I am a boy, but I love my father. what to do?

The mentality you have has an important relationship with your life, but I think you discovered it earlier and can still adjust. I have the following suggestions:

1. You should understand that the love you have for your "uncle" is only the love for your father's generation and the love for worshiping the strong. Because the lack of father's love since childhood makes up for the distortion caused by it, this is essentially different from homosexuality, so don't have too much love. A big burden to think about.

2. I think the reason is that on the one hand, your suppressed emotions have not been reasonably released. Many confusions about life are smoldering in your heart, and you want to find someone to talk to, so your mature uncle naturally becomes your idol. object. To solve this problem, you should make some friends of the same age so that you can talk to each other and help each other, because there are more people of the same age who speak the same language. You will know that in fact, in life, it is not only you who have confusions, but also problems. If you have troubles, your life will be unsatisfactory nine times out of ten.

These confusions and pressures lead to another shortcoming of yours, that is, lack of self-confidence, so you want to rely on strong people. To solve this problem, you must adjust your mentality. You must think of yourself as a man. In the future To be an upright man and protect your wife and children, you need to make yourself stronger, with stronger abilities, knowledge, and health. This requires you to constantly improve yourself. When your abilities are improved, you will naturally have confidence. To develop an independent personality, don’t run away from problems and actively think about solutions to problems!

3. Don’t always be sad about the past. Believe that you can change some things. Believe that your own abilities can also change your future. If you want to go to college, you can make some money and then take the adult college entrance examination. It will always be gold. Shine, it's not that you can't do those things, it's just that you don't dare to do them, so you just hide in the corner and cry.

Come on, live like a man, fight, you can have idols, you can have worship, but you must know that that is the goal, not dependence, I wish you success!