What kind of experience is the failure of postgraduate entrance examination?

There is no unexpected sadness, but I feel sorry.

On the first day of the results of the postgraduate entrance examination, I stayed in my room all day, didn't cook, and ordered takeout directly. I went out in the afternoon, bought a cup of milk tea and a bag of strawberries, and then came back to watch a variety show and a movie.

I am the only one in the room, a computer and a desk lamp. At the moment, the environment seems to be particularly suitable for a person to cry, but I can't cry, because I knew the result the moment I walked out of the examination room, but I delayed the confirmation for a few days.

If this is a battle, then I have been completely defeated, and probably only my self-esteem has not surrendered. The mood is not heavy, because as expected, we should be psychologically prepared.

It's just that when I told my friends about my achievements, they tried their best to comfort me, but they didn't know how to protect my self-esteem so that I wouldn't be too depressed, which made me very sad.

Because I know I'm not that sad, and they think I will be. I don't know how to convince them that I'm really not stubborn. I'm really not sad this time.

Looking back on the whole process of postgraduate entrance examination, I can't explain clearly what I gave up for postgraduate entrance examination in two or three sentences, but I don't feel wronged at all when I got this result, because I must be very clear in my heart whether I have made ends meet.

I don't feel wronged and wronged, but I regret it a little. First, regret not working hard enough. Second, I regret that I was not bold enough when I made the decision. As a result, there was no regret medicine, so I had to swallow it myself.

I also want to tell myself that a postgraduate entrance examination can't decide my life, but my self-esteem can't be easily crossed. You see, by this time, I am even more embarrassed not because I have no education, but because I have no face and sense of superiority in front of my junior and senior high school classmates. It may take me a long time to change my mind.