Time flies, and summer is not over yet.

People always think of first love too tragically. It's only because that person swept across the lake that you were as silent as a dragonfly for more than ten years, which made it ripple for the first time. And the people who really join hands with you for a lifetime are the ones who will accompany you through the long river of years.

Ten years have passed since I first met you when I was sixteen.

In the hot July, you passed me with your head down with hot rice noodles. The spilled soup scalded your hands and stained my newly bought floral skirt.

You quickly apologized to me, invited me to drink matcha milk green, and said that you would compensate me for an identical skirt.

I said my name was Zhao Qianer and you said your name was Lin.

You just broke into my world and my heart.

I will be a sophomore and you will be a senior.

My schoolwork is not too heavy, but because the college entrance examination is just around the corner, even in summer vacation, you should be busy making up lessons all day.

At the beginning of the senior high school entrance examination, I missed 10 to be admitted to your key middle school. So, when I learned that you never regretted your grades after you went to school in No.1 Middle School, I was annoyed for the first time why I didn't work hard. Although, our two schools are only separated by a road.

Your academic performance is excellent and you are highly valued by your teachers. Everyone says that you can be admitted to a key university, and I firmly believe it.

I know that I shouldn't bother you all the time, so as not to affect your study, so I can only hang out outside your school often.

Later, the school officially opened. In order to devote yourself to your study more wholeheartedly, your teacher requires everyone to live on campus, including you who live not far away.

Writing letters was still very popular at that time, so I wrote to you from time to time. Because the school is near, I don't need to give it to the postman, just throw it into the mailbox in your school security room.

I don't expect you to answer every letter. I just hope you can think of me when you read my letter. Of course, I still hope you can reply to me occasionally.

You will often write back to me, which makes me feel very happy that your handwriting is beautiful. I feel a little ashamed to compare it with my own handwriting.

Every letter you return to me, I will treat it as a treasure, put it in a separate file bag and treasure it carefully.

In order to get in touch with you more, I never thought about the importance of mobile phones at that time, so I begged my mother to buy me my first mobile phone for various reasons, because I knew you also had a mobile phone.

I added your QQ friend and will send you a message as soon as I have time. Although you may not reply, I know you are in class.

Because I was always distracted, my grades plummeted. I met with waterloo in a monthly exam, which was not bad.

My mother thought it was my mobile phone that affected me. She once tried to confiscate my mobile phone. I begged her for a long time and promised her to do well in the next monthly exam before returning it to me.

The head teacher also talked to me, but didn't criticize my grades too much. On the contrary, she told me that you should have a goal in life. If you think it's too far to talk about life goals now, find a closer goal, such as whether you have a favorite city or a favorite person. You want to go to that city, how hard you have to work and how far you have to go to get close to the person you like.

I have always been grateful to my class teacher for waking me up in the right way at the most critical moment.

How far is it between you and me? Although we are only separated by a road, I know that we are still separated by Qian Shan.

You are so excellent and I am so mediocre.

I will still write you long letters when I study in the evening, some of them are sent to you, and some are kept by myself.

I will also meet you and have a cup of milk tea when you are on holiday.

However, I also set a goal for myself. I will go to the same university as you in the future.

I know this goal is a bit far, but I still have time, and I will try my best to narrow the distance between us.

You are happy to hear that I will study hard. You said you would have plenty of time to help me make up lessons after the college entrance examination.

I'm glad to hear that, too, more than you.

In June of that summer, your college entrance examination arrived as scheduled. You lived up to expectations and were admitted to the best university in the province, but I know that your score can be admitted to a better university.

I'm so happy for you. You invited me to have dinner alone. You said you didn't want to be too far from home, so you chose the provincial capital.

Besides being happy for you, I'm also worried about myself.

Since I decided to go to the same university as you, my test scores have risen a lot, and my name has slowly climbed from the bottom of the top 100 list on campus to the front. But how high can the top 100 list of an ordinary middle school be? This kind of achievement of mine, put in No.1 Middle School, can't rank at all.

At that time, my mother said that it would be a good thing for my ancestors if I could get into an ordinary two books.

You said you would make up lessons for me and improve my poor math scores.

You have science and I have liberal arts. My math has really improved under your one-on-one guidance.

Soon after you entered the university, I officially became a "senior three party", with the college entrance examination as the primary goal.

You will often share some of your learning methods with me on QQ and encourage me to continue my efforts.

When you come back from the winter vacation of senior three, give me a beautiful winter dress. You said that you stained my flowered skirt and didn't have time to pay for it. Later, you found the same skirt and gave it to me. Although this skirt is not quite the same as my previous one, I really like it.

I have been happy for a long time, and I have strengthened my determination to go to the same university as you.

I think, when I go to college, I will have the cheek to tell you, but before that, you must wait for me and don't be good with other girls.

In June, the weather has begun to get hot, and my college entrance examination has come to an end at this time.

After ten years off stage and one minute on stage, my high school career officially ended in tears.

While waiting for the score to come out, my heart is extremely tormented. I am more afraid of your disappointment than the pressure from other students.

I think I'm blessed and I didn't let you down.

The mock exams are all below one line, and the college entrance examination magically exceeds one line by more than 20 points. My mother really accumulated great virtue from her ancestors.

But I let myself down. Anyway, I'm doomed not to go to the same university as you.

There is always a distance between you and me.

You said you were really happy for me, and soon you will be back from summer vacation. You gave me a lot of advice when I filled out my volunteer. The schools I filled in are all provincial capitals.

Finally, I was admitted to a new school and chose a major with a good reputation in the school.

On the day I received the notice, I received another floral skirt from you. The style of this skirt is very similar to the one you dyed for me two years ago.

You said you looked for it for a long time, and you said I looked good in a skirt.

After that, I often wear it to go out to play with you, drink milk tea, run across the street and play video games. I even lied to my mother that I was traveling with my classmates. Actually, I have been to a small town in Linxian with you.

At that time, the summer flowers were just right, bright and bright, blooming all the way, on your face and in my heart.

When I was a freshman, the first group activity in my class was to go to the farmhouse.

When everyone was busy picking wild fruits and enjoying the farmhouse music, I found a maple forest and picked some maple leaves myself.

After returning to school, I carefully wrote your name on the maple leaf, bookmarked it and put it in my favorite book.

Therefore, when I study in the evening, I actually stare at your name silently and even giggle inexplicably.

I was wondering, what were you doing when you were studying in your freshman night? You must be studying hard every day. Have you suddenly thought of me a few times? Could it be, talking and laughing with other girls

The more I think about it, the more agitated I am, and the more I think about it, the more uneasy I am. Maybe this is the so-called unrequited love. I don't know why, the closer I am to you, the more I miss you.

You come to my school by bus for an hour every two weeks. I said I would visit your school next time. Don't you think you are afraid of carsickness? Let me find you.

You have no idea how sweet and moved I was.

Freshman is very busy, and there are many club activities. You asked me to choose some interested clubs or organizations to exercise, so I went to the campus news agency and radio station. Fortunately, my writing and Mandarin are passable, and I passed the interview easily.

At that time, there was a senior in the news agency named Qi Shanshan. She looks sweet and has a charming smile. She is called "social butterfly" in the office, and she is also our fellow countryman. She takes good care of me. She often takes me to press releases and teaches me how to take pictures, which makes me learn a lot.

She's really good. She is not only good-looking, but also has excellent academic performance. She often wins prizes and treats people well.

Although she is perfect, she makes me feel even less worthy of you.

I often fantasize that one day we get married, you hold my hand and declare "I do" in front of everyone, you personally put a ring on me and you kiss me deeply.

Should I confess to you? If you can't confess, what if you don't even have friends in the end? Even if you can continue to be friends, you will lose your original taste.

To this end, I have been troubled and hesitated for a long time.

I thought a lot, but I never thought about whether you like me, too. Because I dare not think about it, I always feel that a good person like you must have high requirements for the other half.

My roommates are giving me advice, and they all agree that I should tell you. One of them said, you can go boldly, even if you die, you can't die too timid.

I can't die. My first love is still in its infancy. How could I die?

After being beaten by them, I finally decided to come to your school for the weekend.

For the happiness of the rest of my life, carsickness is nothing!

I was dressed up by my roommate that day and changed a lot. Although I only wear light makeup, the whole person's aura is different. Even I feel that I am actually a little beautiful.

In order to give you a surprise, I didn't inform you in advance.

However, I didn't live up to my expectations, but I vomited my eyes out because of motion sickness, and tears came out. Fortunately, a boy next to me handed me a bottle of water.

He said, classmate, I'm H. Are you going to play in our school or go back to school?

It turns out that he studies in your school.

I said, I went to your school to find someone.

He immediately put on a look of seeing through everything and said, Oh, the person who can make you throw up all the way regardless of yourself must be your boyfriend.

I smiled and said nothing. I think, although not yet, it should be soon.

I remember you said that there is a Mingxi Valley behind your school with beautiful scenery, so couples often date there, so it is also called "Lover Valley".

I just want to go by myself first and then call you out.

In the early winter, a large area of plane leaves covered the ground, and the intimate couples on the roadside, the sun shone through the branches, and the lazy bass came from the campus broadcast.

Everything is so beautiful that people want to talk about an everlasting love.

-If I hadn't seen you keep her here.

You didn't find me, so I turned and ran away.

I don't know how scared or embarrassed I was. All I know is that I must be a joke.

The person I like, the person I like for more than two years, the person I used to sleep at night and want to be close to, the person I fantasize about marrying countless times, and the person I even want to see despite carsick all the way.

At the moment, I am holding hands with other girls and walking on the boulevard, which is the "lover's valley".

You plucked the fallen leaves from her head, and you smiled so gently that it made me crazy.

I seem to suddenly understand why you always forbid me to come to you.

I, running all the way, dare not look back until tears blurred my vision. I fell and scraped my palm. I finally sat on the roadside of your school and cried, regardless of the strange eyes of people coming and going.

After a long time, I cried so tired and hungry that I even forgot why I was so sad.

I think my brain may have temporary amnesia. If so, I hope I will never remember it.

I don't know how I got back to school, but I miraculously didn't throw up. Maybe my stomach is empty and there is nothing to vomit. Maybe I'm numb and don't know what carsickness is.

My first love, which I thought would be in bud, died before I could smell the breath of spring.

It doesn't matter, I don't have to wait for you to come to me, I don't have to stare at your name and giggle, and I don't have to worry about what you are doing all the time.

That weekend, I turned off my cell phone, covered my bed and ignored anyone.

On Monday, after I turned on my mobile phone, I saw the message you sent and countless missed phone reminders, and my tears came down disappointedly.

I sent you a message telling you that I am fine, but my mobile phone is dead.

You said you were worried about me.

I used to be very happy, and I am still very happy, but I was very happy when I had honey, but now I forgot to put sugar in my bitter coffee.

My roommate advised me to relax. You should treat your hard-earned cabbage as a pig. This year's cabbage is gone, so we can plant it again next year.

I was amused by her metaphor. If it is really cabbage, there will always be pigs to arch it.

I began to go to the library to read books and participate in various activities every day. I have to keep myself busy so that I have no time to be sad.

I told you, I'll call you brother from now on. You asked why, and I said, because then we will be a family.

Yes, even if I decide not to wait for you, I will tie us together with such a name.

In this way, I won't really lose you.

I think, in the future, I will hide my thoughts and really treat you as my brother.

It's just that I still need time to adjust, so I refused you to come to school often on the grounds that I was too busy.

Sure enough, you haven't come to me for a long time, and even the greetings on QQ are much less than before.

I think you should focus on her.

Until the weekend before the winter vacation, you called me and said that it would be a holiday soon. I'll get your ID card, grab your train ticket and go home together.

At that time, online ticket sales were not popular, and they were all purchased at off-campus distribution points. I'm also worried that there are too many people waiting in line.

You could have gone back by car, but you were afraid that I would be bored alone, so you accompanied me back by train.

Maybe I haven't talked to you for a long time. On the train, we talked a lot. Talking about each other's study life and interesting things at school, I dare not mention anything about her.

Although I didn't see what she looked like that day, I think she must be beautiful and excellent, otherwise how can she be worthy of you.

We are still talking and laughing as before, and we will go out for a cup of milk tea together during the winter vacation. However, I drew an invisible line between us in my mind. Unexpectedly, although the line is invisible, we will never cross it.

It snowed heavily that winter. I secretly wrote our names in the snow, but it was soon covered with snow, as if nothing had happened.

From then on, I packed up my humble heart, just like meat growing in a shell, which needs a thick shell to wrap it. Even if you miss a little, you may get hurt.

Spring arrived in Qiu Lai, and the days passed slowly. I found that I was not as sad as I thought. Sometimes I even wonder if I really like you that much.

In a novel I read, love is perfect.

I think my love for you is probably the same. Since I can't get it, I hope you can be happy.

If it weren't for you, I wouldn't fall in love in college.

But after I met Qiu Yan, everything changed. He and I were in the same major, but in different classes.

We met in an open class in the second semester of sophomore year, and he sat next to me.

He said, in fact, I began to pay attention to you when I was a freshman in military training. We were in the same company at that time, and you were standing in the first row.

I said, are you laughing at my being short?

He said, no, I just think you are the most eye-catching person in that row.

Since then, every time I attend that open class, he will sit next to me, and gradually, we will know each other.

One day three months later, he told me on QQ that we should be together.

Let's be together, this is what I want to say to you, but I can't say it. My eyes are suddenly sore.

I didn't reply to his message, but I still can't help but recall the details of knowing him for three months.

I remember he got up early to buy me breakfast while others were still sleeping, but when he brought it to me, he said it was just by the way. I remember that every time he had the same class with me, he would have the cheek to change places with the classmates who used to sit next to me. What a coincidence to think that he will suddenly appear in front of me from time to time; ……

I think he should be the first and only boy who has been so kind to me since I went to college.

The next night, he sent me another message, saying that he wanted to go for a walk in the school's Mingjing Lake with me.

I know he has something to say to me. I hesitated at first, but I went in the end, because escaping never solved the problem.

He was glad to see me leave. He seemed a little nervous.

We walked and talked, and I told him that I once had a person who liked me very much, but that person didn't choose me in the end.

He stopped, looked at me and said, in fact, I know I like you and pay attention to you from the beginning of my freshman year. How could I not know that you have someone you like?

He said, in fact, those coincidences that you think are all planned by me for a long time, including the open class we attended together.

He said, I know that person is your heart knot, but I am willing to untie this heart knot with you.

He said, I hope you can give me a chance and give yourself a chance. Not afraid of the future, not thinking about the past.

I don't know why, I suddenly cried. Maybe it's because I'm moved, maybe it's because I know that the person I want to hold hands with is not you after all, and we are getting farther and farther away.

I wiped a handful of tears, looked at his flustered eyes and said, ok.

That's what happens when I'm with Qiu Yan. When I told you I had a boyfriend, you just said a few words faintly. Congratulations.

You didn't even ask me who he was, what his name was, and whether it was good for me.

Anyway, maybe you don't care at all. Just like I never asked you who she was, what her name was, and whether it was good for you.

But I didn't ask because I didn't care. On the contrary, I am too worried to speak.

Not long after I was with him, the final exam was coming, followed by the summer vacation. He goes back to Z City, and I go back to A City.

He will often call me and ask me if I am having a good time at home. I am bored and miss him very much.

I said, Qiu Yan, you like gossiping like an old woman.

He said that's because I only like to gossip about my wife.

I said, would you stop being so glib?

He said, no way. Who told me to use tiger oil every day?

He always makes me laugh. I think this time is still.

Compared with the depression of the past year, I feel completely transformed, as if I had returned to the summer when I first met you when I was sixteen.

However, I broke up with him in just half a year.

We parted peacefully, without any quarrel or blushing. Even when we broke up, he hugged me tightly.

He said, we will be good friends again.

I said, yes.

I felt I owed him from beginning to end, so when he told me that he was sent to school, I was really happy for him.

He said, don't you even care about me?

I said, studying abroad has always been your dream, and I can't keep you.

He said, only two years, two years I will come back, will you wait for me?

I said, no.

Two years have passed, and it has been a long time. Some beautiful things should still be kept in memory.

I wonder, if you said this to me, would I still answer so firmly?

The day before he left, he asked me, Rachel, do you really like me?

Yes, I think so.

Why else did I secretly cry as soon as I turned around after breaking up?

However, compared with the heartache and despair when I saw you holding her, the sadness when I broke up with him was really insignificant.

I think, no matter how long time has passed, no matter what my feelings for you have become, you will always have a place in my heart, and no one can match you.

You used to be my frontier, resisting all my sorrows, and finally, giving me the deepest and greatest sorrow.

During that time, you were busy taking the postgraduate entrance examination, and I didn't tell you about me and him.

Once again, you have been admitted to the graduate school of your ideal university, which has the best resources and advantages in your major.

However, it is in other provinces, far from home.

I remember you said that your university was chosen in the provincial capital because it was close to home. What about now? I think you will know how to choose when you are mature.

Qiu Yan is like this, and so are you. You are all warm people and extremely rational people.

Sure enough, no one will be with whom forever, and no one will be inseparable from whom forever.

Time flies like water, time flies like water. Those in the lush years and those in the lush years will eventually go away with the passage of time.

You went to graduate school, I am a senior, and my time at school is getting less and less.

Facing my graduation and future career planning, I seem to be at a loss.

Qiu Yan will greet me on QQ from time to time, often tell me some interesting things abroad, send me some postcards of the scenic spots he has been to, and occasionally give me a video call.

He said, I have a good time here, but I miss school and you too much.

He said, Rachel, if you are still alone after I come back, will we still be together?

I blinked my wet eyes, thought about it, smiled and said, OK.

On the day when graduation photo was photographed, several people in our dormitory cried.

Everyone is thinking about where to go and what to do in the future, and they are also busy making resumes and preparing for various interviews. No matter how hard you try to give up, in the end, you still have to go your separate ways.

And I decided to stay in the provincial capital, just like you said, close to home.

At the campus job fair, I actually met Qi Shanshan, a senior who has graduated for one year. At this time, she is wearing a professional suit, and her makeup is exquisite, which makes her look intellectual and generous. This time, she followed their company to her alma mater to recruit.

I greeted her with a smile, and she froze for a second, then gave a professional smile.

After a few simple pleasantries, she systematically and professionally told me some questions that should be paid attention to in the interview.

At a certain moment, I felt the gap between campus and society in a trance, which is also the only way for each of us to grow and change.

Finally, I entered a private enterprise and engaged in work related to my major. The salary was not high, but it was easy.

When I got off work at Christmas, I received a big bunch of roses and a big box of chocolates. Under the envy and gossip of my colleagues, I blushed and opened the card sandwiched in the flowers.

It says: Merry Christmas, my daughter. I'm here to pick you up from work.

The signature is, Miss you, Qiu Yan.

Qiu Yan is back.

When he really stood in front of me, when he held me in his arms, I burst into tears again.

At that moment, I knew that I had always liked him. It's just that my heart has been stubbornly filling you up, filling my whole heart full, but I don't know when it was hollowed out and when it was filled in by him.

Perhaps his appearance is like a beam of sunshine, which illuminates my heart and my life in the darkest time of my life.

In the two years since he left, although others were not with me, his care and consideration never stopped, and the warmth he brought me never diminished.

Even sometimes, I don't think I broke up with him at that time.

As he said, when people are gone, love and missing are always there.

I broke up because I was afraid that I would change too much in two years. Instead of waiting for the relationship to break up before breaking up, it is better to break up together, which not only retains the original feelings, but also sublimates and tests them.

Most importantly, let me see my feelings thoroughly.

I don't know where you learned that I broke up with him, but when you called me on Christmas Eve, I got back together with him.

I felt you on the other end of the phone, paused for a few seconds and said, that's good.

After hanging up the phone, I felt something cold slipping quietly from the corner of my eye.

I really understand that the days with you will eventually go further and further. My youth is still young, and my best sixteen years old will never go back.

Qiu Yan said that he didn't plan to take the postgraduate entrance examination and wanted to work early. With his background of studying abroad, it is easy to find a good job in this second-tier city.

The next summer, when I saw you coming back from vacation, you lost a lot of weight. I found that the once high-spirited teenager had been infected with a little vicissitudes by the years.

I think you must be under a lot of pressure at school. Otherwise, why are your eyes, which once had the first snow and stars, full of fatigue and dust?

Once I quit smoking and drinking, I learned to smoke, and my temper seems to be much worse. I don't know what you went through there, but you are starting to make me feel strange.

Qiu Yan said he wanted to work in a coastal city. I said yes, I also want to go to the outside world to broaden my horizons.

Summer passed, and we came to S city together, a city with prosperous economy but few human feelings.

Fortunately, I have a college roommate here, and Qiu Yan also has friends. We soon found a suitable job and adapted to the fast-paced life here.

We met each other's parents and both parents agreed. In the winter when I was twenty-four, we had a simple and warm wedding.

I saw you standing in the crowd in a suit, smiling at the wedding. You must be happy for me, too

There is a girl standing next to you. She grabbed your arm. She is really as beautiful as I expected. You stand together like lovers.

Coincidentally, her name is the same as mine.

Later, by chance, I clicked on the official website of your school and saw your campus propaganda film, which said: Lin/.

I clicked in, only to see a familiar scene in my memory, which once disheartened me.

You hold the girl's hand and walk on the boulevard of "Lover Valley". A leaf falls on her head, and you gently pluck it for her.

Let me ask you something. You made a promotional film for your school. Why didn't you mention it?

You said, yes, I took it with a girl, and I didn't say anything at the time, for fear that someone would be jealous.

My heart, as if there were ice and snow melting, was relieved and indifferent. In time, you and I will always be regrets, just like the dog blood bridge in TV series.

At the beginning of the new year when I was 26, I gave birth to a daughter. I said, you should be my child's michel platini. You smiled and said, Well, not only my uncle, but also michel platini.

Yes, you are already my brother, and we will always be a family.

From sixteen to twenty-six, I have known you for ten years. Do you remember the summer July when we first met, when you stained my floral skirt? Do you still remember the summer full of flowers in my college entrance examination? Remember the tea shop where we went every time we met at that time?

You don't know, I secretly wrote it in the wish post-it note on the wall of the tea shop, hoping to live with Lin forever.

Nowadays, things have changed, the tea shop is still open, and the students who go there have changed batch after batch. The wish I never told you has also become a silent flower with time.

People always think of first love too tragically. It's only because that person swept across the lake that you were as silent as a dragonfly for more than ten years, which made it ripple for the first time. And the people who really join hands with you for a lifetime are the ones who will accompany you through the long river of years.

Summer is here again, and the flowers in S City are full of branches. There will be many summers in our life and we will meet many people. Cherish what you have and forget what you missed. Summer flowers are so splendid every year.

If the heart is sunny, summer is not over.

(End)

About the author:

Xiaojie sauce, Scorpio girl after 90.

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Take "music, reading, code words and photography" as the four great pleasures of life.