My little fool, please forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye again.

I was deeply attracted to you the first time I saw you in college. How can there be a simple girl like you in the world? You are like a blank sheet of paper, and any painting on it is blasphemy.

You have a pair of eyes shining like stars, which are the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen. Eyes full of innocence, simplicity and trust, people can't bear to hurt.

You are like a bunch of herbs, blooming with the sanctity endowed by snowflakes, and warming me with the fragrance of Lan Ruo.

I want to express my love to you, but I have no courage. Although I often think that I am humorous, intelligent and wise, and I am a person with extremely high IQ, EQ and talent, I am not confident in front of you. I'm afraid my love will scare you, so I only pay attention to you silently.

It's a pity that just when I made up my mind to put all my eggs in one basket, a boy in my class beat me to it and you agreed. Seeing you two in pairs, I complained to my roommate that I should have confessed first. I am inferior to him except for my length!

I know you are not the kind of girl who cares about appearance, but later I heard that you like me only because you like me, and it has nothing to do with appearance. I don't know if I should be happy. Like a compliment, but not like a compliment.

I can only bury my love for you in my heart, and soon you will be separated, which is gratifying. Seeing that guy holding someone else's hand quickly and not being with you, he was blind. I beat him, who let him hurt you.

You suddenly cut your hair short. I thought you liked him. Although I don't know his position in your heart, but looking at the faint sadness between your eyebrows, I hesitate more and can only silently guard you.

I visit you from time to time to make you happy. I can't believe you can't even play cards. I suggested teaching you, and you readily agreed. At that moment, I was very happy to sit so close to you. The expression is as plain as water, but it has actually become choppy.

I can't say why I like you, but I always want to be close to you, tease you and pay attention to your words and deeds. One day I went to the dormitory to play with you, and you were the only one. I'm more nervous. We talked about everything, and I became cautious when I was humorous.

I suddenly asked, "Do you know the standard of straight legs for girls?" You foolishly replied, "I don't know." I said, "Simply put, when you stand on tiptoe and approach your heel, your thighs, knees, calves, ankles and toes can approach at five o'clock. There must be a gap between these five points."

You wore a light blue daisy skirt that day, and you stupidly lifted it to see if you met the standard. Feet, calves, knees, you slowly lift the skirt up a little. When I approached my thigh, I made an excuse casually and ran away without waiting for your response.

Little fool, you will be eaten by wolves.

Later, I moved out of the campus and shared a house with my classmates near the school. I met you in the street one night. You asked me where I moved. I invite you to have a look.

When I came to the place where I lived, my roommate might have gone to eat, and no one was there. The house is small, with one room and one living room, simple furniture and nothing to visit. I don't know when the indoor temperature began to heat up slowly, and the originally lively hut quieted down. You just looked at me with a lovely smile.

I finally can't help but confess to you: "Little fool, do you know that I like you for a long time!" " "You nodded." Do you want to be my girlfriend? "I didn't wait for your answer, perhaps for fear that you would refuse. I said anxiously," You can think about it! Get back to me! "

You didn't speak and bowed your head. When you look at me again, we can hear the heartbeat in our eyes. I walked slowly towards you and got up the courage to kiss you.

What a sweet kiss it is. I will remember it all my life. It's so sweet. I always thought your saliva was sweet. You like me! You like me!

Later we talked about each other's plans after graduation. I am the only child in my family and will go back to my hometown county after graduation. You said that it should be no problem for your family to arrange for you to work in Shanghai. I listened like a bolt from the blue, quietly sent you away, and then walked aimlessly in the street, so that I didn't know that I had walked all night until dawn, and I didn't even know that my coat was lost.

How can I take you away? Let you live in a small city with me? I can't give you a spring life facing the sea. More can't hurt you, let you follow me be wronged. Although in the next few years, I thought again and again, why didn't I be a wolf that time?

I thought I fulfilled you, but in fact, half of them were afraid that after being with you, they would go their separate ways. How can I let you come with me?

At that time, I thought that love was perfect. Later, I realized that love should respect each other's wishes, not their own unilateral decisions.

When I confess to you, I am afraid that you will refuse, saying that another girl likes me, so please think it over quickly, or I will be with her. So I ran away before you told me the answer.

This is the first time I left without saying goodbye.

That girl is a lot like you. I thought I would forget you gradually. The more so, the more lingering in my heart.

I take her as your shadow, but it's still not you. Slowly, the girl realized what was in her heart, and finally we didn't get together.

I am an asshole, killing two such good girls. When we were young, we didn't know love. When we do this, we are no longer young.

02

Occasionally contact after graduation, all say something irrelevant. Then you changed your phone number and lost contact. Occasionally I hear sporadic news about you from my classmates.

I thought our fate had come to an end. I put my heart and soul into my work, but fortunately, I am lucky. I had my own company and had several girlfriends, all of which ended in nothing.

We have a close friend who occasionally asks her for your contact information. She said that you went to Australia, had a good life and had children. It's just that you called her, but you didn't have your number. It was a single-line contact, and my heart was empty.

Maybe God has his own arrangement. We called this friend on the same day, but I came before you. Fate brought us together. We left each other QQ numbers and contact numbers. But I only called once. I know you can't answer the phone. I don't want to embarrass you.

With your contact information, it was just a surprise at first, and our communication was limited to greetings. I pay close attention to your spatial state silently, and hope that you will live well and live up to my original fulfillment. I am occasionally gloomy, and I hope you will have a bad life, so maybe I still have a chance of one in ten thousand.

Until one day, I stayed up watching the ball and saw your head flashing, so I started talking and hugging each other. Maybe it's because we've experienced too much, and we've all opened our hearts, and we're not as young as we were at the beginning, and I'm surprised to know that it's me that you like for so many years, and I've never forgotten it.

You asked me if I had you in my heart. I joked that I had lived in my heart for so many years and I still confiscated your rent!

You also asked me, "I obviously like you, why did I stay with other girls without waiting for your reply?" I think this problem must have bothered you for a long time.

I sincerely replied, "You had a bad day. I can't let you live a miserable life with me in a small city, and I can't harm you. "

I know you are not that kind of material girl, but how do I know you are willing to give up your job in a big city for me?

When I heard you say that I always wanted to add my last name before my name, I regretted it. I hated myself. Why didn't I eat you first?

Knowing that now you have a husband who loves you and a child you love, I said that I am also married, my wife is very virtuous, and my children are very lovely.

Half seawater, half flame. While longing, while suppressing. I dare not call you for fear of hearing your inconvenient and cold tone.

So restrained, tangled, suffering. I want to go across the ocean to see you, but I'm afraid you'll see my greasy appearance now. So I started to exercise and keep fit, for fear of disappointing you.

You and I agreed that when we were old and the other half was gone, we would be together. I didn't promise because there was something wrong with the latest medical report. I haven't paid much attention to my health for business in recent years, and God has few days left for me. This may be god's punishment for me!

I snubbed you on purpose, but I couldn't help leaving you a message. You must want to know why my attitude is hot and cold, so that you can still think that I failed you like the first time. It's good to watch you delete all our chat records and block me so that you won't remember it again. I should be happy. But why is my heart so fucking painful?

I can't imagine what would happen if you heard from my friends a year later. Will tears keep falling like beads, so sad that I can't control myself? A year, when the pain should be less!

My little fool, you are still so trusting. You will never know the truth. I'm not married and have no children. I only say this so as not to hurt you.

My little fool, please forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye again.