Is there anything you've always wanted to say to your father, but you can't say it?

I seldom communicate with my father. Obviously, there are a lot of words, but there is always no chance to say them, and it is hard to say. Today, let me put those words I want to say but can't speak into words and stay here:

When I was young, you always had little time to accompany me, and almost all the time was spent on the construction site to make a living. During my school days, you never took part in such things as picking up and dropping off children and holding parent-teacher conferences. I can understand your hardships at that time, knowing that our family is thin and there are many children, and this family depends on you. Until I grew up, our father-daughter relationship was not close, even strangers. Every time I call my father, I feel very strange, and you always greet me politely. So, dad, I especially want you to be an ordinary and loving father, even though I know your life is hard. I especially want to change this situation, live a better life, make you proud, and make you a happy person, instead of an old cow who has been burying his head and moving forward forever.

When my mother was ill, my mother once told you in front of our children that if she is gone and you are still young, you can find another companion. Your affectionate and firm appearance at that time has always remained in my memory. Later, less than half a year later, you brought back an aunt, smiling and proud of the spring breeze, which has always remained in my memory. I thought the life I would face in the future was just loneliness, but later I found that only we stayed where we were, and you have started a new life. Maybe you don't care about other people's eyes, but I want to tell you that as a daughter, I always hope that my father will be happy and that you won't live so hard. Sometimes I think you are selfish, but every time I think that you are widowed in middle age and have to face the hardships of life, I really want to hug you and hope you have a good life.

Later, we all became families and had our own small families. We don't live well, but we are stable and happy. I always want to go home more often, buy you new clothes and shoes, and introduce everything new to you. But every time this temptation, it always makes me feel romantic. I can't understand your heart. I know your struggle and contradiction in reorganizing your family, but I also hope that we can be a simple father and daughter, chatting together and watching the children play together.

Sometimes I think, I have been separated from you for so long, and we have spent too little time together these years. I hope my father will be happy in his later years, and I hope we can all live well and live the life we want.