2020-09-17

Chapter 161? Sustainability of life

According to "Brother Hai"'s last wish, he and Huimin's sister-in-law's bodies were donated to Harbin Medical University for use in Harbin. Medical university teaching. Organs are used to treat patients who have long been waiting for organ transplants. "Brother Hai" once said during his lifetime that he had discussed with Huimin's sister-in-law and reached a consensus. He said that this "decision" was another kind of rebirth for the couple. The couple’s journey was valuable and meaningful, and it was also a return to society.

"Some people are alive, he is dead; some people are dead, he is still alive." "Brother Hai" was not only charitable during his lifetime, but also performed earth-shattering acts of kindness after his death. "Brother Hai"'s righteous act is deeply touching. To say it is "ground-breaking" is by no means sensational. Because in China's traditional culture that has existed for thousands of years, people regard getting a complete corpse as a way to rest in peace after a hundred years. For society, body donation makes a great contribution to social medical and health services. Human anatomy, human organ transplantation, etc. all require a large number of sources of remains. "Brother Hai" is in his prime, especially to get a young and beautiful female corpse like Huimin's sister-in-law, which is also very rare at Harbin Medical University. Because the shortage of corpses has become a common problem in major medical schools, most of the corpses obtained are those who died of old age and illness, and their organs have failed. Even so, the full autopsy class was often pushed back again and again. Because according to folk customs, even if a patient volunteers to devote himself to medicine during his lifetime, the children of the deceased often do not allow it, thinking that it is an insult to the deceased. Therefore, every corpse is a rare internship opportunity, and the young and fresh ones are extremely precious.

It’s not that I don’t understand that for individuals, body donation is a manifestation of noble personality and a scientific attitude and value towards oneself, society and even nature. After a person dies, his body has no meaning to him. Regardless of whether a person has a soul after death, body donation is of great significance. On the one hand, people want to contribute to society and mankind after death, which in itself is a high social morality. On the other hand, some people believe that after death, others can use their organs to illuminate the lives of others. Some people even think that when their organs enter other people's bodies and function, they are reborn in a sense, and they are willing to donate their bodies.

However, I have many doubts about the decisions made by "Brother Hai" and his wife during their lifetime. When I was in my hometown, I once met an old Taoist from Shenqingguan in Kunyu Mountain who was carrying a gourd on his back and begging for water. Shenqing Temple in Kunyu Mountain is the birthplace of Quanzhen Taoism and is regarded as the "ancestral home of Quanzhen Taoism". In the seventh year of Dading in the Jin Dynasty, that is, 1167 AD, Xianyang Taoist Wang Chongyang traveled east from Zhongnan Mountain and practiced Taoism in Kunyu Mountain. He also recruited seven people, including Ma Yu, Tan Chuduan, Qiu Chuji, Wang Chuyi, Hao Datong, Sun Buer, and Liu Chuxuan. He practiced here and was known as the "Northern Qizhenren" in history. In Jin Yong Jin's The Condor Trilogy, it is very famous.

This old Taoist calls himself "Xuan Clan". He is probably eighty or ninety years old. He is born with a childlike face and white hair. He is energetic and has an air of immortality in his movements. Out of curiosity, I started chatting with this veteran "Xuan Chen".

I first asked about the life of a monk, and the old Taoist smiled and said: "The Quanzhen Taoism in Kunyu Mountain has many clear rules and precepts. ...First of all, things that fly in the sky, things that walk on the ground, and things that swim in the water I can’t even eat it. I still have to collect firewood, collect herbs, and do chores... In the dead of night, under the light of green lights and incense, I read and study for two hours every day.

"Can you understand the scriptures?..." I was still curious and couldn't help but ask.

"If you don’t understand it at first, remember to memorize it first, and then slowly understand it later. After studying it for a few years, I feel that the general meaning of Quanzhen religion is to be pure from desire, to practice asceticism, and to save the poor. To get rid of suffering, put others before yourself, be selfless in things..." When Taoist priest Xuanchen said this, he recited the "Sixteen Jue of Shenqing Guan" written by Qiu Chuji like a treasure.

There is an idiom called "Outstanding people and outstanding people", which also talks about the principle that "people" and "land" are interdependent and complementary to each other. The ‘earth spirit’ will create ‘outstanding people’, and the ‘outstanding people’ will bless the ‘earth spirit’. Feng shui is a blessing for people to live in a blessed place. Blessed land and blessed people. …If you put aside the human factor, it’s not Feng Shui, it’s just a piece of land. The real Feng Shui is not something external or sought out. The greatest Feng Shui is actually the human heart! ...The so-called fortune, fortune, and feng shui are all "little feng shui", which have an impact on people but are not absolute. The greatest feng shui is the human heart. To put it simply, if the human heart is good, the feng shui will naturally be good. When people's hearts are bad, good Feng Shui will also turn bad. ..."

I would not let go easily when I met someone with such profound knowledge. I then asked: "Confucius said, 'If you don't know destiny, you can't be a gentleman; if you don't know etiquette, you can't stand up. Also; if you don’t know faith, you can’t know others. …’ Didn’t Confucius put forward three requirements for the gentleman here, namely, ‘know destiny’, ‘know etiquette’, and ‘know words’? ...and emphasized that this is an issue that a gentleman needs to pay special attention to when he conducts himself in society. ...How do you understand this? ..."

Taoist priest Xuanchen smiled and said: "You can teach me! ...Confucius said, "The three principles of the gentleman's way are: I am incompetent; the benevolent do not worry; the knowledgeable do not doubt; the brave do not fear." '...Child, do you understand? ..."

I nodded and said, "Thank you for the advice, Master! … Confucius meant that ‘the way of a gentleman has three aspects, which I failed to achieve: a virtuous person will not be sad, a wise person will not be confused, and a courageous person will not be afraid. ’ As a gentleman, Confucius believed that there are many necessary qualities. Here he emphasized three aspects of them, namely ‘benevolence’, ‘wisdom’ and ‘courage’! ..."

Taoist Master Xuanchen stood up with a smile and said: "There is a sentence in "The Doctrine of the Mean", which is called 'Destiny is called nature, spontaneity is called Tao, and cultivating the Tao is called teaching. ’…Xing is the spirituality ordained by heaven. With this spirituality, people can do good or evil; they can be a gentleman or a villain; they can be a saint or a mediocre person; they can transcend the ordinary and become saints, and they can follow the trend. ...Today, I had a chat with my little friend, and it made me feel happy! …‘Although Wolong has found his master, it’s a pity that he didn’t get it at the right time! What a pity! ’..."

Taoist Master Xuanchen said this and left with a loud laugh. But I kept muttering in my heart: "'Although Wolong has found his master, it's a pity that he didn't get it at the right time! What a pity? ’...What does this mean? ..."

Although Taoist Xuanchen's words were mysterious, I was too lazy to think about it. Until I learned that "Brother Hai" had made a last wish before his death, and that he and Huimin's sister-in-law's bodies would be donated to Harbin Medical University for use. Teaching at Harbin Medical University, organs are used to treat patients who have long been waiting for organ transplants. Only then did I think of the words of Taoist Xuanzang.

When my fourth brother "Old Gaoli" and I talked about Xuan. When asked by Taoist Master Chen, he said: "There are similar views in Buddhism! ...'All living beings have Buddha-nature and are worthy of becoming Buddhas, but they cannot achieve it through delusion and attachment. ’ ‘Everyone has the elixir of immortality, but he is throwing it away in vain. ’… After all, the most important thing is still your own practice. Other feng shui, transcendence, etc. are only auxiliary, not the dominant factor. Considering how body donation should be viewed in this way, the result is already clear. ..."

I frowned and said: "Fourth brother, in Chinese medicine, it is said that the liver stores the soul, the lungs store the soul, the heart stores the spirit, the kidneys store the will, and the spleen stores the mind. If the liver and lungs store the mind, , hearts, kidneys and spleens are transplanted to different patients respectively. What can we do with different souls? ..."

The fourth brother "Lao Gaoli" said to me: "The eighth brother is a stinker. Donating is 'empty', and not donating is also 'empty'. ...'No interruption, no destruction'. When talking about 'emptiness', we must transcend 'emptiness', and we cannot be attached to 'emptiness'. ..."

It seems that the fourth brother "Lao Gaoli" has achieved "great enlightenment". "Great enlightenment" is a state of mind. It means that at that moment, people have seen through everything in the space and feel that there is nothing worthwhile anymore. If you pursue it, you already understand it. Only those who have learned to give up and lose are qualified to have it. According to the fourth brother "Lao Gaoli", "great enlightenment" does not only occur in Buddhism. "Buddha" is just a state. If you are truly enlightened, you can see things everywhere.

For a person who is fully enlightened, there is nothing in life that he cannot understand. .

In fact, many people hope that they can become a wise man, a person who can think openly and take things easy and let go. A person who is profoundly enlightened will be indifferent to fame and wealth, be tranquil and far-reaching, pay attention to self-cultivation, and use his whole life's energy to complete the most sacred mission of his life.

The bodies of "Brother Hai" and sister-in-law Huimin were taken away by Harbin Medical University. It is not known how many people in critical condition will benefit from it, but the lives of "Brother Hai" and his wife will be preserved in the Great Love. Continuation. I suddenly remembered a poem that I had forgotten where I had read: "A skin is left in the world, and you must practice virtue in life and practice in death. Lend your body to others, and you will live for another few decades."

I suddenly had a strange idea. I thought to myself, I wonder if "White Rose" Yang Baijin will have the opportunity to participate in the autopsy of the remains of "Brother Hai" and sister-in-law Huimin. This reminds me of an autopsy story she once told.

Every girl is afraid of death. It is an unfathomable fear, like a flowing cold needle that penetrates from the soles of your feet and circulates in your body through the blood. Wander. You don’t know when it will reach your heart, it may be half a year, it may be a month, it may be a minute. According to "White Rose", the first live autopsy she participated in, although she was mentally prepared and did not vomit, still left her with an extremely strong sense of discomfort. This class was the most unforgettable class in her and her classmates' lives. In the next half month, she never ate meat, especially meat dishes such as fried pork liver.

The corpse lay quietly on the dissecting table. Before the anatomy class began, the corpse was covered with white cloth. The teacher told the students the precautions and the importance of autopsy in medicine as usual. Finally, students were asked to treat the corpse with high respect. The students' eyes were curious and a little scared, but no one said a word, as if they were waiting for an extremely serious moment.

After the students bowed three times to the deceased, the white cloth was lifted, and there were a few slight sighs among the students. This is the corpse of a very young female, only about 25 or 26 years old. It is said that she was a secretary before her death. She committed suicide by slitting her wrists due to emotional problems. Her family dug out a donation form from her belongings. , filled in when I was a student. Young people rarely think about such things. Why would she have such a wish? Maybe it will always be a mystery. The deceased was not a very beautiful girl. Her eye sockets were a little sunken. She may have been under a lot of pressure during her lifetime. Her eyes were closed, her expression was peaceful, as if she was asleep, and there was no sign of rigor mortis at all. Perhaps death was really a relief for her.

As usual, the teacher covered the corpse's face with a kerchief. This is not only to respect the deceased, but also to prevent the hideous appearance of the deceased from making students feel fear and thus affecting teaching. The face of the deceased could not be seen, and the pale body of the deceased stood out abruptly.

"Students, be quiet!... Let's start now!..." The teacher said seriously, signaling the students to focus on the anatomy demonstration table. There was silence all around. The teacher took out the scalpel from the plate and put it against the throat of the deceased. The white plastic gloves matched the skin color of the female corpse, making it suffocatingly white. The corpse of the deceased was still a little soft, and the skin remained elastic. For some reason, the teacher's scalpel didn't scratch it.

A thought came to "White Rose"'s mind: It's such a pity that this girl died!

The students stared at the scalpel with their eyes wide open. The teacher finally slashed the blade downward with force. The sharp scalpel barely encountered resistance and reached the lower abdomen of the female corpse, as if it was pulled apart. Chain, students can clearly hear the slight "sizzling" sound when the scalpel cuts through the flesh. Due to the pressure in the body cavity, the cut skin and purple muscles automatically opened to both sides. The deceased's originally strong breasts hung to both sides of the body, and the skin became very loose.

After using a fixator to pull apart the skin and muscles of the female corpse, the internal organs were completely displayed in front of the students. The internal organs were taken out one by one, and the teacher explained it to the students in detail. After the internal organs were completely removed, only a red body cavity remained on the female corpse.

The anatomy class teacher taught it seriously and it went very smoothly. Although several students turned blue with discomfort and almost all the students were a little nauseous, they still withstood the challenge as future students. Doctors must go through the ordeal and firmly remember the structure of the human body, which will have a profound impact on their future medical careers. In other words, this class is by no means in vain. However, what "White Rose" tells next is a bit scary.

After the students left, the teacher was the only one left in the anatomy demonstration room. The white light shined strongly on the dissecting table, reflecting a dazzling light. In accordance with the regulations, the teacher began to place the internal organs removed from the female corpse back to their original positions one by one, and then used threads to sew the skin back layer by layer. As is. The school bell struck five times, and the teacher took off the scarf covering the face of the female body. At this time, something unexpected and horrific happened. The female corpse suddenly opened her eyes and looked at the teacher fiercely. The teacher turned around instinctively and was so frightened that he stepped back and almost fell to the ground. The teacher stood up tremblingly and found that it was not an hallucination. The female corpse was staring at the ceiling with her round eyes open. Her expression was not as peaceful as before, but with an angry look on her face. The teacher became emboldened, went up and inspected it carefully, and finally found a reasonable explanation. Maybe it was bioelectricity. The dissection process triggered some kind of bioelectrical nerve reflex. The teacher closed the eyes of the female corpse, covered the white cloth back, and walked out of the anatomy room.

A few days later, the eyes of the female corpse kept swaying in the teacher’s mind. The teacher was not a supernaturalist, but for some reason, those eyes haunted the teacher like a ghost. The teacher always thought Why did the female corpse open her eyes at this time, especially that look in her eyes. When the teacher thought about it later, it seemed that it conveyed some kind of message, and it was not exactly like the empty eyes of a dead person. A year has passed and the teacher seems to have forgotten about this incident. During this period, the teacher made a girlfriend. One rainy night, the teacher came home from a meeting at school. It was raining heavily and there was no one on the road. The teacher was walking alone with an umbrella. While walking, the teacher suddenly noticed that there was an extra person behind him, and he always followed him leisurely. The teacher was a little nervous. It would be terrible if he met a robber at this time. The teacher deliberately quickened his pace, and the man also quickened his pace, still following him four or five meters behind.

After walking for a long time, the teacher finally couldn't bear it any longer and had the courage to turn around to see what was going on. But the result was unexpected. It turned out that the person following him was not a gangster, but a slender girl wearing a yellow raincoat. The teacher asked the girl unhappily: "Why are you following me?..."

"Oh...yes...I'm sorry, I'm scared of walking alone at night....So..." The girl was timid. He looked at the teacher and said.

The teacher breathed a sigh of relief and said with a smile: "Then how do you know that I am not a bad person?..."

The girl laughed: "Because you are like a teacher, and the teacher is very good." He's probably a bad person..."

"Haha... you guessed it, I'm the teacher, don't be afraid! It's not safe for you as a girl, I'll give you a ride..." Teacher! Take pride in earning trust in your profession. He walked and chatted with the girl until he sent her home.

After that night, the teacher and the girl often met on the way home and gradually became familiar with each other. The teacher never dared to tell the girl the nature of his job. The girl only knew that he was a teacher at Harbin Medical University. One day, the teacher finally told the girl that he was a lecturer on human anatomy. The girl was not as surprised and scared as the teacher imagined, but showed strong curiosity.

"Tell me, will the corpse feel pain when the scalpel cuts through it?..." The girl waited seriously for the teacher's answer.

"How could it be?... When a person dies, his nerves are dead and he has no feeling...." The teacher was amused by the girl's innocence.

"How do you know they don't have feelings?..." The girl seemed a little stubborn and was not convinced by the teacher's reasoning.

"The standard for determining death in modern medicine is brain death. When the brain nerves are dead, any stimulation of the nerve endings will lose their effect, and of course the person will have no feeling.

..." The teacher is used to being a teacher. He explained patiently and in detail.

"But...this is just what we living people think, but the reality may not be the case. ..." the girl said stubbornly.

"Stop thinking nonsense. ..." the teacher smiled. Later, the girl asked the teacher this question more than once. Every time the teacher answered, the teacher's mind felt like something was hooked by an iron hook, but it immediately sank again. But the girl still Frequently asking the teacher the same question, the teacher gradually felt an inexplicable sense of fear getting heavier and heavier. The teacher was even a little afraid of seeing girls, but when he thought about it carefully, there was nothing particularly strange. The teacher guessed that it might be because of it. It was probably because of the excessive psychological pressure due to his frequent exposure to autopsies. It wasn't until the teacher accidentally discovered the seriousness of the problem.

One night, the teacher went to the girl's dormitory to look for the girl. Son, the girl was not there, and the door was ajar. The teacher was sitting on the sofa waiting for the girl. When he got impatient, he stood up and looked through her desk, looking for a magazine to entertain herself. Magazine, the teacher took an old newspaper casually, and accidentally, a piece of paper floated out from the stack and fell to the ground. It was an old and somewhat yellowed paper. The teacher's nerves suddenly became tense. He seemed to I had seen this piece of paper somewhere. The teacher picked up the piece of paper and turned it over, his eyes widening in horror. It turned out that it was the corpse's volunteer form that he had dissected before it was delivered to the autopsy room. The teacher had signed it before.

That’s right! The teacher’s signature was still there, but why did it appear here? The teacher was a little panicked and hurriedly opened the old newspaper and looked at it in the Social Vision column. Inside, there was the social news of "White-collar Beauty Suicided for Love", and the date in the newspaper was the day when she dissected the body.

The teacher felt as if he had fallen into an ice cellar, and the chill made people shudder. The room suddenly felt indescribably eerie. At this time, the teacher heard clear footsteps coming from the corridor, which was the sound of high heels, and he walked towards this side step by step. The teacher didn't know what to do for a moment. After finishing it, I had no choice but to wait for the girl to appear. The footsteps suddenly stopped when they reached the door. The teacher didn't see anyone, but the teacher seemed to feel that she was standing at the door staring at him. The teacher's feet felt a little weak. , but didn't dare to move. After a while, the sound of high heels sounded again, getting farther and farther, and finally disappeared.

After calming down for a few hours, the teacher's brain stopped. Rapid movement: How could this be?

Maybe she is just a classmate or colleague of the girl, or maybe a good friend, so it is not strange to keep these things. Also, the sound of footsteps. Maybe it was just the message from downstairs that caused all this. The teacher calmed down and called the girl, hoping to get to the bottom of it. No one answered the phone. The teacher called desperately, but he was blind. The more the girl refused to answer, the more frightened the teacher became. After a while, footsteps suddenly came from outside the door, which was exactly the same as the sound heard from the girl, and the teacher's heart "popped". "Boom!" He jumped straight and didn't dare to breathe. "Boom!" Boom! Boom! "Someone is knocking on the door. It's a girl! The teacher hesitated again and again, and finally convinced himself to open the door.

"It's you! ..." The teacher pretended to be calm and said. However, he felt that his throat was a little stiff and his voice was hoarse.

"It's me. What's wrong? …Don’t you welcome me here? ..." The girl said, walking towards the teacher with gentle steps.

"No! No! No! ...Yes...I went to look for you at night, but you weren't there. ..." The teacher took a few steps back and said.

"Oh... I went out to do something, and when I came back, I found you had been here. ..." the girl said, walking up to the teacher.

"Really? ..." the teacher answered mechanically. He was frightened, as if he was the corpse on the autopsy table.

"But...but why do you keep calling me endlessly? ..." The girl said expressionlessly.

"I'm afraid...I'm afraid that something will happen to you.

..." The teacher's brain seemed to have stopped functioning at this time, and he could only tell the truth.

"Can I stay with you tonight? ..." The girl unexpectedly smiled and said softly. The teacher wanted the girl to leave, but he couldn't say it out loud. They had known each other for so long, but the girl had never let him touch her body. The teacher's heart I thought maybe I was really paranoid. The girl's appearance was completely different from that of the female corpse, so how could it matter?

"I'm going to take a shower first!" ..." The girl was not displeased by the teacher's dullness. She said and walked towards the bathroom.

"Okay! ..." The teacher replied mechanically. He politely stepped aside and let the girl walk over.

The teacher was sitting in the living room and heard the sound of water flushing inside. He felt uneasy, but I always tried to persuade myself not to think about those weird things, maybe it was just a coincidence. The girl came out in her pajamas and sat on the sofa opposite the teacher. They were silent. The girl broke the awkwardness and walked behind the teacher with a smile. Kneading his shoulders: "Let me massage it for you. ..."

There was another unbearable silence. After a long time, the girl suddenly asked: "Do you think the corpse will feel pain when the scalpel cuts through it? ..."

The teacher suddenly jumped up from the sofa and said in surprise: "You...who are you? ..."

But there was a sudden severe pain in the head. The teacher felt that his head was suddenly hit by a heavy object and lost consciousness. I don’t know how long it took. When the teacher woke up, he had a severe headache. He found that his hands and feet were tied to the bed. The teacher saw the girl standing in front of the bed, her charming eyes burning with anger. The teacher remembered that her eyes were exactly the same as that of the female corpse! p>

"You...you are..." The teacher couldn't help but become frightened, but the struggle was useless. The teacher noticed that the girl's face was changing slowly, and her eyes, nose, and mouth were all moving. After a while, a terrifying face appeared in front of him: it was her!

"Say!" Say it quickly! …When the scalpel cuts across it, will the corpse you dissected feel pain? ..." The girl asked sharply again.

"No...no...maybe! ..." the teacher said tremblingly.

The girl's beautiful eyes stared at the teacher viciously, and she slowly untied her pajamas. The teacher had never felt so disgusting. The girl's body, from her neck down, It's just an empty shell, with no internal organs, only a red body cavity exposed.

"Tell me, do I feel any pain?" ..." the girl said angrily.

"But you...but you did it voluntarily! ...You filled out the body donation volunteer form. ..." The teacher argued hard.

"I really regret that I chose to commit suicide for that man. But...but just when I was preparing to leave this dirty world and go to the pure land of the West, you woke me up again! I...I want you to stay with me forever! ..." the girl said.

"What do you want...what do you want to do? ..." The teacher was horrified, her mind was in confusion, she wanted to defend herself but couldn't.

The girl laughed stiffly, took out a bright scalpel from her pajama bag, and shook it in front of the teacher. Then she pressed against the teacher's neck and said grimly: "Hey... I want you to know the pain of being dissected! ..."

"No! ……don't want! ...You are a dead person, but I am a living person! ..." The teacher screamed in horror.

Suddenly, his throat felt stinging. It was the scalpel in the girl's hand that pierced his throat! The teacher felt as if he had been skinned alive. The pain was unbearable, and he couldn't survive or die. The teacher screamed "ah" and "ah" and sat up. He found that his whole body was dripping with sweat as if he had been immersed in water. The moonlight shone on him through the window. The girl was not in the room. Could it be that she had been dreaming all night? The teacher found it unbelievable, but she was very happy and felt that she had escaped death.

When the teacher got up the next day, He discovered something that would give him eternal peace.

Under the bed, a scalpel fell. It was an extremely sharp scalpel that shone with a cold light. That afternoon, the teacher went to the girl's room again, but unfortunately the door was closed. The girl's neighbor was an old lady. She told the teacher that no one had lived in this room since the girl committed suicide. From then on, the teacher no longer dared to touch corpses or stay at Harbin Medical University, so he had no choice but to change his career.