The most regretful feeling is that he lost his kidney and you lost your heart

“I like stories about how you can get married if you hold hands, but I live in an era where there is no result even if you go to bed.”

It is also very strange to say, the first time in life An article was written about this. I feel sorry for the story, so I feel emotional about it.

She lived alone in a city far away from home, which may have angered Cupid. She fell in love four times in her twenties and each time ended in failure. She said she didn't believe in love anymore, and then played on various social software. In fact, she knew in her heart that she just wanted to find someone to chat with her, but as she chatted, she found that the software was not so much about socializing as it was about socializing. It's "yp". But for this kind of thing, her mentality is that men and women are equal. But after her first experience, she discovered that before a man goes to bed, everything you say will be answered instantly, and after he goes to bed, it is as if he has disappeared from the world. Maybe because she is a Pisces, she can't stand this kind of "abandonment" experience. So she decided not to do that kind of thing again, to live well by herself and go to work well. The software is still playing, but we will never mention meeting each other again.

When she was coming home for the holidays, she worked part-time in a movie theater one night before getting off work. She turned on her phone and saw someone who only responded two days after she sent a message. She made fun of him. The man said he didn’t often play this software. After chatting, he discovered that the two people’s hometowns were in the same province, and they met in another city more than 2,000 kilometers away. The chat was also full of hometown dialect. The more the two chatted, the more they became more and more speculative. She When I got off work late at night, I told him to go home and talk, and he also told him to be careful on the road.

The man said that he was in graduate school and coming here was considered a business trip. It has been more than two months since he came here. He feels that this city is very lively, but it has nothing to do with him. The more the two chatted, the more they became interested. Because the next day was the weekend, she asked him to come to the cinema where she worked part-time to watch a movie. She treated him to popcorn and a Coke. The man also said that he would treat her to a late-night snack after she got off work. discretionary.

Because he had to drive for more than an hour from where she lived, it rained heavily in the city the next day. She gave up the idea of ??riding an electric bike to work and took a taxi to the company. On the way, the two of them were still chatting animatedly on their mobile phones. The girl had just arrived at the cinema to change clothes for work. He said he had already arrived at the parking lot just a few hundred meters away from the cinema.

She was still very excited about meeting netizens, and she was so carefree that she could express all her emotions on her face. She kept smiling while chatting with her colleagues, and looked at the door from time to time.

A man wearing a black sweatshirt and overalls and a black woolen hat walked into her sight. Although there were "photo scams" on the Internet, she could still tell that this person was him. The two people had a tacit understanding and recognized each other. After saying hello with eye contact, he sat quietly in the corner of the cinema playing with his mobile phone.

She was doing things absentmindedly, while her eyes were focused on him in the corner. More than an hour later, the movie he wanted to watch was about to start. With popcorn and Coke in her hand, she sent him into the theater and continued busy with her work.

The movie ended around nine o'clock and she got off work at ten-thirty. Because she finished her work ahead of schedule, she asked the manager to arrive at ten o'clock in advance. After the movie ended, he walked out of the theater, made eye contact with her, and walked out of the theater. She went to get off work and changed her clothes, then asked him on her cell phone where he was. Because there was a movie she hadn't watched, she asked him if he wanted to watch it. The two finally reached an acquaintance. The two of them were waiting for the movie to start in the cinema lobby, chatting without stopping.

While watching the movie, the two of them chatted and complained at the same time. The atmosphere was very harmonious, like friends who have known each other for a long time. After the movie ended, it was already twelve o'clock in the night. The two people left the mall and walked towards the direction of eating late night snacks. The two of them were still talking and laughing along the way. Although they were in the south, the weather had started to get colder at that time. The girl was wearing thick clothes, but he seemed to be wearing thin clothes. She always asked him if he was cold, and he always asked him if he was cold. He smiled and said: "It's okay, it's not cold."

There were almost no people on the street. The two of them walked for half an hour to the small shop and found that it was not open. In fact, the two of them were not very hungry, so they decided to walk towards home. He wanted to see the cat raised in the girl's house.

After walking for about an hour and a half, we finally reached the downstairs of the girl’s house and passed by a convenience store. She asked him if he wanted to have a drink. The two of them went to the convenience store to buy a bottle of wine and then returned. Home.

The girl lives alone and has a cat. The boy also adopted a cat when he was studying in graduate school, so most of the topics between the two of them revolved around the cat. There was a single bed in a small room at her house. When she got home, the girl started to make the bed while he played with the cat.

At about two or three in the morning, the girl sat down and turned on the computer to do something. He opened the wine and poured half a glass for the girl, and then drank almost a bottle and a half (peach-flavored Xiaobai small bottle) ) has begun to turn slightly red. He said that he was still allergic to alcohol, so he went to bed.

After the two drank and chatted, they prepared to go upstairs to sleep. Because there was no socket in the small room, he said he couldn't charge the battery, so he let the girl sleep first while he sat and played with his phone for a while before going back to sleep.

She left half of the bed open and said to him with a smile, "Just play and wait until you feel sleepy." He didn't hesitate and lay down directly. She couldn't sleep, tossing and turning, lying with her back to him. Then she felt the air was quiet, and she suddenly felt a touch on her back. He said, "Can't you sleep? What should I do? Just do what you can't sleep on." She didn't speak at first, There was no action either. After a long time, she said hesitantly: "That's why you play this software." He took away his hand on her back, lay flat on the bed and said, "Do you really want to pet the cat?" There was an expression on the girl's face that was half-smiling, and she was thinking to herself, "Yes, you are so stupid. Could it be that he really wanted to play with the cat?"

The air was quiet again, and he saw She didn't speak for a long time, then she said firmly: "It's okay, if you don't want to, I will never touch you." Then she turned her body to sleep.

She has been tossing and turning on the bed, and her mood is very complicated now. He said he could fall asleep but both of them were tossing and turning. The girl's cat ran into the middle of their bed and was about to sleep. The two of them turned around and petted the cat face to face in a tacit understanding without saying a word. The cat snored, and the two people leaned close to listen to the cat's purring.

At four or five o'clock in the morning, I felt like I was about to wake up, but the girl still couldn't sleep. He said to her: "Lie on my arm and treat me as your boyfriend, but I will definitely not move." You." She didn't know what her mood and thoughts were, but she really ran into his arms, and the two of them just hugged each other without saying a word.

She listened to his heartbeat, "Bang! Bang! Bang!" getting faster and faster, and she felt a sense of relief because she had not been hugged like this by someone for a long time. . She also joked with him naughtily: "If word gets out that you hugged a girl and slept all night without doing anything, I'm afraid people will say that I took advantage of you!" He also smiled and said: " It's okay, I'll just suffer a loss." She pinched him and said, "Really?" He smiled there. She said her feet were cold and he asked her to put them on his lap to keep them warm.

She closed her eyes and listened to his heartbeat. After a long time, she opened her eyes and slowly looked up at him, and then discovered that he had actually been looking at her, and their eyes were locked. relatively. Her heartbeat quickened, and after a while she suddenly closed her eyes and leaned her head forward, feeling a warmth on her mouth.

When I opened my eyes, it was almost one or two o'clock in the afternoon, and the two of them were still lying there chatting, joking about various pasts, and the atmosphere was not awkward at all.

He said that he doesn’t really want to fall in love now. He wouldn’t have had these thoughts in another city before the business trip. He has been here alone for two months, surrounded by colleagues of the same age as his parents, watching. This bustling and lively city really had nothing to do with him. He went to the city to watch a movie and have a fast food once a week, and that lasted for two months. But he didn't expect that he met her before leaving. It was a kind of Experience it. She listened to what he said quietly and looked at him intently.

At around three o'clock in the afternoon, the two of them left the house and ate downstairs, chatting happily while eating. After eating, he wanted to take a taxi to the parking lot to transfer to the minibus. It started to rain lightly outside. She stood with him outside and waited for the taxi for a while. He also said to her: "Go back quickly. It's raining. Don't get wet." ." She just shook her head and smiled and said, "It's okay." When the car came, he waved to her and got in. She also smiled and waved her hands, watching the car disappear from her sight little by little. She took out a tattered cigarette box from her pocket, with only one cigarette left in it.

She said that she had always been stubborn about not wanting to fall in love, but her heart really softened the moment she was held in someone else's arms. She told him these words, and he blessed her with the hope that she could find the one that really suits her.

She understands what he means. She actually has the same purpose as many men, but the only difference is that the process is really more confusing than other men, although the ending is just a walk. Kidney. She actually forgot about him for a long time. Four or five days later, after the business trip was over, he left the city and might never come back to the city again.

Occasionally she would still chat with him on WeChat, but the result was the same. Before that night, the frequency and length of their conversations were the same, and he even talked more than she did. . But after that night, it was probably her monologue alone.

She wrote a paragraph to herself, "In fact, there is nothing to regret. In one day, I watched movies, ate food, drank wine, walked around, and touched my hands. I hugged you, kissed you, you sweated on me, and I moaned for you. Maybe the only regret is that after you had a kidney transplant, I found out that I had lost my heart.”