Talking about being excluded

I have been excluded from my family for many years, because I am old and unmarried, because my earning ability is not as good as my brother and sister. I have a good personality, and all my friends around me advise me to relax. People who have never experienced it can't feel the same way. When I go to the table, everyone won't leave the table without eating. I get off the table, everyone else goes to the table for dinner, and there is no you at home. My family never calls you when they go out for dinner and tea. Later, when they went downstairs to eat, they turned on the rice cooker. Not even a grain of rice. They are ill in hospital, and they need someone to wait on them, and they need someone to pee. The first thing that comes to mind is you. It's no use waiting for you to leave the hospital after you're busy. Just like throwing garbage, you will be thrown away, returning to your previous indifference and crowding you out. It is false to say that you are not uncomfortable, but what can you do? Being born in a family can't choose, so I am dumb at home and don't say a word, because as long as I say a word, I will scold you with the most vicious words in the world. Parents will point their noses at the animals in the street, but I haven't done anything unnatural or wronged them, so not all parents will love their children, at least not my parents. I don't know what fatherly love is until now. I thought I was numb for so many years, but I still feel sad. Because of living in such a family, I got depression. It's been more than two years, and I've seen a psychiatrist, and I'm getting better gradually, so I told myself that it doesn't matter if others are not good to you, I'll be good to myself, and the hard days will pass.