I find myself ridiculous. Every time I hear others talking and laughing, I find myself alone. In fact, I am not worse than others, but no one accepts me. I

Learn to integrate into society, learn to be thick-skinned, and learn what you didn't want to do before. The most important thing is to be eloquent and good at communication, so as to make more friends. Most people don't look at how you look. The most important thing is whether your eloquence is good or not, and whether others like to listen when you speak.

Work hard, I believe you can.

I hope I can help you. Thank you.