I can’t speak or express my emotions. I feel like I’m living in my own world, which is very helpless.

At least one thing you are good about is that you know that you cannot continue like this, and it will not be good for others or yourself. And toward change. That's a good start.

When you speak to make others unhappy, you may not have considered it well. Specifically, your unintentional words may have hurt others. Therefore, in everything you do, think more about others and the consequences. What consequences will this bring? If the consequences are not good, can I do it in a different way? In fact, people do many things with good intentions. But the results may not be good. Who wants to offend others, who doesn’t want everyone to like, recognize and appreciate themselves? I think everyone has this need.

Besides, I feel that you are a little indifferent. If I am wrong, I hope you don’t mind. I just want to help you.

If you really have this kind of trouble, you can enrich your emotions more. Because others don’t like to hear what you say, and you don’t laugh when others laugh at you, it may be that your feelings are a little indifferent and you don’t care about much. You should also cultivate your interests, read more books, and as you become more self-cultivated and well-informed, you will naturally find things that interest you. In that way, many things are connected, and you will definitely be interested in more things. The whole person will become lively. People will also like to deal with you, so everything goes smoothly. Of course, as a person, you still have to be kind. People who have been together for a long time will develop feelings for each other. That is because we pay attention to, care about and invest in the people around us, so I also think you may be less invested. But I believe that you must invest a lot in some aspect of your life, but not in the people around you. As long as you branch out a little bit, you will make progress.

I hope you will become more and more popular, more confident, more lively and cheerful.