What does it feel like to be deaf and unable to hear?

I remember that I met twins before, both of whom had atresia of the external auditory canal. After wearing bone conduction hearing aids on them, one child cried and the other grinned. That day made me I feel that my major and what I have learned are really meaningful! Being an adult from normal to deafness is like being in the dark in a house without light. Every step you take is like panic, and you feel like you are walking into an abyss with every step you take. I can only see other people's lips moving, but I don't know if the other person is talking to me, I feel isolated, and then become more and more autistic; In order to disguise my invisible disability, I focus on catching other people's lips; Going out Finally, I couldn't hear the sound of birds, couldn't feel the charm of sound, and felt no sense of security. When a baby is deaf, hearing aid is like walking out of a dark house. Every step of the way, you will be surprised. It turns out that the world can be like this. I have experienced many novel things, learned to call mom and dad, learned to say I am hungry, learned to express various emotions with language, learned to say I love you, and use my ears to grasp the language of communication with life. In general, not being able to hear sounds is the dark side of the world for you, me and him. What you hear is different. Being completely deaf in one ear means that the deaf ear cannot hear any sound and has no effect. It is like seeing with one eye and being unable to locate distance. Therefore, people who are completely deaf cannot feel surround sound (one ear is just like a speaker that cannot emit surround sound). As I grew up, I suddenly realized that I was different. Congenital deafness in left ear. It turns out there is such a thing as the binaural effect. Let’s talk about it in life. Always walk on the left side of others, and feel particularly insecure on the right side. When people whisper into my left ear, I can only pretend to be stupid and pass it off with a smile. In fact, I feel very uncomfortable. Sometimes I am considered cold and disappointed.