What influenced you the most from your predecessor?

Someone asked, what was your predecessor's greatest influence? My answer is a lack of trust and security. Although it's sad, it's really my true feeling. When I was a student, I was always someone else's child in the eyes of others, and I never considered puppy love. Friends often say that you haven't been in love for so many years. What have you done? I am seriously answering and studying.

The gap in love when I was young directly led to the extreme lack of love experience. Coupled with my amazing slag-sucking physique, I am always attracted by some inappropriate people, so that every relationship is not as I wish. Coupled with the numerous lies and crazy derailment of my predecessor, my current love is embarrassing and tortuous, and I am cautious. The most terrible thing is that when you have these emotions, pretend to be anxious on the surface, because you are afraid of showing too many emotions, and you will lose miserably. When I meet someone I like now, I always tell him in advance that I am extremely insecure. You should think twice before you act. Hearing this, the other party will often say, I like everything, but in my opinion, these are just impulses brought by the novelty of love, and they are just thoughtless remarks.

In a relationship, I am always between constant anxiety and self-sedation, trying to find a balance. I have always suspected that love is a very short-lived thing. After all, it is easy to say that you love someone, but it is too difficult to love someone in your heart. When I meet someone I like, I basically don't take the initiative to send messages, because there is always a voice in my heart telling me that taking the initiative will become passive. I am afraid that the other person will not return for a long time when chatting. I always feel that the other person is deliberately not returning, and then I start to guess whether he is chatting with others, and finally I can only think more and more. I was afraid that the other person would suddenly change, so I put him in the past and opposed him. For example, he stopped praising my circle of friends in recent days, stopped calling me baby when chatting, called me by my name directly, and said that he loved me by the way when saying good night. Perhaps this is the inevitable trend of all love development, but I always thought that he was slowly disliked me. I'm also afraid of him going out with friends, especially if I don't know. I am afraid that the person I like will be taken away by others if he is not careful, but in fact he has not done anything deviant. Really insecure, it's getting harder and harder to trust others. Murphy's law? The same applies to love. What you are afraid of often happens. Insecurity and trust are like a vicious circle. The more uneasy and distrustful you are, the further you push each other. Without exception, the end result is that he can't stand leaving at last, and then it's harder for you to trust others.

There may really be many people who, like me, are eager to find someone to spend their lives with, but for various reasons, they are more and more afraid of falling in love. But then again, although I have always had this characteristic and am depressed, I still have another characteristic, that is, I will not despair when I am depressed. I have a crisis of trust and other love problems. Although it will be more difficult to deal with, you still have to practice for most of your life.

Although it is difficult to fall in love, I will never give up easily. If I meet the person I love again, I hope I am lucky enough. I hope he can tolerate my strange temper and accompany me well.