Hospital life was the beginning of my thinking about life and searching for the meaning of life...

Since my father was hospitalized for multiple complications from gastric perforation surgery, more than ten sleepless days and nights have passed unknowingly.

During this period, my fourth uncle and I lived and ate here (later my cousin’s school was on holiday and my fourth uncle went back), served my father’s daily care work, and took care of my father’s ability to eat liquid food every day after the surgery. . Since then, the hospital has become our "home".

In this "home", apart from paying close attention to my father's changes in physical condition, diet and medical care at all times without making any mistakes, the rest is unkempt and sloppy. Miles of slovenliness and sleepless nights.

At this time, it gave me a lot of mental support and added a sense of tranquility to my boring heart. It turns out that it can replace the daily dramas and surpass the colorful short-lived dramas. Here I can use words to express the various problems and dangers faced in this "home", as well as some of the joy and changes of my father's recovery. Writing down my thoughts in words heals my pain, confusion, anxiety, expectations for the unknown, various assumptions and defenses...

What is life, I suddenly feel that I have no way to describe it. It also seems that I have never had many deep concepts about the big topic of life. I only know that every day is ordinary except work, daily life, and so on, repeated day by day and year by year.

So what is life? Let me talk about my current thinking and experience: Literally, life refers to human survival, living, survival is the root, living is the basis, only by living can we lay a solid foundation for life. With life, there are dynamics along the way, just like posting to Moments every day. This is the dynamics of life. Only living people can have dynamics. They can record and publish the dynamics and widely different psychological dynamics of individuals, a group of people or the entire human society. Therefore, the word "life" includes words and sentences about the extension of life that are extremely rich in meaning. Life is the process that a person goes through from birth to death. During this time, we will experience joys and sorrows, joys and sorrows, ups and downs, pain, fear, ups and downs, life and death, etc.! Only in this way can it be considered life. When we know what life is, some people will definitely ask about the meaning of life. In fact, it is the description of the content of life when it exists, which is composed of various detailed plots that occur in a life. After understanding life and knowing the meaning of life, I will definitely want to ask questions about the meaning of life again.

Ask what is the meaning of life? "Everyone has his own unique mission. This mission is irreplaceable by others, and your life cannot be repeated. In this way, everyone's mission in life is specific, and the opportunities to complete these tasks are also specific. Because Every situation in life is a challenge for man and presents a problem for you to solve, so the question of the meaning of life is actually turned upside down. Man should not ask what the meaning of his life is, but he must. Acknowledge that life has raised a question for him. He must answer this question through his understanding of life. He can only take his own responsibility for life. Therefore, the meaning of life is that responsibility is the essence of human existence. ”——Frankl

Frankl asked people to find or recognize their own responsibilities and decide why they are responsible, what they are responsible for and who they are responsible for. Be like experiencing a second life, as if you have been reborn. Don't repeat the shortcomings that you think you have and are judged by the world, your relatives and friends, as you did in the past. You must avoid repeating the same mistakes and it is hopeless. If you make the same mistake again and no one will bear it for you! This not only guides people to assume that the present is the past, but also tells us that the past can be changed and repaired, and that things that should not be corrected need to be promptly remedied.

The moment his father came out of the operating room, it was his second life! Transferring from the intensive care unit to the general ward is a rebirth! Then it refreshes the meaning of life and the various plots given by life.

For example, people often say that the world is impermanent, but people are obsessed with permanence. So when this constant changes, suffering arises. When people are young, they have a healthy body. As they get older, the body Gradual aging is impermanence. Former relatives and friends gradually leave you as time goes by. This is suffering. Even a favorite thing, a favorite meal, and a beautiful trip are constantly mutating. Moving around, people cling to a certain reality and mistakenly think that it is always the reality. This is the root of suffering.

Also: (I have not studied Buddhism but I have been fortunate enough to read some) For example, the eight sufferings taught by Buddhism specifically summarize the eight kinds of suffering that accompany people from birth to death. Thus experiencing the meaning of life.

First of all, there is the suffering of birth, "Madam does not want to live, but has to live, madam does not want to die, but has to die." Although I have forgotten the time of entering the womb, all the pain begins with birth. , Buddhism teaches that life comes with destruction, and death comes with life. From the moment a person is born, he is destined to die, and he is also destined to experience all kinds of joy, anger, sorrow, and joy in this life. Therefore, life is suffering. Forget about the past, the world is impermanent, old age, death and sorrow all arise from birth.

Being old is always bitter. In life, youth is always short-lived. As we grow older, more and more unsatisfactory things happen, and our body gradually declines. Moreover, all this is irreversible, no matter how strong we were. How beautiful and handsome, as time goes by, all these will gradually disappear. This is suffering, and it is irreversible suffering.

Illness is suffering. In life, there are inevitable illnesses. From colds to cancer, they can bring all kinds of suffering to people, from physical pain to various inconveniences and even restrictions. Diet, restrictive lifestyle, and more seriously, various chronic diseases, even terminal illnesses, seriously affect everyone's life and survival. In order to be healthy and to continue living, a lot of money and energy are spent on treatment. In the end, it was myself who was sad.

Death is painful, and life is just like a fleeting moment. When you are truly dying, all kinds of reluctance and regrets come together. But at this time, you have no way to recover or regret everything, everything. Money, family members will all leave you, everything will go, and you will take nothing with you.

The first few are mainly for physical and material things, but the real suffering of people is actually the part of the heart, so there are other sufferings that follow.

Resentment will be bitter. In life, you will encounter countless unpleasant things. This resentment is not just about enemies, but also includes many kinds of dissatisfaction. When you encounter an opponent who is stronger than yourself, you encounter someone who is stronger than yourself. All the unsatisfactory things you encounter in life, whether you have good luck with your enemies or even have poor grades in your children, are all caused by causes and conditions, and no one can escape from them. This is suffering.

Love and separation are painful. In life, there will always be many beautiful memories and pleasant things. I recall the innocence of my youth, the harmony of my family, my loved ones, friends, and classmates. Time passes and slowly leaves you. From now on, there are only memories. No matter how you try to recover the past, it is impossible to truly leave time behind. The people we care about are also constantly changing, from grandparents, parents, to later lovers, Wife, husband, and subsequent children, as generations change, everyone comes alone and will go alone.

Not getting what you want is suffering. When people have hope, they will be disappointed. Those who have worked hard and struggled but cannot get it in the end must be the majority in life. This is suffering, not just The pain of not getting what you want is also the pain of constant unsatisfied desires.

The last five yin are blazing, which is said to be the root of suffering. The five yin are the five aggregates of "color, feeling, thinking, action and consciousness". All human persistent desires are derived from delusions and incorrect thoughts. Cognition, when people are obsessed with the changing world and hope to leave the best things in themselves, they don’t know that everything is changing. Everything is not owned by me and is used by me. We are just passers-by.

These are all general explanations of the meaning of life. Life, the meaning of life has been partially answered.

No matter how you quote classic masterpieces and classic literature (including Buddhism), it is nothing more than letting people understand life and living, so that ordinary people can also have the opportunity to understand the meaning of life and what they can have after experiencing a period of life. The whole process is what everyone often calls meeting. Of course, you can also live your whole life in a daze, depending on how high you understand and pursue the meaning of life.

As I write this, I seem to have seen the end of my life. Calm, calm, calm and accepting. My whole body feels relaxed, my heart rate is gentle, and my eyes are firm...

We can also find the meaning of life in the face of adversity. Because life is limited, but the meaning of life is infinite. Once a person has courage and hope for future life, the body's resistance will quickly become stronger. I have been comforting and reminding my sick father not to be afraid. At worst, we have to fight the disease for a long time, and the time will come when we can get rid of the pain! I encouraged my sick father to calm his mood and believe that he would get better!

He who knows what to live for survives. Only with the foundation of survival can we realize the meaning of life. If we don’t give up our efforts, we may even go bankrupt! I think this is my father’s insistence on the meaning of life! Because my father felt that we were eager to exchange our lives for his life time. I see my father's mental state getting better day by day, and he can sit on the bed for a while longer today. I am very happy to see such a strong father and his perseverance in willpower. This is what I want my life to mean!

I hope that the people I love can be healthy and safe, I hope that my father will be disease-free and spend his old age in peace; I hope that my brothers and sisters can have a complete and happy life and realize the infinite value of the meaning of life; But my own life should be like this too. I hope that my future life can also be: what my heart thinks, what I wish for.

? (Just read it as a diary...)