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"Happy break-up, wish me happiness, I can find something better ..." Su Qing took the bottle as a microphone and sang loudly against the bleak mountain wind. I just sat there and looked at her anxiously. I couldn't say a word for a long time. She is lovelorn. There's nothing I can do. Any comfort is in vain. It is better to cry than to comfort, and it is better to vent than to shed tears. Venting is not presumptuous. The only thing I can do is to stay with her and keep her safe. So, I stayed up with her until midnight, carrying a big bag of snacks and a round of beer, and climbed up the hillside of Houshan Highway by dim street lamps.

We sat on the grass, blowing the cold night wind and swigging beer, which brought us a sense of pleasure straight to the top of our heads. Creating physical discomfort can always relieve mental pain, but this is only self-deception. Su Qing began to sing, looking lonely. The song is bleak. I frowned at her, and she stopped and gave me a reluctant smile to show relief. Suddenly, she stood up, took the bottle of beer and sang loudly. After singing, lift your chin and take a long drink. Then he raised the bottle in his hand and threw it into the air, hitting the road, causing the big trucks transported late at night to make a harsh braking sound. Su Qing sneer, self-effacing paralysis sitting on the ground, opposing pulled out a cigarette, that is love, her persistence from beginning to end, like Xu Anni, is an indelible mark. Because time remembers. A kind of love has become a habit, poisoned and can't be quit.

She skillfully held a cigarette at her fingertips and lit it naturally. The cigarette butts flashed, and she was complacent. My heart feels deep and indescribable pain. She wept quietly while smoking. She buried her head in her crossed arms, and her thin shoulders trembled helplessly.

"Xu Anni, Xu Anni, Miko Wu ..." She sobbed in a low voice.

My heart can't help but tighten. I always sigh helplessly and ask, is it worth it?

Three years ago, Su Qing and I were ignorant freshmen. Her face turned to the sky. Wear a clean and refreshing ponytail, a neat and fat school uniform and simple canvas shoes. The eyes are big and there is a small pear vortex on the left cheek. Such a beautiful and fresh appearance made my eyes shine and I fell in love at first sight. As a cheeky boy who values sex more than his friends, of course, he sat next to her without saying anything and became her deskmate. In the following days, I naturally got acquainted with her and became a ... Careful, I found that she is an out-and-out young woman in literature and art, reading Xia Qixi's books, singing Vae songs, and occasionally saying a sentence or two of Eileen Chang's and Zhang Xiaoxian's classic beautiful sentences. I've been thinking: what kind of boy would a girl like her like? But it didn't take long for me to know.

One morning after the snow, she was late, so she grabbed a stack of books with her schoolbag. running all the way unexpectedly ran into a tall and thin boy wearing a cap. That man is Xu Anni. She fell to the ground, with books and notebooks scattered all over the floor. Suddenly a pair of hands stretched out in front of her, warm and dry, with a generous sense of security. She looked up and saw his melancholy and deep eyes, and she blushed unconsciously.

He picked up her books and notebooks one by one and handed them to her. Press the hat calmly and leave silently.

Su Qing looked at his back and forgot to say thank you.

As soon as she returned to the classroom, she told me exactly what had happened to her. Her cheeks are red, her eyes are vivid and her voice is excited. I gave him a white look and ignored her. She said to herself, "He is so handsome and his eyes are so blue. I will call him Xiao Wei in the future. "

Occasionally, I am a superficial stranger. At a glance, it became the insistence of Su Qing high school for three years from beginning to end.

She has been seeing him since that day. He seems to be everywhere. Restaurants, playgrounds, corridors, offices ... She smiles every day, telling the beautiful and subtle encounter between them, even though Xu Anni never saw her. She still enjoys it, shyly holding the small pillow prepared for lunch break every day, and crying sweetly: little melancholy. The draft book is full of little melancholy.

But every girl has an innate reserve. She liked him for a year without saying a word to him or asking for any news about him. Moreover, she naively believes that if there is a fate, there is no need to spy or strike up a conversation, and they will always meet again, and then they will know each other and love each other and treat each other gently. Girls who read romance novels and idol dramas are romantics and idealists. In reality, the face and figure are always more attractive than the soul. There is not so much love at first sight, but more long-term love, or just looking for someone to make do with it. Fate is unreliable. With the passage of time, my obscure mind has also been covered with dust. I am no longer angry and uneasy, but sincerely hope that she can be happy. Even if her happiness has nothing to do with me I don't want Su Qing's one-year secret love to go down the drain.

I began to notice the little melancholy in Su Qing's mouth. Wear a hat. Have a melancholy temperament. Other than that, I know nothing. After many inquiries, his name is Xu Anni, in Class 13. He is low-key, taciturn and has no girlfriend.

I seriously discussed with Su Qing and planned her first confession. Her eyes are shining with beautiful light and her face is smiling. Seeing this, I smiled silently and thought, that's great. I want to wait and see if her years are calm.

On the day of confession, Su Qing wore a light floral dress, shed her long raven hair flowing like a waterfall, and stepped on a pair of simple floral sandals. It looks beautiful. It's really beautiful. Su Qing and I went to study at night and waited for Xu Anni at the gate of 13. I felt that after a long time, everyone else had left, and Xu Anni came out slowly, leaning across her schoolbag and wearing a cap, unable to see her face clearly. I don't see depression, I only see depression. Maybe boys and girls have different appreciation standards. I encouraged Su Qing to go forward, but she was embarrassed to go forward. She grabbed my sleeve desperately and shook her head at me with a frown. She was too nervous to go out into the air. I smiled, reached out and touched her head and said, "Don't be afraid, I'm here." Missed the best opportunity, she and I had to follow us all the way. Why does he walk faster and faster? Does he think we are bad people?

Su Qing also said: "Not yet, not yet, not yet ..."

Seeing that I was going to the boys' dormitory, I shouted, "Xu Anni." Su Qing is pale. I made a face at her and shook off her hand. Whispered: "After this village, there is no such store. Seize the opportunity. " Say that finish, patted her on the shoulder and retreated into the darkness.

Xu Anni heard the sound, stopped, and then turned to look at Su Qing, who stood not far away at a loss.

One second, two seconds, three seconds ... Xu Anni looked around again. No one was there. She turned and walked on.

Su Qing took a deep breath and catch up, "that. ..... That ... Wait a minute ... I like you ... "

Xu Anni looked at her and said nothing.

She took out a purple notebook from her schoolbag. I know. Su Qing and I picked it out at the stationery store. It smells like lavender. It took her a week to write down her heart carefully. Those thoughtful words about the soul exhausted the courage and shame of the little girl in Su Qing.

"Tomorrow at ten o'clock, I will wait for your answer." Su Qing said and ran away like a bunny. Hiding in the dark, looking at the back of her escape because of shyness, I feel very cute. The heart is heavy.

The next day, I was scolded by Su Qing, blaming me for chicken out. I am very helpless. I don't want to be a third wheel.

On this day, she didn't attend class at all. She kept looking at the wall clock anxiously, expecting to meet Xu Anni in early self-study and afraid of unknown answers.

I don't want to go to class either. I saw the dark clouds outside the window, and the wind rustled the poplars on the playground, and the rose petals on the south wall fell to the ground. I put my umbrella in Su Qing's hand. I pretended to pinch my finger and said, "benefactor, this thing must be useful." She grinned and I smiled. Don't suppress the acid in your heart too much.

Xu Anni accepted her intention, walked with an umbrella and went back to the dormitory with a sweet * * *. That is my umbrella.

When Su Qing was excited about yesterday's situation, I just looked at her with a smile while coughing. Actually, I saw everything. I was right behind them, without an umbrella, and my heart was broken. Look clearly, and if you give up, you will die clearly.

She is as happy as a bright sun flower. It's good that the sun flower in my heart has found its own brilliant sun. They went to the canteen to eat together, talked by the window in the corridor and walked back to the dormitory hand in hand. Sometimes I will take a photo and send it to space to express my love. Su Qing's space is full of Xu Anni's photos, Xu Anni's messages and Xu Anni's @ She Talk. My irrelevant words of concern have nowhere to put. Su Qing's experience attracted all the girls in the class, and they were envious and jealous of her. Su Qing is not happy. I didn't expect such happiness to be too short.

A week later, Xu Anni dumped Su Qing. The lavender book says: I'm sorry, I don't deserve you. Let's break up. The most irritating thing is that he kissed Su Qing on Saturday night, which was Su Qing's first kiss. As a result, someone sent a notebook to say goodbye the next day, which was really hateful. I gnashed my teeth with anger. Su Qing looked at the book, hugged my arm and cried her eyes out. I was very angry. As soon as the bell rang, I rushed out of the classroom and ran to class 13, trying to give Xu Anni a beating and vent my anger. Su Qing rushed over when he heard the news, and we played together. She rushed over, hugged Xu Anni, stared at me and shouted, "Stop it, stop it, do you want to be punished by the school?" I raised my fist and looked at her. Her swollen eyes cried again. I just stood there for a long time without saying a word, just like that, confronting her. Finally, I put down my fist feebly and left with my head down.

I made it clear to her that she ignored me. Because of the fight, she and I never said a word again, so we were deadlocked. Later, she and Xu Anni made up again. Heartbroken, I don't want to get involved between them anymore, and I don't even want to listen. I applied to the teacher for a transfer and no longer sat at the same table with her. When I packed my bag, she said to me, I'm sorry. I smirked and laughed that she was a guy who valued sex more than friends. She smiled, and so did I.

I transferred to the third row, followed by Su Qing, and I forced myself not to look back. Listen to the class carefully every day and do your homework carefully. Concentrate on your studies and pay no attention to what is going on outside the window. This is my only and best choice.

Only one day, I happened to see them kissing under the big tree. In the moonlight, Su Qing is beautiful and hazy. Xu Anni pulled her into her arms and bowed her head and kissed her. Su Qing hands climbed to the neck, affectionate response. In the distance, the adrenal glands suddenly secrete too much, which shocked me instantly. Don't go too far, run away.

Even if you pretend to be perfect, you still care.

Su Qing gradually changed, and began to paint her face, cut her waist-length hair, dyed it burgundy, painted colorful nail polish, pierced her ears a lot, and put on bright and mature clothes. I know that every bit of this is Su Qing's efforts to cater to Xu Anni's preferences. But I miss Su Qing who always smiles. I miss it so much.

Today, Xu Anni abandoned her without hesitation. Graduation, break up. Tired and unhappy, that's enough. This is his reason. She said nothing but nodded quietly and let him go. Since then, we have gone our separate ways and forgotten each other. It's best not to talk to each other.

I asked her, "Is it worth it?"

She raised her head, dried her tears, took a deep breath of cigarettes and said, "It's not worth it."

At that moment, a bunch of fireworks pierced the sky and bloomed. Very gorgeous. Light up the lonely night like ink. Then cluster after cluster, gorgeous fireworks lit up Su Qing's face and the tears on her cheeks. I looked at him with my head tilted, and there was an imperceptible smile on her face.

No matter how desperate you are, you will be sad in the end. Young and energetic, regard love as a belief, and report too high expectations and too much yearning. Su Qing and Xu Anni struggled for three years before they broke up. But, after all, I grew up. Learn to endure and endure, learn to let go and be silent, and learn to admit that it is not worth it. Love in youth, like fireworks in the horizon, is dazzling and instantly scattered around the world.

Fireworks get cold easily, but it's just a dream. When you wake up from a dream, you should dry the tears in your eyes and welcome a new day. It is gratifying to love the right person, but the wrong person is also youth. Pain lasts only a hundred days. Everything will be fine.