Loneliness in old age: I just want to talk to someone

Eight or nine years ago, I was still in single dog, sharing a room with people in the old community, and running back and forth between the company rental house and the rental company every day. Such a simple straight line is more annoying than the musty smell floating in the dark and humid corridor.

There is no great improvement in work, and a decent life cannot be obtained. If I endure it for a long time, I will look exactly like most working people in this city, with a serious bitter gourd face and conscious coldness.

Sometimes when you go out, you will meet children who go to junior high school at home and surf the Internet upstairs. The vigorous youth of teenagers shakes me like a bright lamp, reflecting my aging face, trying to say hello, but unable to get out of my throat.

Even if it is a sleepy weekend, go downstairs to buy brunch, meet a smile and say hello to her. I was so confused that it took me a long time to remember. Well, it was the * * * "distressed" grandmother I met in the fire escape when the water supply in the community stopped last time. I was helping her carry water, but I didn't expect her to remember. ...

"I've seen you many times, and you can't get enough sleep every time!" Grandma is 60 years old, and her thin figure always makes me feel wobbly, but she is very happy and looks at me with a smile. "It's hard to overdraw at a young age!"

"Let's talk about it when you are old!" I am still listless. What I didn't say is that the reality is so difficult that no one is old with air traffic control.

"It's not like that. I felt it when I was old. It's really time for me. Poor health is on the one hand, and it is possible that you can't even find someone to talk to! "

It's hard to find someone to talk to.

I'm ashamed of it. It seems that this is my current state. Sometimes I don't want to, sometimes I really can't find it.

"According to what you say, I guess when I get old, I should be a terrible person, in every way!"

"No, little girl, you are a warm-hearted person. Blessed are those who are beautiful and broad-minded! " She actually patted me. Looking from the side, I saw a phalanx protruding high, a withered vine-like hand and harsh brown spots of different shades.

I was shocked. For as long as I can remember, no old man patted him on the back like a child and talked to me with his skinny hands!

"Besides, many things won't be known until you are really old ..." Grandma continued. Unfortunately, my phone rang. That's my charming director's overtime call: the client has just been finalized and there are some minor changes. Today, things are urgent! This should be the last change!

Damn it, you said that two weeks ago!

I was not in the mood, so I said goodbye to my grandmother in a hurry. I didn't expect her to look a little lost. "Ah ... er, so soon, you will go to work, er, ok!"

Later, I met this old woman several times on the road, and every time she stopped slowly and smiled and said hello.

Every time, I am anxious, and I don't know if she can catch my smile.

For a strange old man, I think this is the only way.

I can't stop. Although the tail of youth has long been broken, the old world like her is still far away, isn't it? Too far away to understand, the silence revealed in her words and attitude!

Until I met another old man.

This community has a history of more than 20 years, and there are many locals and old people here.