Visit master on the fifteenth day of the first month.

The first day escaped, but the fifteenth day could not escape. On the Lantern Festival, I had to summon up courage to visit Master in the temple.

As soon as I entered the door, Master happened to be alone. A few years ago, she was hospitalized for a few days with a bad cold. I've never met her. Alas, I am a disappointing disciple.

I asked the master carefully, "Are you feeling better?" Master smiled faintly and said, "All right." Master is always so kind in my eyes, but I seldom go to the temple to see her in recent years. I am so close to her, but I can only look at her from a distance.

I have been running around outside for several years, and Master has sent me messages many times: "What have you been doing?" Shy, I still don't change my original intention and stubbornly look for it.

Master sent me different lecture links again and again, urging me to listen. But I often perfunctory, rarely listen carefully. I'm not rude enough to be ashamed to face Master.

This time, master finally couldn't help it.

"Master," I shouted with fear and reverence.

Master motioned me to sit down with his finger.

After making tea, Master severely reprimanded me: "Today's 15th, I told you straight away, don't mess around!"

"Teacher, I ..."

"Tell me about how much you have changed? Do this today, do that tomorrow, and I haven't seen you make a name for yourself! I think you are interested in Shinto and Taoism. Don't be possessed! "

"Master, I have been looking for it for several years because I have never found what I want."

"This is your karma! Tell me, have you found it after all these years? ! "

"I found a good teacher."

"You don't say! You found it. Why are you still doing this? It doesn't matter if you don't recognize me as a master, but since you're here, I'll tell you to take the right path. I won't tell you until you come. "

"Yes, I also know that Master is good to me."

"You learn to learn to learn more upside down, today this tomorrow that, you will waste in my life? ! I tell you, there must be a positive view! It's good for you to recite Buddha. Only the pure land Sect is the most reliable and reliable! "

"Teacher, Wuzu said, it is useless to practice Buddhism without knowing your true intentions. If you don't understand what the heart is, it is futile to practice. "

"You don't know anything about pure land sect, you have no confidence, and what you said. You should listen to more classics and smell more. I'm telling you, you take this mage's plate and listen to it a few times before you talk to me. Be sure to listen, it can't go on like this! "

The tone of the host can't be refused.

I feel that Master really broke my heart for me. And my stubbornness makes me very helpless.

"Good good." I promised, picked up the plate and prepared to leave.

Master told me again, "Go back and listen to the Dharma with peace of mind, and don't be like before!"

I thanked master and walked out of the door. I seem to feel that Master is staring at me with complicated eyes. This look is full of expectation and worry about my disappointment.

I can't help asking myself: "if I listen to master, I will lose my heart;" If I listen to my heart, I will lose Master's expectation and trust. "

Who should I listen to?