From 1993 Youth Literature and Art? In fact, you don't understand my heart-Zaiyang Yu.

From 1993 "Youth Literature and Art", let me share it. That was my favorite novel at that time.

1

When' tis once spoken, Chen Ji felt a twinge of regret. He knows that he doesn't sell regret medicine, and what he says is like spilled water, which can't be collected again.

Ge Lele's eyes were wide open, as surprised as seeing nine suns in the sky. He chased and asked, "Really?" Really? Pan will go to the movies with a boy, neck and neck? I don't believe it, not even if I die. Our communist youth league secretary is serious, you can't discredit the' glorious image'! "

Chen Ji really didn't want to waste saliva or leave a slogan, so he had to copy what he said: "I can't believe my eyes either. Strangely, I happened to be sitting in the back row, and their heads were next to each other, which just blocked my view. I said, excuse me, please make way. I was more surprised than you when they turned around. This girl used to be Pan, the branch secretary of the Communist Youth League. I know that boy too. He is Yu, a little famous hooligan in our city. "

When Chen Ji finished, he felt that the bicycle that was ringing up and down under his ass creaked and sank a lot. When he got off the bus, he found an asshole who broke the glass of the bottle on the road and plunged deep into the tire.

He took out the glass and shrugged at Ge Lele: "What bad luck."

Ge Lele held his glasses, raised his wrist and looked at the electronic watch, then at the traffic around him: "There is only 10 minutes left. What should I do? "

Chen Ji looked around and there was no chance. Which mechanic got up so early? I had to push my bike and stride forward. He looked at Ge Lele: "You go first. Help me ask Teacher Ma for leave. "

As soon as Ge Lele got on the bike, the cat rushed forward.

Chen Ji stopped him loudly, and Ge Lele looked a little ugly.

Chen Ji said, "Lele, swear by your personality that you will never tell anyone."

Ge Lele is not afraid of swearing, let alone swearing. He expressed his state simply and neatly, jumped out of the distance and disappeared into the traffic.

Chen Ji regretted it again. Why did he make him swear? He may not tell anyone unless you remind him. If you remind him, he will feel more mysterious and exciting. It's weird not to tell anyone.

Chen Ji doesn't understand what happened to him. He always feels that something is wrong. Last night, the unexpected discovery was so confusing that he almost wanted to talk to the wall in private. On the way to school in the morning, I met Ge Lele first, but I couldn't help telling him ... no, the tire was flat, too. Ge Lele walked first. His nickname is "gossip". It doesn't seem ... a good sign.

Chen Ji despises himself in his heart. He usually withers like a gourd without a mouth, and a brick can't hit a word. What happened today?

Dude, dude, it's hard to control yourself. Chen Ji sighed, pushed his bike and walked in the soft wind in the early spring morning, thinking.

2

After all, key middle schools are key middle schools. When the self-study bell rang, only the swaying boxwood trees were left on the huge playground. In the big and bright four-story building in high school, there were bursts of reading sounds.

As usual, Mr. Ma stood upright at the door of the classroom in Class Two, Senior High School. Chen Ji panted heavily as he walked into the classroom. After only one look, Chen Ji felt embarrassed and secretly dared not be late again.

His deskmate Pan was reading English when Chen Ji saw her turn the book upside down. Chen Ji put down his schoolbag and quickly looked for books to read from it.

At Chen Ji, Pan immediately turned away. Chen Ji felt something in his eyes. He didn't show any emotion. He has just read a book full of foreign languages.

A swallow-shaped note fell in front of me. Chen Ji opened a book as a barrier, which is a sentence from Pan: Don't tell others, it's good for you. These two words stung Chen Ji with bullets. Hum, who do you take me for? Just thinking about my joining the league, I'm not that tacky.

Chen Ji opened the pencil box and tore off a piece of algebra homework paper. He answered with two bullets: I just want to talk to you.

He crumpled Pan Xi's note, threw it into his mouth, chewed it, and then threw it out of the window. Like a bullet, the small paper ball was shot out of the open window very accurately.

Pan glanced at Chen Ji again, looked at a paper ball flying over the window, looked at the note in his hand, put it in his red jacket pocket, and looked down at her English.

Chen Ji saw Pan's two horns move, and those two purple bows were alive and kicking last night, just like demonstrating to him.

Chen Ji wondered if Pan would talk to him. He doesn't understand because he really has a lot to say to her.

three

After all, early spring is not winter, and the sun's face has color. It should be said that spring begins with girls' colorful clothes. No, there is a strong breath of spring in the campus of key middle schools. The girls wear bright clothes to welcome this beautiful spring.

Chen Ji stood by the railing on the fourth floor, looking at the boys and girls playing on the playground. He saw Percy walking around with his hands in his jacket pockets. He suddenly realized that she wouldn't talk to him. Because Ge Lele's "gossip" has already begun to "broadcast". Rumors about girls, especially those who are pretty and famous and have that color, are always rumored, not to mention campus life is too dull, too dull and too boring. Who doesn't want to be a little exciting except homework? As a result, rumors about Pan, like a cold in early spring, quietly became popular.

Chen Ji grabbed Ge Lele by the collar. When no one questioned him, Ge Lele was more wronged than him, and his eyes widened: "I only told you one person, who knows all of a sudden!" Chen Ji let go of Ge Lele, held the railing and looked at the playground in a daze. He knows that he hurt Pan unintentionally, and he should and must explain to Pan whether she likes it or not.

Pan Xi obviously avoided him, like the plague.

four

The self-study bell rang the next night, and the quiet campus was suddenly crowded with people. As soon as the school gate opened, thousands of students poured into the streets, and the bell went all the way away.

Chen Ji was the last one to launch the bicycle. Before the tire was mended, people had to share joys and sorrows with the bicycle and push it home.

There were fewer people in the street and the night gradually calmed down.

A red Kun car passed by, and the cyclist's two bows caught Chen Ji's eye.

Chen took a few steps and grabbed the back seat of the bike.

It's Pan Xi.

Pan looked angry. "What do you want?"

Chen Ji said, "I want to talk to you."

Pan didn't mean to get off at all, but his foot stepped on the ground from the edge of the inclined beam: "I don't want to talk to you, and I'm too lazy to talk to you."

Chen Ji looked puzzled and grabbed the back seat of the car: "I am doing it for your own good." Pan Xi, I want you to listen to me. "

Pan was also angry: "get out of the way, if you pester me again, I will call someone."

Chen Ji was too wronged to speak. He just clung to the back seat of the car.

Pan didn't move. He looked around and really shouted, "Catch ... the hooligan!" "

Chen Ji opened his mouth wide in surprise. He didn't expect things to come to this. Pan will do this. Before he figured it out, several seventeen-year-old boys jumped up. Punching and kicking, he just blocked it with his arm and explained in his mouth: "We are classmates at the same table ..."

The hero looks familiar. By the way, it's surplus.

I threw a melon seed into my mouth and spat the melon seed skin on Chen Ji's face.

Chen Ji wiped the melon seeds and looked at Yu coming step by step.

Yu Jinkui laughed and held out a slap: "You smelly rascal!"

It hurts to slap Chen Ji. Chen Ji looked straight at Daan.

There are more people onlookers, many of whom are students from Chen Ji School. I slapped myself in the face, and every time, someone in the crowd cheered.

Chen Ji's face was hit by wood, which was hard and painful. A wisp of blood oozed from his mouth, and he shouted at people, "I ... I'm not a hooligan!" " "

I looked at the crowd: "Look, you are still stubborn. You have to give me some color. "

Many people crowded in. You punched me and vented your anger on Chen Ji. Chen Ji curled up on the ground with his head in his arms and endured the punches and kicks of people who didn't know the truth.

When he was about to faint, he saw the gloomy winner's smile.

five

Chen Ji followed his mother down the steps of the police station.

It's late at night and there are few pedestrians. Several cars roared past.

Mother didn't speak. The camel's back, strands of white hair on his head and heavy footsteps also made Chen Ji, as a son, feel bouts of pain.

Chen Ji's ear roared with the words of the police, which were addressed to his mother: "How many times have you come to pick up your daughter?" Now you have your son. As a mother, how do you behave? "The mother just shed tears, just lowered her head and held her son's hand. Chen Ji felt his mother's hand trembling slightly. ...

When I went up the stairs, my mother turned on the light and my father was sitting in the hut drinking.

Seeing Chen Ji, the father handed the bottle, but he didn't hit his son. The bottle broke on the wall. Father scolded: "Shit, I'll lose face and kill you, you worthless thing!" " "He tried to jump in the past, maybe he was drunk and tripped.

I grabbed Chen Ji, went into the back room separated by the curtain, made a quilt for my son, and left with my head down.

Chen Ji tried to stop his mother and talk about his grievances, but somehow he didn't make a sound.

My dad must have put my mom back in bed over there. You heard him swear: "My daughter is in prison and my son is a gangster again. You bitch are so useless! "

Chen Ji hates his father from the bottom of his heart. He has been building railways all his life and seldom goes home. Come back like a hero, get drunk every day, except scold my mother for sleeping. Poor mother, who swept the streets for most of her life, burst into tears for her children. ...

That night, Chen Ji didn't sleep a wink. Mother's deep sobs also lasted for a long time ...

six

It's another spring morning. Chen Ji rode that broken bike to school with black eyes and swollen face. Of course he won't know. His bad luck has been coming to him since morning.

It's a bit strange to study by yourself early. Teacher Ma didn't come, and Pan's seat was empty. The students were talking and laughing. When they saw him, they were all silent and looked at him in order. Eyes look like aliens. Ge Lele also helped her glasses three times.

Chen Ji had a presentiment that something was going to happen, and it happened. Pan Qianhong walked into the classroom with her eyes red. Teacher Ma asked Chen Ji to go to the office.

Teacher Ma slumped down in the chair and put the cigarette butt in the ashtray. He didn't speak for a long time, but stared at him with strange and serious eyes.

Chen Ji's heart is straight and weak. He didn't dare to look at Teacher Ma, so he asked timidly, "Teacher, I ..."

Teacher Ma stood up and his Adam's apple wriggled: "I only ask you three questions, and you have to answer honestly."

Chen Ji nodded quickly.

"First, is the origin of Ge Lele's scandal you?"

"Yes ... but ..." Chen Ji wanted to explain.

Teacher Ma waved his hand and interrupted him: "Second child, did you write this note?"

Chen Ji saw the teacher talking with a note he wrote to Pan Qian, and he nodded again.

"Third, I studied in the street last night. Did you grab the back frame of Pan Xi's bicycle first? "

Chen Ji nodded again. He wanted to tell the teacher the truth, but Mr. Ma was not interested in listening to his story at all. Teacher Ma teaches mathematics, and three points on a line constitute a reasoning. Chen Ji wants to scare Pan Ganda with rumors to talk about the despicable purpose of making friends.

Chen Ji said like a mosquito, "I really saw it in the theater ..."

Teacher Ma smiled and asked, "Is there anyone to prove it?"

Chen Ji touched his skull, but couldn't find a witness.

Teacher Ma patted Chen Ji on the shoulder: "You are too young to tell a lie. Remember, you are a bargainer, and you have paid the price for it. In the afternoon, you should make a profound review at the class meeting, and don't be a little lucky. "

Teacher Ma waved, but Chen couldn't remember how he walked out of the door and sat back in the classroom. ...

seven

Chen Ji found himself in a Eight Diagrams Array, but he could never find the exit. The Secret of the Cinema promises Yu, Pan and himself that he can't find a fourth person, which obviously proves that they are daydreaming. I can't tell Pan about the note, but I wrote it to myself as excellent evidence, but I let myself spit it out of the window smartly, and I couldn't even find the paper flowers. Last night, it was obvious that bald men had lice on their heads, and the police would prove that they were hooligans ... At first, some students asked him, and he explained it over and over again like Xianglin's wife lost her hair. Later, when he saw the distrustful eyes of his classmates, he realized that everything was in vain and it was hard to say what he was doing. It's best to keep silent, don't say a word in vain. Things will always come out.

The class meeting was held as scheduled. Teacher Ma stood on the platform and looked at his students. From the glorious history of key middle schools, the "three consecutive championships" of the model class of Class Two in Senior High School, his right-hand man Pan, and two things he hates most: middle school students fighting and puppy love.

Teacher Ma naturally talked about the problem of Chen Ji. He said: "Chen Ji's mistake is serious. He not only discredited the face of Pan, a city-level miyoshi student, but also damaged the glorious image of Class Two in Senior High School. His mistakes at least exposed his ideological problems. Please let the student speak and help him come back to our collective team. "

A brief silence. The classroom is very quiet, and everyone can hear their own heartbeat.

Chen Ji is prone on his desk, but his ears are long and he is ready to listen.

Ge Lele shot the first shot, and he quickly understood the teacher's meaning through gossip. He first reviewed himself a few words and said not to believe rumors and be used as a gun by others. It is said that Chen Ji stopped him on the road and advised him not to spread it out, knowing that he could not control his mouth ... Ge Lele also exposed Chen Ji, saying that Pan Qian was good-looking and temperament, like her sister. ...

Ge Lele lit a fire and a pot of water boiled. The students are scrambling to help Chen Ji. Accordingly, Chen Ji always took books that the teacher refused to read and deliberately lent them to others, such as Good Morning, Friends, Puppy Love and so on. Having said this, Chen Ji doesn't talk at ordinary times, and his mouth is scary. There are intimate scenes in TV movies. His eyes are bigger than eggs, and he always uses a rogue word to describe who is "sexy" ... Female students are unwilling to lag behind, twittering to help Chen Ji and criticizing him. ...

Pan rubbed his eyes and spoke. She said that as a Communist Youth League secretary and deskmate, she didn't help Chen Ji's ideological progress. She only knows that he is good at his lessons and ignores the guiding role of the Youth League branch. Better late than never. She should help her deskmate catch up with the team. ...

Chen Ji began to sit still, listening, and an internal heat rushed to his forehead. Especially when he heard Pan's lie of "earnest", his lungs almost exploded. He stood up, knocked on the door, went out, and went downstairs without looking at anyone.

He doesn't want to say anything, and no one will believe him. What he wants is action, and action will always prove everything. I have been in a bad mood these days, and I always feel that there is a tail behind my ass. When their buddies are in groups of three or five, their tails follow far away; When he was chatting with the girl, his tail followed closely.

I am not a fuel-efficient lamp. He has friends in the underworld and is also a bully in the technical school. Fighting and playing with fists are his killer weapons. He fights more than he studies, and the school can't help him. His father is a big official and happens to be in charge of this school. He always can't get through. He wants to cut off his tail.

No, I have another trick. He made a few phone calls, and seven or eight buddies chased him from several directions, leaving his tail at the core.

It turned out to be Chen Ji. The boy is not afraid at all. The tribal tiger looked at them, stared at Yu and said, "I'm afraid I won't come: I won't come to life without me!" " My sister Chen Jing is in prison and has many friends outside. If you are interested, I will invite them to play with you. "

Those guys look at me, I look at you, and they all look up at Yu when they know that they are not shaving well.

Before I could speak, Chen Ji said, "Your family lives at No.5 on the second floor of the municipal government. Your father comes home at six o'clock every night. If you don't have the guts, I'll call you old man. "

When I saw that the boy had a killer weapon, he drove away the evil gang and practiced confrontation.

"Go, boy!"

When Chen Ji said his intention, Yu smiled and knocked down Chen Ji, who was tall.

Chen Ji stood up and was knocked down by a punch ... After several rounds, Chen Ji couldn't move on the ground, and I whistled and roared off.

The next night, Chen Ji put a piece of tape on his face, blocking Yu's way again.

Yu Jinkui kicked in the past, and Chen Ji turned over her stomach. ...

On the third night, I was talking nonsense with a girl in an alley. Chen Ji crossed it again. The girl ran away screaming. I was so angry that I punched Chen Ji and crawled around on the ground, but he didn't beg for mercy, just squeezed out a few words from his mouth: "I ... I'll come back tomorrow night!" "

Yu Jinkui zheng, the in the mind really afraid. He has never met such an indomitable opponent who has been defeated and defeated repeatedly. If such harassment continues, no matter how severe it is, there will be no peace.

Yu Jinkui's big eyes turned and pulled up again. Yes, call Mr. Chen Ji to stop harassing him.

So, Chen Ji was naturally invited to the office again.

Teacher Ma lit a cigarette and looked at the dark students with black arms and legs. "I heard that you often go to get revenge on that brave young man, right?"

Be brave? It's funny that I still use this elegant and sacred vocabulary? Chen Ji mouth wide, without saying a word.

Chen Ji grinned, and his Gherardini expression angered Teacher Ma. He patted the table and reprimanded severely: "Chen Ji, I tell you, if you continue fooling around, pack up and leave." I can't let you ruin a pot of soup with rat shit. It's up to you "

Unexpectedly, Chen Ji stood in front of him with a smile.

I was frightened. He accepted this invincible story from the bottom of his heart. His confidence and courage were scared to death by the boy's perseverance and never back down's courage.

Yu bowed: "Brother, I am impressed by you. You can do it. I lost, will you hit me? I want to make you crazy. "

Chen Ji sneered, "I won't hit anyone. I just want you to write a certificate. I said, you write it. "

Like a grandson, Yu repeatedly said, "OK, OK, what do you say?"

nine

When Chen Ji rushed into Teacher Ma's office with a certificate, he suddenly felt that there was something wrong with the atmosphere.

The dean sat in the chair opposite Mr Ma, and the ashtray in front of them was full of cigarette butts. Apparently, they talked for a long time.

Teacher Ma began to prove that there were a few lines written on it-

I'm a gangster. I let people bully Percy. Save her. What Chen Ji said is true. We really saw the movie. I also arranged a set of dogs to be brave.

Yudaan

Teacher Ma handed the note to the dean and said simply, "It's late, it's late."

The dean glanced at the note and said solemnly, "Chen Ji, the school Committee discussed and decided that you should transfer." You are not fit to study in our key middle school. From now on, you can't fulfill all your obligations as a student in this school. "

Chen Ji is porcelain, and it fell apart at once. The unexpected blow almost crushed him.

Chen Ji got on that broken bike and ran to Danjiang like a fire fighter. The road was sandy, the bicycle tilted and he was thrown on the grass.

He cried, for the first time, crying. I cried myself hoarse like an old cow. The river flowed slowly as if nothing had happened. A peach blossom fell into the water and whirled away.

1O

There is a vacancy in Class Two, Grade Two, Senior High School.

Without Chen Ji, the students feel lonely.

Pan is not used to it at all. The joy at the beginning soon filled the loss. No one can clean the table, sweep the floor and help her with her composition.

A strange feeling came to my mind unconsciously, and she missed her poor deskmate a little.

On the weekend afternoon, she accidentally received a strange letter. She opened it curiously and was immediately attracted-

Pan Xi:

I'm Chen Ji's sister, and my brother wrote to tell me about you. Pan Xi, you are wrong. You misunderstood the meaning of Chen Ji.

You may not know, do you? I was also a Communist Youth League secretary in my sophomore year, as pure and sincere as you. By chance, my bicycle chain fell off and a strange boy helped me. We hooked up secretly, and our lessons plummeted. I didn't expect that boy to be the leader of a criminal gang. I'm sorry for my mistake, but I can't get rid of it if I want to make money. Later, he was sentenced to punishment and swallowed the bitter fruit he had brewed in the high wall.

Chen Ji has a very good impression on you, because you not only look like me, but also like wearing purple bows like me. After discovering your secret, he was very anxious because he knew who Yu was. He wants to tell you my stories that he doesn't usually want to tell others. You misunderstood him. ...

I don't blame you. I just want to tell you gently as an elder sister who mistakenly crossed the road: when life is critical, there are often only a few steps. Don't go wrong, just like me.

On April 8, Chen Jing was at a reform-through-labour farm.

Pan Xi's heart is shaking. What a kind and beautiful heart she has broken. What a terrible mistake she made for self-esteem and face.

A few days later, on another spring morning, Pan met Chen Ji riding an old car.

Pan Xi greeted her and shouted, "Chen Ji, forgive me. Teacher Ma asked me to get you back. "

Chen Ji said nothing, like a strange passer-by, passing by, pedaling a broken bicycle, slowly drifting away and disappearing into the traffic.

Pan gawked at Chen Ji's familiar and unfamiliar figure, and froze like a poplar tree on the roadside.

At that time, I don't know where the loudspeaker came the elegy of Tong Ange:

You said I was unpredictable like a cloud,

In fact, you don't understand my heart,

You said I was like a dream, far and near,

In fact, you don't understand my heart!

You said I was like a riddle, I couldn't see it clearly,

In fact, I never care about hiding anything.

I'm afraid I can't deny your true feelings,

So I dare not get too close;

You said you were going on a trip, secretly sad,

Don't let you see the crying eyes ...

Pan felt something strange on his face and reached out to touch it. I don't know when she cried. ...