I like to warm you. You happen to be the sun.

It was raining lightly on Christmas Eve, and we walked from street to alley with umbrellas and roses you gave us. The glittering and translucent water drops on the petals are like a mood, throbbing? It's a mess ... you said you weren't romantic enough to arrange a touching scene for me, but just a heart that wanted to care for me. I thought I would be very excited to hear someone I like say such a thing, a 360-degree somersault, Thomas full spin, and Vitas's dolphin voice "Really?" But at that moment, I stood there with tears in my eyes. Along the way, stories flooded into my heart.

From the day I met you, my heart rose and fell because of you. I carefully recorded everything related to you, face to face with you in the hospital corridor, watching you change your medicine in the ward, passing by the office and seeing you talking and laughing with your classmates ... Sometimes, just because I am too strong, too many things are buried in my heart, and I refuse to say it. Your name is in the memo, there are poems written for you, and there are your ups and downs. Deep thoughts, from spring and summer to autumn and winter. I often miss your smile and want to see you, but I can't find the right reason. In those days, I wandered downstairs in the hospital every day, wandering at the point where you got off work, until the sun went down, until night fell, until the dead of night, but I didn't meet you once. Later, I told myself not to be far-fetched. The best memory is in my heart. At that time, you didn't know there were so many stories between us, but I felt that we had known each other for a long time. Sometimes I laugh at myself. I have been in love several times, and now it looks like the seed of love.

Later, we chatted occasionally, but I no longer expected to meet you. Occasionally you ask me if I have eaten, and if I haven't eaten, you take me to dinner. I said I had eaten, but I didn't have enough. So, I met you unprepared that day. In fact, we passed by countless times in the hospital and talked many times. It's just that this time it's not for others, but for ourselves. I handed you a box of tiramisu. You confiscated it, so I kept handing it to you, and you finally accepted it. My favorite dessert, I say the sweet taste is like watching your mood. Because it was too hot that day, we chatted on the bench in Carrefour and told stories about what happened in the hospital. We have been happy, sad, moved and helpless. We all study medicine, so this is our common topic. There are not many stories, but we can't finish talking with you.

I remember a long time later, you asked me what kind of boy I like, and I said, nothing special, maybe because his eyes are like stars. When I said this, there lived a boy with eyes like stars in my heart. It is you. When I first met you, I looked at you for a few seconds. Your eyes seem to see through people. Your eyes are bright, as if you can see my heart at once, which makes me embarrassed. No matter how deep the secret is hidden, it seems to be clear at a glance. I could have justified it, but after that, I really had a secret. Every time I meet you, your smile is like the first ray of sunshine in the morning, bright and warm. As the name implies, this is my deepest experience of sunshine. ...

It's really hard when a person hides a knot. What he wants to say is like a huge wave, but it is always broken by a rational reef. I'm afraid I'll disturb you. But fortunately, if you don't forget, there will be repercussions.

You began to accompany me to dinner, take me to the movies, care about whether I am tired from work and in a good mood ... pick me up, see me off and wait for me. When eating, you always ask me what I want to eat. I said I wanted to eat fish, so you didn't hesitate to eat fish. When I say I can't eat porridge, you accompany me to eat porridge. When I say I don't want to eat, I want to eat cake. You said, "Let's eat cake", and then you bought me a lot of cakes to eat with me.

You are very busy at work, so you can only rest in the afternoon when you are not on duty on weekends. We don't have much chance to meet each other, so we can only have dinner together after work. It seems that since we met you, we hardly met before night. I watched a few movies and found you asleep, which is quite sad to think of. Get up early every day, shuttle in the ward, and devote most of my time to my work. When I had the chance to be with the person I wanted to see, I was exhausted. I deeply feel that on Christmas Eve, the department is very busy and there is nowhere to put my legs after work. Originally, I said to walk over and eat, but I finally didn't want to move, and then you rode slowly in the sea of people. I want to be energetic when I am with you, but I am tired every time. You said you were tired, but you weren't tired when you saw me. I said, I'm not. I'm so tired, but I still want to see you. In fact, the reason is the same.

However, no matter how tired we are, we will never bring emotions from work into our lives. After work, the day is almost over, but for us, the day has just begun. When we take off our white coats, we begin to be ourselves. Sometimes I feel that time is simply terrible, as if I just sat down to eat, waved goodbye downstairs in the blink of an eye, and looked at your distant back countless times, making me sad to cry. We can't be willful, because we have to go to work in high spirits the next day. Health depends on life, and a group of people are always nervous, just like doctors. So our life is monotonous, only dinner and movies. You're always afraid I'll find it boring. Try to have some fun for me, take me to the aquarium and climb mountains. What a rare afternoon, you have a rest and I have a rest. I said, I don't want to go anywhere, I don't want to eat anything, I just want to eat the people I want to see. And you always accompany me to eat what I want, go where I want to go, pick me up downstairs, and then send me back. Buy my favorite dessert after the night shift and wait for me. If I have a toothache, buy medicine and send it to me. I'm always afraid I'll be cold. When I went out, I was told to wear more clothes. I rode my bike very slowly. When it rains, I walk alone with an umbrella, and you follow my steps. You never seem to complain, but you always do.

It rained at Christmas, but this is the best Christmas. The Christmas tree in the window is dazzling, and the pedestrians in the street are bustling, but I feel that the whole world is very quiet, only hearing the heartbeat. I saw the dazzling red roses, and you held an umbrella for me. The inner anxiety seems to have subsided at that moment. How much do we want before we become satisfied? On rainy days, it is enough to have me, you and an umbrella.

You sent me downstairs, but you refused to turn around and leave. You said, you haven't answered me. I said, the flowers are beautiful and I like them very much. I remember you wrote a poem for me, Lin Weiyin's "You are April Day on Earth". Today, I suddenly remembered a passage from Zhang Jiajia and wanted to give it to you:

"I hope to have a person like you.

As bright and refreshing as this morning in the mountains.

Like a sunny man walking on the way to the ancient city.

Warm but not hot covers my skin.

From the starting point to the night? From the mountain to the study

The answers to all the questions are simple.

I wish there was someone like you? Realize the future

Several signposts of life. "

"This is you, isn't it?"