-righteous maturity, just because you had been there for a long time. I used to say I wasn't mature enough. I thought about it for a long time, but I still didn't know how immature I was. You never explained it, you just told me that we liked each other and I was very happy being around you. But I always feel that you don't understand me clearly yet. You should be more mature. Entering a person's life is not that simple. I ask you if you doubt that I will always give up and leave you in the future. You smiled brightly, lowered your head and kicked the stones and walked forward. When you realized that I didn't want to continue with you, you turned back. When I was worried, you suddenly covered my cheeks with your hands and said in an extremely serious tone, I know you won't. I can't bear to leave you either. If I could, I would be willing to rely on you for the rest of my life. "It's just about the future, we don't know what it will be like." This is what you said very quietly later. Maybe you didn't want me to hear it, but just sighed, and I was more or less too happy, so I didn't care. However, this situation is somewhat verifying the unknown nature of our lives. I have thought of various reasons for your departure, but none of them constitute the reason for you to leave so decisively without any news. When I was hurting, I even doubted whether we were separated by Yin and Yang. This thought made me sleepless for countless nights, and my heart twitched as if all the darkness collapsed on me. I had to sit up and take in big gulps of air to relieve my cloudy breath and the tears in my eyes. Even if it makes me sad, I want to know your news.

>>4 The continuous gloomy rainy days finally began to dissipate, and there was still a considerable amount of humidity in the air. There were many water stains of different sizes on the road, but it could not stop the pedestrians from gradually accelerating their pace. After removing their umbrellas, it seemed that everything on their shoulders was The burdens were lifted, and the world returned to its original rhythm. The decoration of the coffee shop we used to frequent was still lackluster. After the rain, there were still occasional drops of water dripping from the eaves. They were subtle and insignificant, but I could hear them clearly, just like my amplified heartbeat. Five months after you disappeared, a letter sent from afar finally made my increasingly calm and silent heart swell with excitement and deep uneasiness, just like a castaway who found an isolated island at sea. I saw the light of day, but I didn't know if this was a deserted island with no human habitation. The end of hope might also be despair. >>5 Shaoan, no matter how you feel, please read this letter. I chose to leave like this. I didn't plan to contact you. I just calmed down recently and I always feel uneasy. I decided to tell you some things as a formal farewell to express our concern for each other. During the previous holiday, I encountered some hardships and became ill as a result. I don’t want to recall or describe the details in detail. I just want to let you know that there will always be many unbearable hardships in the world, but I never thought about them. It fell on me later. During that time, I seemed to have lost my soul. I hid in my room all day long. I just felt like I was trapped in a deserted well, cold and desperate. Even if there was a glimmer of light, it could not guide my inner thoughts at all. direction. I still chose to abandon this world. If you were by my side now, you could still see clear marks on my wrist. I thought about this life, but my parents found out and dragged me back to this dirty world. Shaoan, when I was with you, I once felt that life was lovely and the world was warm and full of hope. But for me, who now abandons my dignity and lives in this world, I can only see filth and filth. Before that, I had thought that we would have a happy future, but now, as I am no longer pure, I am unable and unwilling to participate in your life again. I will find a strange place to spend the rest of my life, just hoping Don't let your life have twists and turns because of me. No matter you remember me or forget me, as long as you are happy, it is my greatest happiness to love you so much. I don’t want to forget you in this life. If there is an afterlife, we will get to know you again. >>6 I have always believed that there will always be a common hope that will keep us from abandoning each other. On this road of life, we cannot be alone. We always hope that there will be someone to share your sorrow with you, *** Have fun. Qiqi, I will never forget you. If I can't find you, I will naturally stay where you are and wait for you until you untie all the shackles in your heart. I saw that the sunshine after the rain was finally warm and gorgeous.