What's it like to be isolated by everyone?

? It's hard to feel isolated. I've experienced this feeling before. It's like you're trying to please others, but you get their dirty eyes. You always want to do something to make others friendly to you, but you can't achieve your goal. That feeling is very helpless.

I spent three years alone in high school. From the beginning of military training, I was isolated because I was a rare day student in my class. Every time I go to school, I go home alone. I never had a partner. Over time, everyone has a fixed partner, only me.

Later, I tried to get on well with others, sometimes it was ok, but I gradually alienated over time. Others can have a fixed partner and a fixed playmate, but I don't. No matter what I do, I can only do it alone. Therefore, one Monday in my class, physical education class, became my biggest worry. Every time I go to physical education class, I feel very uncomfortable, because most of physical education class is my free time. After the dissolution, I can only sit on the lawn and watch others play happily. At that time, I felt very inferior, afraid that others would see me as lonely, afraid that others would treat me like a human being and laugh at me. ?

? Being isolated is really painful. In fact, it was fine, but the more isolated it is, the more sad it is. Loneliness in my heart is like an endless sea, and I feel suffocated at the bottom of the sea all the time. ?

In fact, sometimes, if you change your mind, you won't be so sad. Loneliness just makes your life without playmates, but as long as your heart is not lonely. It doesn't matter if no one understands your heart. You can use these alone time to finish what you haven't finished. People are often most awake when they are lonely. At this time, if you put all your thoughts into your study, you will make rapid progress.

Until now, when I was writing this passage, I kept flashing my lonely scenes in high school. At that time, I was so helpless and pitiful, but I still relied on myself to cheer myself up for three years. I ignored other people's eyes and just buried myself in my studies. Later, I was admitted to an ideal university as I wished, and I also made friends and roommates in the university. So, from another angle, since you don't know your friends, it's better to study. What you have learned can't be taken away by others and can't be lost by others. ?

When you are isolated, you should reflect on what you should do now. At least, your heart won't deceive yourself. Only you know what you need most.