Talk about the mood of stock trading

Looking back on my mental journey in recent years, I can say that I have been frustrated constantly. I don't know if it's a trick from heaven or my own personality. Now I'm going to share my experience with you, hoping you'll take it as a warning.

I have a happy family, my wife is considerate and my children are sensible, but since I got involved in stock trading, I feel physically and mentally haggard in recent years. At the beginning of stock trading, there will be an evaluation, and finally a conclusion that it is suitable for conservative investment will be drawn, but according to my personality, I am a unconvinced person and can't listen to others' sincere evaluation. At the beginning of 20 15, because the company was planning the listing arrangement, it learned about the stock for the first time and began to contact the stock and open an account. At first, I put about 5000 yuan in my account, because 20 14 -20 15 is a short-term policy bull market and I don't know anything. I made money by buying any stock, tasted the sweetness of making quick money, and then it got out of hand. Just two years after graduation, I didn't have any savings and my salary was not high, so I fiddled around for a while, so I was in a good mood and my salary was paid on time. Part of my salary at that time was used to invest in stocks.51996.999999919995 At that time, stock trading was also profitable, but the good times did not last long. The stock market crash began in May, 20 15, and the nightmare has continued since then.

I saw that the money I earned before was also paid back, and the account funds shrank little by little until the principal was also losing money. People who are usually unwilling to give up anything suddenly evaporate their money, which is also comforting themselves. The stock market crash is only temporary, and it will rise again after falling. Anyway, except for living expenses, everything else is input. This is the beginning of a nightmare, because there is no technology and no guidance for stocks. Tuition fees were paid again and again, but I didn't learn from them. I just feel unlucky. I didn't calculate how much I lost before and after. I know that I have no savings and am heavily in debt for six years. The people in our project department subsidize the salary every year, and I lose a lot of money every year.

Get married at the end of 20 15. I bought a family car before I got married, with tens of thousands of dollars, but not much money. At that time, I thought about giving a project subsidy at the end of the year, borrowing money and adding loans to buy a car. /kloc-On February 24th, 2008, I borrowed 20,000 yuan from my colleague to pay the down payment on the car, and then I paid it back slowly according to the three-year loan. 20 13 to buy a house, because the mortgage has not yet come down. During the Spring Festival of 20 15, the real estate developer informed me that I could apply for a mortgage, but I needed to ensure that the car loan was repaid before I could apply for a mortgage. I can't help it. When I got married, I borrowed 20 thousand from my relatives and 20 thousand from my mother-in-law to pay back the car money. At the end of the year, because the stock lost money at that time, I paid back part of the money owed by the stock. At that time, my wife and I just got married and lied to her for the first time. I told my wife that I had paid back the money I owed my relatives, but actually I only paid back 10 thousand yuan. There was no way to fill the gap of 10 thousand yuan, so I paid back the money owed by the credit card first. This kind of thing cannot be concealed. Finally, my wife found out and hid the quarrel in money for the first time.

20 16 I am in jiaxian on business to do projects. Because of my wife's trust, I never ask about money. She goes to class, I go on a business trip, and our little life is so leisurely. The house was renovated from the end of 20 15 and completed in March of 20 16, adding furniture and other items. My wife is a kindergarten teacher, and the nature of her job is that she is afraid of having a baby, so she resigned and kept the baby at home. My mother-in-law also resigned and came back to accompany her. My stock account is still open, and I am still working on this project. My wife doesn't ask too much money. Anyway, she just keeps making up after losing it, never counting how much money she owes, 20 16 10. By the end of 20 16, my wife's belly was getting bigger and bigger, and no one was taking care of her. She took a bus to Fujian to accompany me, stayed for two months, and then went home for the New Year. After the New Year, she went to Fujian again. My wife is expecting a baby at home, and the expected date of delivery is May 20 17. My mother-in-law also came back to accompany my wife to have children, and I was also in July of 20 17. Work at home from nine to five and on weekends. The stock has been losing money until June 20 17, and I can't hide it. I'm robbing Peter to pay Paul and have a showdown with my family. My wife had a big fight with me because of this, and I have been unhappy because of this, and I can't get out. From then on, I thought about not touching it again. My wife took the children to Hami and my mother-in-law for the New Year, and I also went back to my hometown to celebrate the New Year with my parents. My account has been clean for several months, and I have been in charge of money at home. The company issued a year-end bonus, and the rest of the money is in my hand, with 20 thousand yuan.

I have been working in the urban area since the beginning of 20 18 and April of 20 17, and I have no source of business allowance. At the beginning of the year, 20 thousand yuan was invested in the stock market, and my unconvinced character began to be staged again. Plus, my wife is not around, and I'm running amok again. Finally, I lost all my money. Before, because there were project subsidies, I thought I could make up some project subsidies and there was no extra money. I borrowed 10 thousand or 20 thousand at the beginning and have been paying it back. My wife also came back from Hami in May, 20 18, and she was quite clean after working for several months. For his wife's thrifty personality, the thought of wasting money makes him uncomfortable, and he is reluctant to eat and wear. For this family, her son grew up little by little. I think, at that time, I really didn't have the responsibility. I devoted myself to stocks and wanted to make money. By June of 20 18, 10, I lost more than120,000. I was robbing Peter to pay Paul. Finally, the hole became bigger and bigger, and the cards were on the table. This is a bolt from the blue for my wife. This time, my parents learned that in order to appease my wife and for this family, my father took the initiative to bear two-thirds of the debt, and the rest was also given by my wife and parents. When my father went out to do construction during the slack season, I felt that I really let myself go. I feel sorry for my wife and children. For a complete family and children, my wife forgave me again and again. I regret it and start over. These are all hidden by myself. I am irresponsible and willful. Although sometimes I think that quarreling between two people is inevitable, I think my wife loves me so much that she fished me out of the cliff again and again. I always invite them to dinner. It's 20 19.

At the beginning of 20 19, although I worked in the company, from April 20 17 to April 20 19, I had no projects for two years and sat in the office with a basic salary every day. My wife didn't go to work to take care of the baby after June 20 16, because so many things happened before. There is no progress in the mainland, and I have thought about changing companies many times. There seems to be no suitable opportunity. Finally decided to develop in Hami. After the new year, I saw that my company had no projects. On April 30th, after the year-end bonus was distributed, I submitted my resignation.

On April 6th, 20 19, I packed up my wife and children, headed west for 2,500 kilometers, gave myself a few years to release, walked and played, and arrived in Hami in Xuchang-Luoyang-Sanmenxia -Xi 'an-Wuwei-Tianshui-Zhangye-Dunhuang-Guazhou-Hami in six days, and then began to look for a job. The house was also booked on April 20, which is the same place as my wife's house. After I arrived in Hami, I had more than 50 thousand yuan. With the help of my husband's family, I gritted my teeth and bought a resettlement house. The total house price was nearly 6,543.8+0.6 million, and I borrowed more than 6,543.8+0.6 million. Next, I was decorated. I have no money in my hand, so I borrowed tens of thousands of dollars online for simple decoration. 20 19 moved into a new home during the heating in June, and began to think about the company's stock. The bull market is coming, and I can't stand the temptation. Besides, I have more leisure time and returned to my previous job. In March 2020, I had an accident and borrowed tens of thousands of dollars online. Because of the mask market, I earned tens of thousands of dollars. When my wife found out, I had a big fight. I waited for an opportunity to get rid of it. I finally got rid of it before the National Day in 2020. I thought I would go to work next year, and finally paid off my debt in June 5438 +2020 10. I feel relieved. I always feel uncomfortable owing money to others, but I didn't stop after I got rid of it, but let it go in the next month. My heart is floating, and I feel my luck is coming. I borrowed 400,000 yuan from the Internet, seized the opportunity to have a good year, and dreamed of the plan after making money. After 65438+February 6, 2020, the nightmare began, and I cut my flesh and exchanged shares. The stock exchange did not improve, but kept falling, and finally it was around 65438+20201October 20. Another showdown. Just after paying off the house, I owed more than 200,000 online loans. I returned my parents to my wife, and the bigger the bet, the bigger the hole. Parents have spent all their hard-earned pension money, and it is near the end of the year. Suddenly I feel that the future is dark, and the child is almost 4 years old. On the way to repayment every year, I also hurt my wife's heart, and the old wound has not healed.