An inspirational article about the word dream.

I want to publish a book of my own before the age of 30, which was my dream when I was 20. I want my 40-year-old life not to be confused.

Now I am writing at the night of MINUS one degree, rubbing my hands for a while and tapping on the keyboard for a while. /kloc-I bought a computer with a scholarship on 0/8. Unplanned books are disrupting my 24-year-old schedule, and there is almost nothing I can do. At the age of 22, I became a high school math teacher.

I have imagined myself sitting in a coffee shop writing a manuscript in a trench coat and scarf countless times. I should choose a window seat and let the warm sunshine shine on my face. I looked up at the sky at 45 degrees and watched the people passing by in a hurry outside the window. I lamented their lives and then stretched my waist lazily.

Back to reality, I am exhausted. I get up at 7 o'clock every morning at 3: 1 between the classroom, dormitory and canteen. Students only go to the evening self-study at night 1 1. In this nearly 16 hours, I always appear outside the classroom like a ghost from time to time. The school has moved to the suburbs, and the teachers' dormitory has not been built yet. The school has set aside some classrooms for teachers to live in, 12 students. People often play cards until late at night. I go to bed at 3 o'clock every night to fight snoring. I only go back to town twice a week. I have to look at the right time to get a ride, look at other people's faces and go back to the rented house. Besides sleeping, I am in a hurry.

My life has always been a mess, and I only have this little hobby of writing.

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The landlady is always nagging: "Your light is on night after night, wasting electricity." "Although I don't live permanently, if I renew my lease, I have to add some prices."

Parents and adults jointly urged desperately, "No matter how busy you are, you should hurry to find someone. After all, you have been working for three years. " "I heard that a teacher working in a normal school couldn't get a wife in his 40 s, and his computer was stolen, so he just sat there crying."

Little friends who play together, colleagues who work together, and old friends who are completely strangers, keep drying the baby's wedding photos for fear that you won't see them, and personally send text messages to tell you that he or she is married and has children, which is somewhat confusing.

Fang Jie is getting married, too. I was in the same school with him in high school, in the same class in college and in the same unit after work. He used to be the lead singer of the band, and I wrote lyrics for his songs, which set each other off. Once a good friend and confidant, he was scattered all over the world, and only he stayed. He said he would write a song for the students when they were in the third year of high school, or he wanted me to write lyrics. He changed lanes in the middle, asshole.

But even if I have nothing, I still have a dream. It's just that I'm embarrassed to say it. I'm afraid people will say that you don't have nothing, but you are still sick.

I think, no matter how randomly selected, ten out of every ten people are inferior, eight or nine of them are narcissistic, and only one or two tend to love themselves. When people can't satisfy the status quo, or their wishes can't be realized, inferiority complex will easily break out. I often doubt myself, too. I'm afraid I'll keep talking. Even "let her heart share everything with us bit by bit" is just "as if she were telling us the pain of her life"

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In class the other day, I wore a brown-red dress and my classmates booed me. I said, "I obviously live by strength, but I am reduced to winning your applause by a dress." They laughed.

I went on to say, "It's a good thing I'm not bald and I don't have a beer belly, otherwise I can't control this dress." I used to feel a little embarrassed to hold my fingers up for a cup of coffee. Now you're forcing me to speak loudly. As soon as you make any small moves, I will run towards you, you grinding little monster. "

I am full of nonsense, and they are laughing their heads off. How can they understand the taste?

In this bizarre world, no one can live a smooth life. But I always believe that those who have experienced all kinds of disasters and tasted all kinds of tastes will be more lively and clean after walking through Pinghu misty rain and years of mountains and rivers. Time is always a bystander, and all the processes and results need to be borne by yourself.

Lin said, "it seems that everything has a deadline, and love and friendship are increasing." Process, frustration, time, reality, anything that makes it overdue. You heard the depressed crying and understood the change of mood and mood. You are so sorry, so helpless. "

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So, will the dream expire?

I used to toss and turn, but after all, I couldn't write well or publish a book, so I lied to myself that I was unprofessional and my roots were unhealthy. Maybe when there is a chance, I don't have the energy to create, and I can't stay up late like I did in college for a few years. The old monk said that he would see the mountains eventually, but did he really experience it? Why not leave while you are young and take a good look at the world without attachments? If you can't hold back your urine, you will think that you were born without joining the WTO. Others' insipidity is bitter, and your own insipidity is laziness, fear, love for comfort and lack of enterprising spirit.

From the shyness of getting on the podium for the first time to the calm response of every class now, from the paranoia of competing for the first place to not being so obsessed with the result. In just three years, I walked faster than anyone else, as if I had rehearsed the life I had to experience for 30 years: in a bad class that no one wanted to take over, I brought out a good ordinary class; The school thinks this guy is not bad, and it is risky to let him try the fast class, so the last fast class has always been the first in the fast class.

Later, the teacher of "Rocket Class" went out to work for me for a month. The teacher of this class has been teaching for a long time. Others said, "Even if some people struggle for 20 years, they will never get into the classroom of this class." I don't think so, because I really don't want to delve into math problems, go bald so soon, and accept such cruel facts. Even if I struggle for 20 years, my life is the highest.

Zhou Ding, a lecturer at Sichuan University, "Tell the truth after drinking"-"The person who believes that a good course is more important than a good paper died tonight." Zhou Ding always thought that the most important job of teachers was to give good lessons, but now teaching seems to be his sideline, which made him very disappointed. His words almost hit the drawbacks of all walks of life at present, such as teachers, doctors and craftsmen from all walks of life. Take the doctor as an example. In an industry whose evaluation focuses on foreign languages and scientific research, how can anyone be willing to show people a lifelong cold in the clinic?

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If these three years are a journey, let me go back to the starting point.

In the third year of high school, my roommate and I were preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination. We dare not ask our family for registration fees and living expenses, nor dare we show them to our family, and we don't want to work in a hurry. I didn't come home during the summer vacation, and my parents thought I was working as a summer job. As a matter of fact, I am already short of money. I didn't like studying but got a scholarship for utility, but it didn't last long. Later, I secretly started cooking with my roommate in the dormitory. I didn't eat fruit in March, so I don't know the taste of meat. In the first few days, I lied to each other that mustard tuber was delicious, but I couldn't eat it in less than a week. After that, improve the food, eat shredded potatoes with green peppers or scrambled eggs with tomatoes every day, and occasionally add Laoganma. Sometimes I'm afraid that I don't have enough food, so I deliberately cook salty food. If you can't eat, rinse it with a glass of water.

Less than three months before the postgraduate entrance examination, a publishing house suddenly contacted me and said that some of my articles had great publishing potential and wanted to talk to me about cooperation. I also don't have a dubious heart to restrain teenagers' restlessness. I decided to write a manuscript while reviewing for the postgraduate entrance examination. I was so angry that I chose to trust them first. I borrowed a sum of money everywhere, together with the story of the mathematician that I deleted in anger.

During the period before the postgraduate entrance examination, I was in a poor state. I have no patience to learn English writing any more. I can use the advanced word "incorrect" instead of "different", and I didn't enter the examination room after typing the admission ticket.

Then, I prepared the selection exam, which was an emergency, because I thought it could be done easily. As an outstanding university graduate majoring in mathematics and applied mathematics, he won the first prize in the national mathematical modeling competition, and the quantitative relationship, judgment and reasoning, and data analysis are as easy as a piece of cake; I usually read a lot and have a wide range of knowledge. Common sense judgment, speech understanding and expression are certainly not problems; As for writing Theology well, it's like looking for something.

After the exam, I was so humiliated that my face turned blue. The better I imagine, the worse I feel. The gloom of frustration lingered until I carefully studied for the exam, and my thin body was crushed into a piece of paper by the people who squeezed my position.

Job hunting is like a scourge, like going to the battlefield and facing unpredictable life or death. When you leave the battlefield, you look like a failed soldier, but you don't know how to be baptized, just like a war scene entangled in a nightmare. For many people, the lofty ideals of solving world hunger and finding a cure for cancer have taken a back seat, and being able to support themselves and repay their mortgages has become the most concerned issue. As for me, I am no longer that confident literary youth.

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I was forced to take the teacher's exam. Although I never thought about being a teacher, I even looked down upon it. However, the difficulty of testing teachers has seriously abused me several times.

I registered 9 times, lost 5 times in the written test, entered the interview 4 times, and the interview was ruthlessly brushed 3 times until the last high score. The penultimate time I was the first person to be crossed out of the admission line, and the gap was 0.0 1. I felt like crying after reading the results of the publicity that day. When crossing the overpass, a begging grandmother walked in front of me, and I gave her the last 100 yuan.

I have been asking myself, how many times can a person's dream be hit? I am dreaming. Why is it so difficult to find a job? Back to the dormitory, I lay in bed, staying up all day and all night, aching all over, like those brave people who exhausted all their strength after winning a battle and collapsed.

But I can't fail, because I didn't win the battle. For a competitive person, failure is the best training. I always feel that when I am almost polished, I will fight back perfectly.

At the last interview, my father said it was really impossible. He went to do something. I have saved some money over the years and plan to take it out when I get married, but there is no way out in an emergency. This society is not afraid that you don't go through the back door, but that others will. I smiled and said to him, "What relationship can you find? You don't know as many people here as I do. " I don't know if my words hurt him. He lit a cigarette and kept sighing.

I comforted him: "Don't worry, it should be fine. It will be successful this time. "

I told myself, "I won't fail this time."

Later, I summed up the lessons of previous interview failures. Within two weeks after the written test results were announced, I wrote the contents of each lesson in the teaching materials involved in the interview for more than 30 times, revised them repeatedly against those excellent teaching designs, and even talked about which points could become jokes and burdens, all of which were clearly planned.

Sure enough, there are still fish escaping from the net in the palm of fate.

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In the third year of work, I didn't ask for a living, but now I have to pay for it. I finally want to publish a book, although it is not in my plan. I have been writing for three years. If I don't have time, even if I write a speech, it's an explanation for myself. Living alone for 3 years, being alone has made me see myself more clearly and understand what I need. I have never forgotten the goal I wanted to achieve when I was 30, even though I became a math teacher in the opposite direction.

Someone said, "When your goal is the north, how far can you go south?" However, I believe that if you keep going south, you can also reach the north. Before you see the "Desert Solitary Smoke", you can also enjoy the "Spring Breeze and Green Jiang Nanan". If a person can work hard for a simple dream for many years, and this dream has only one chance to be realized in his life, this opportunity will also fail because of many force majeure, but he is still firm, which is a great thing in itself.

In fact, each of us is not short of dreams, especially in this era when dreams are almost rotten. What we lack is the spirit of perseverance for our dreams, even a little so-called persistence is precious. And all this, maybe we all had it when we were young, but with the passage of time, we gradually stopped talking about it in the torrent of growth.

Not every dream can come true, but every dream deserves to be respected and admired. Not every dream can persist, but everyone who can persist is a winner in life. If you have too many dreams, simplify them and stick to one or two. Still have to believe in your dream, what if it comes true?

Only love and dreams can live up to it. If you spend most of your energy in the direction you value most, you will definitely live the life you want.

The light is shining ahead, even if it is difficult and dangerous, it will come one day.

How far is their 20 years old from their dreams? Those dreams that have been postponed indefinitely are still there. What if they come true?