My mother died young because of fatigue. How can I forgive my father who abandoned us for many years?

When I was 6 years old, my parents divorced and I was raised by my mother. My father gives 200 yuan alimony every month, and my mother takes me to the city to make a living.

It seemed particularly difficult at that time. My mother has no job, so she has to do odd jobs everywhere, and her salary is not high. Our mother and daughter barely make ends meet.

Dad is stubborn, and when he is with his mother, he really doesn't match. He is always quarrelling. His mother quarreled alone, and his father said no, but later he couldn't swallow this tone and began to fight.

Grandma and aunt have a bad relationship with mom. Every time I see my father beating my mother, they are happy to see it, and they don't interfere much. Mom, how can a woman beat her father?

My uncle couldn't bear to see his mother being bullied, so he rushed home and punched his father, and his eyes were black. So, grandma sent dad to the hospital, saying that dad was blind, and she wanted to tell her uncle everything, not only to cure the disease, but also to send him to prison.

Grandma is particularly scared. It seemed that she didn't know the law at that time. Grandma doesn't know what to do when she is sloppy and honest.

Hearing this, my uncle became even more angry. He rushed into the hospital and hit his father. Then he left alone and went to work in the city. Leave grandma and them and do whatever they like.

This incident eventually turned into a hatred between the two families. Coupled with the mother's poor health, the incident of July 7788, put together, became a knot that two families could not untie.

02

When my parents divorced, my father refused to take me. I don't think it's good to get married after taking care of the children. But my mother didn't want to, and finally we left together. Although my father has to pay alimony, I have to fight every time I ask for money. When I was a little older, I wanted it myself, but at that time, I already had a stepmother.

Grandma doesn't like me, saying that I am just like my mother, and my stepmother doesn't want to talk to me, saying that I have nothing to do with this family. Every time I go, I just go to see their cold faces and get scolded. At that time, I was still young and speechless.

That feeling is really shameful. I can't say it, but I hate it more and more. Sometimes, my father is at home and occasionally throws me dozens of dollars. Then, he will be sad and scold me, saying that it will not be good for me to come.

At that time, the stepmother had given birth to a little brother. He was playing with toys on the ground when we quarreled. That's a beautiful remote control car. I have never seen it before. Looking at him, I feel even more wronged. Why, it's my dear dad, who has everything, and I'm always kicked out of the house.

Every time I go to my father's house in fear and come back crying. Later, my mother felt sorry for me and wouldn't let me go.

Mom works alone, without education, life is not easy. Later, I also looked for my stepfather, but he brought a brother and kept bullying me. The money earned by the two of them is not enough for their brothers, and they fight and make trouble all day. Besides, with my mother, chickens fly and dogs jump every day.

In this way, not long after, my mother divorced her stepfather, saying it was a divorce. In fact, she didn't get a license, and she didn't need any troublesome procedures. Just separate.

After several years of tossing, I grew up and began to study harder and harder in junior high school. I tried because I panicked. My mother has always told me to study hard and not live my life like my mother, but I have no ability to change.

I always feel that behind me, there is a crisis in pursuit, that is, becoming a mother and suffering all my life. I was afraid of this spell, so I ran like hell.

03

When I was in high school, my mother found that her right breast was always dripping liquid, first a small drop of water, then more and more, and it changed color.

I went to the hospital for examination, and the doctor said it was breast cancer, but the survival rate after the operation should be very high.

Mom doesn't want to have an operation. She wants to leave the money for me to study. In fact, that little money is not enough for reading and surgery. I cried and begged my mother to treat me. I don't want to be without my mother. I am alone. I can not study, but I can't live without my mother.

I also secretly asked my dad, and my dad lamented for a long time. When it was time to get the money, he still got cold feet. When I went again, the whole family didn't say a good word, saying that mom deserved it.

I walked along the road in despair, and the more I walked, the more annoying I became. My parents are divorced, but shouldn't my father support me? It was agreed to go to 200 yuan a month, but I haven't spent dozens of dollars in these years.

I want to sue him and get my father to take out the money. However, I bite my teeth at night to sue my father. During the day, I have no courage. I'm afraid that if I sue, I'll get nothing. I'm afraid grandma and dad will scold me maliciously. I'm afraid my classmates will laugh at me when they know it, and I'm afraid I'll become a person that everyone spurns.

Later, my uncle took out tens of thousands of dollars, plus my mother's savings, and my mother had an operation. After the operation, they recovered well. Doctors say that many people still live for many years as long as they insist on taking medicine every day.

At that time, I felt that my eyes were wide open, and we finally escaped.

After the college entrance examination, I did well and went to Guangzhou to study at the university.

College is very expensive, and my mother really can't afford it. I gritted my teeth and begged my father again. He only gave me 200 yuan. I think if my father is willing to help us, no matter how much money he can get, as long as he has a warm heart, I will be satisfied. At least, my father has me in his heart.

However, that little hope finally turned into despair.

04

Dad was running a factory, but he was actually very rich. My brother often goes out to travel, and it costs tens of thousands of dollars every time. Stepmother also wears gold and silver.

I told dad that I would never forgive you in my life, so you shouldn't have a daughter.

Dad is so angry with me, too Tell me not to go to him if you can. He doesn't owe me anything.

I am alone in Guangzhou, so I have to work everywhere and be a tutor. It's over 40 degrees outside. I want to take a bus for two hours, go to cram school for one hour and come back for two hours. I go to work and do all the dirty work. Sometimes, I didn't get my salary, and I was deducted by various means.

Students can enjoy their college time, but I am always running around the streets of Guangzhou, forced by my livelihood.

When I am busy with my study and life, my mother often sends me money. Although it's not much, I know my mother has done her best for it.

I think, when I graduate from college, I must try my best to get my mother and live a good life, so that my mother can live a relaxed life and be happy for a few days like others.

I think, as long as I work hard, I will be able to realize this dream.

However, when I was in senior three, my mother's breast cancer recurred and spread. By the time I knew, my mother was already dying. When I rolled and crawled home, my mother was relieved.

Dying mother, painful suffering, and finally, painful to death.

Mom left and stood in front of her grave. I really don't know what to do. I hate it. If my dad can help me, even if he only gives me 200 yuan a month, maybe he can give me and my mom some light. If my father would love my mother and me, maybe my mother wouldn't have died so early.

Why? Why? I really gnashed my teeth and left with tears in my eyes.

Later, after graduating from college, I wandered around Guangzhou alone and had no place to go for the New Year. It's just that over the years, I'm used to suffering, and I seem numb. Every time I am lonely and sad, I work hard.

Others have love, warmth and love, but I have money.

Maybe my stepmother's brother is too disappointing, maybe my father is old and still has some compassion, maybe I have a car and a house in Guangzhou, and in their view, I am too rich.

Dad came to me again. After all these years, he took the initiative to find me. He hoped I could help my brother and said, after all, we are flesh and blood. He said he was old and regretted it. At that time, he couldn't be the master at home. He was divorced once, so it is impossible for him to leave for the second time. In fact, he still misses me in his heart.

05

I want to laugh when I hear him say that. At that time, I was like a drowning man, desperately begging him to help me, but he stood by. Today, when I grew up and no longer needed it, he came and said that he missed me and that he was my father.

I didn't agree to his request. Besides, I deleted my contact information. He'll never find me again. I always feel that if I choose to forgive, I will be sorry for my mother who died of overwork so early.

I can say forgive, but, can mom come back?

I think I will have my own family and children in the future. I don't know if I can live with my husband forever. Everyone who enters marriage is eager to hold hands for life. However, if it is really separated halfway, it may be a helpless move.

However, in any case, we must take good care of the children. Mom and dad, you can not be together, but love can not be missing. Children know nothing when they are young.

A child who is not loved is really too sad to grow up.

No matter what the marriage is, please love your children and let them grow up like children. In the future, ta will have the energy to love her parents.

Children hope that all children in the world can get the love of their parents and grow up carefree. As for my father, it is better to give more love to his children in his early years than to ask for forgiveness in his later years.