I want to ask my sisters: Did it hurt for the first time?

I'm so nervous for the first time. I was sitting on the bed alone when he was taking a shower, and I didn't know what I was thinking. Then he came to kiss me, kissed me from top to bottom and told me to relax, but I just couldn't relax. Then he lifted my leg. He wanted to insert it, but maybe I was too nervous and the clamp was too tight. He always told me to relax and not to push so hard. I was so nervous when he hit the bottom. The moment he inserted it, all I thought about was that I loved him, so I gave it to him, and then I went in. It hurts. I got cramps in my hands and feet, and then I scratched my other arm with one hand. Then I don't remember anything (I don't remember how to do it after reflection that day), and then I left for a few days.