What am I good at?

I've thought about this topic for a long time, but I can't write it for a long time. I always feel that I am not good at it. When I first came to work in this unit, I felt that my ps was good. At that time, I thought, this should be what I am good at. I also taught other colleagues how to watermark and make simple pictures with ps. Then a new colleague came. His ps skills are many times better than mine, and his aesthetics are better than his own. Compared with him, I don't even mention the skill of carving insects.

I couldn't find the answer myself, so I turned to others for help, so I asked my family, colleagues and friends around me, hoping to get the answer from them.

I asked my best friend what I was good at. She joked that you are good at eating, and then she heard her smile. I am serious. She cleared her throat and put away her smiling face. Seriously, she said that what you are good at is "house". House, if I really stay at home with her, I can stay at home for a long time without being bored, I can surf the Internet for shopping, I can surf the Internet for office study, I can refuse parties, I have no reason to go out, I can stay at home for a long time. But I don't think this is my strong suit. Now most people in the family have this function! So I asked my colleagues in the unit again and asked him what he thought I was best at. Without thinking, he said, "Be practical". Practicality should be the feeling I give you. At work, everyone thinks I am practical and methodical. I remember the leader told me that this job is as suitable as tailoring it for me. It's just my appearance. Working hard and being serious is actually just a responsibility. I really want to have a lively personality and a pleasing appearance. Finally I asked my family what I was good at. The answer is "obedient". Obedient, I have been an obedient child in the eyes of adults since I was a child. Am I really obedient? When I was a child, I was afraid of being beaten and scolded by my parents and had to obey; Obedience in middle school is because of unsatisfactory grades, and I can't be a good student in the eyes of my parents. I can only comfort them with obedience and be glad that I am not a bad boy; Obedience in college is knowing that it is not easy for my parents to make money for my study, and I don't want them to worry about me; There are two reasons for being obedient after work. One is that I am used to being obedient, and the other is that my parents are old and don't want to make them angry or unhappy.

After asking around, I suddenly found out that what I am best at is camouflage. In order to avoid social fear, I pretend to be very homely. Although I can stay at home for a long time, I still yearn for poetry and distance, and I will leave when I say it, looking forward to a trip. Just because of my responsibility, I still work hard in front of the leaders, even though I don't want to go to work every day and am overwhelmed by trivial matters. For fear of being scolded and unhappy, I did what my parents wanted, although I didn't want to do some things.

The most limited thing for a person is often the image he always wants to show to others. You are always light, so you can't be too tacky. You will always be a moral model, and you can't be unscrupulous. Camouflage will lose part of your true self, but life needs some camouflage to make up for your imperfect performance and a strong heart.