"There is no natural strong. A person can only be really strong when standing on the edge of a cliff. " Who wrote this sentence?

the experience of a Japanese deaf girl in Takeda

"Although it is not uncommon to see stories of people who are disabled but still live tenaciously, only those who have personally experienced it will understand the hardships. There is no natural strong person, and a person will only be really strong when standing on the edge of a cliff. " This is the prologue of "Struggle". Since its release in August last year, as of January this year, Struggle has sold 27, copies, making it one of the best-selling books in Japan this year. This autobiographical novel describes the author Takeda Ma Gong's bumpy 29-year life path. The Japanese woman who is less than 1.5 meters tall is mixed with the tall and stout American crowd. Her dashing posture and confident expression are so striking. This is Takeda's hemp bow. Her 29-year life has been like this. She will go forward bravely and never retreat. Being deaf and dumb means a lonely and silent world for a 3-year-old girl. Due to the side effects of the scarlet fever therapeutic agent, this bad luck came to Ma Gong's head. However, in her young heart, she still longed for joy and friends, so she refused to go to a school for the deaf. However, she didn't get what she wanted. From kindergarten to high school, she was bullied. At that time, the hearing aid was huge and bulky, hanging on the chest like two big peaches. This makes the hemp bow an excellent object of ridicule, and the female students just laugh. The boys who play pranks always touch and say some obscene language, thinking that the deaf can't hear others anyway. Living under ridicule all day, Ma Gong became withdrawn and timid. She is always alone, and she swallows it silently when eating. But she still maintains a strong self-esteem. In order not to let more people see her poor appearance, she often hides in the bathroom to eat. She can't answer questions in class, and no teacher is willing to answer her questions. She can't go to physical education class, and she can't play her favorite vault game. At one time, Ma Gong was really confused, unable to find the meaning of her own existence, and even thought of death. Children who suffer from hardships can always mature earlier. After entering high school, Ma Gong's thought began to change. She thought: If others only get angry and cry when bullying themselves, it is exactly what they want. It's better to laugh at it and let those bad guys fail. Since then, a smile has often appeared on Ma Gong's face, but the smile contains anger and tears, and the most tragic experience as a girl: at the age of 16, a strange man said that he would teach Ma Gong to practice vocalization, took her to the corner of the campus and raped her. "Japanese men are bad people. They are very dangerous." Ma Gong began to think, "If I fall in love one day, I must choose black men. They are regarded as inferior because of their different skin colors, and they should have many feelings with me." The 25-year-old Ma Gong wants to live in America more and more. At that time, she fell in love with a black man named Troy. Troy is a married man and is in the process of divorce mediation. Ma Gong was convinced of what he said, and he kept faxing until he returned to the United States, but it was still hard to stop the growing yearning. Therefore, Ma Gong resigned from her job in an advertising company. In order to save money for going to the United States as soon as possible, she resolutely became a waitress in an entertainment center. Soon, the deaf-mute waitress became famous in the entertainment industry, and all the guests called her "Leopard Girl". Various media have also paid attention to it and published many articles introducing her. In this way, in two years, Ma Gong saved 2 million yen (equivalent to 1.4 million yuan). Finally, she got her wish and set foot on the road to America. Regional Marriage Life However, when Ma Gong arrived in New Jersey excitedly, what she saw was that Troy, who she missed day and night, was still married and lived a quiet and peaceful life with his wife and two daughters. Only then did she suddenly realize that her feelings had been played. Ma Gong didn't want to go back to Japan and came to new york with a broken heart. I met Karlu, a young black man, in the hotel where I stayed. Karlu had a good impression on this small and white oriental woman and launched a crazy pursuit. Ma Gong, a stranger, felt lonely and helpless. Coupled with the trauma of his heart, he quickly fell into Karlu's arms. Not long after, they applied to the New York City Hall for marriage and became a formal couple. Ma Gong, who had many beautiful hopes for marriage, later found out that her husband was HIV-positive. Not only that, he is also a member of a violent group that sells drugs and kills people without blinking an eye. Karlu doesn't want to engage in any serious work at all, let alone any savings, so it is difficult to maintain family expenses. Helpless, Ma Gong had to return to his old job and work as a topless dancer in a bar to earn a living. However, she still loves her husband deeply and believes that he can turn over a new leaf one day. As long as he has the ability to bear it, Ma Gong will do it without complaint. However, Karlu has become sinful, and she is getting worse in the face of a weak and kind wife. Soon, the newly married life became a violent day with knives and sticks. "As long as you dare to run away from me, I will find you and tear you apart!" The husband threatened Ma Gong in this way, took out photos of his raped and murdered body and asked, "You don't want to be like this!" When Karlu met something unpleasant outside, he took it out on his wife when he got home, pinched her neck, scratched her wrist with a knife, or pointed a gun at her head. Many times, Ma Gong felt that she was on the verge of death, and her mental and physical torture had reached its limit. She tried to commit suicide, but failed, and was sent to a mental hospital by her neighbor, which was a moment of safety. With the help of doctors and staff, Ma Gong summoned up the courage to report her husband's cruelty. Karlu was arrested. For Ma Gong, Doraj, a 26-year-old black man, is simply the best gift from God. There is a high-class apartment in the block where Ma Gong works, and Doraj is the night guard there. Unlike Karlu, whose face is full of lotus flower and a look of terror, Doraj has a pair of gentle eyes, peaceful and humble. At his side, Ma Gong finally laughed heartily. Doraj works hard. Although the salary of the night guard is not high, it is only 3 dollars per week, but what makes Ma Gong happy is that her husband is an honest worker, and he will put every penny he earns home for his life. Every evening at 7 o'clock, no matter what happens, Ma Gong will definitely put down what he is doing to prepare dinner for his husband before attending work. Usually it's western style like steak and macaroni, and occasionally, a table of Japanese food is served. No matter what the hemp bow does, Doraj will gobble it up, and only Japanese natto has never been used to it. On one occasion, Ma Gong mischievously brought him natto sushi, and Doraj took a bite, screaming and blushing. Ma Gong proudly said, "Ha! It turns out that you black people will blush! " Perhaps this is the happiness that Ma Gong has been expecting for a long time. "Peace is the best." She always says this with emotion. Take the subway from Times Square in the center of new york, then transfer to a bus. It takes about 1 hour and 2 minutes to drive, and there is a tree-lined residential area. There are a large number of Chinese and Japanese living here, and signboards with Chinese characters are everywhere. Ma Gong and Doraj live in this block. It's just a simple apartment with a bedroom, a dining room and a kitchen in one place. Today, they are a family of three, and one-year-old Chengmei Angela is the apple of their eye. Perhaps he inherited the restless gene of hemp bow. When he was three months old, he had to eat milk every two or three hours. When he was nine months old, he could walk more than two meters by holding something. Someone said to Ma Gong, "Why don't you try to write a book about your tortuous life experience?" Yes! For a person who can't express it in words, writing the ups and downs in his heart is the best way to talk. Ma Gong decided to start writing, and the title is the most straightforward "Struggle". However, writing an autobiographical novel made Ma Gong hesitate again. Because when she was a waitress in an entertainment center in Japan, she was strongly opposed by her parents. Later, because the deeds were published by many media, the family often received boring harassing calls. Her parents broke up with her in a rage. Now, if you publish an autobiographical novel, you will definitely write many things that your parents don't want to know, which is undoubtedly another blow to the two old people. What should we do? Ma Gong decided to describe her true self, but she would first write a long letter to her parents before the book was published to get their understanding. Just then, Chengmei was born. Coupled with the formal settlement of the divorce problem with Karlu, Ma Gong has been unable to find time to write a letter. Last August, The Struggle was published. "Mom and Dad will be very angry." She felt very uneasy in her heart. Not long after, I received a fax at home, which was from my mother! "We saw your book, as if also saw you live a strong life in new york. Chengmei is our eldest granddaughter. I hope she can grow up healthily. Ma Gong, who is your stubborn character like? We are proud of you and wish you well. Everything is fine in my hometown, so don't worry. " No matter how hard it was, Ma Gong never cried, but after reading the fax, she cried. She finally got the understanding of her parents. Later, Ma Gong said: "In fact, my parents have always understood me, but I didn't understand their painstaking efforts. This is what I gradually understood in the days when I was raised as a mother. " Up to now, the memory of childhood is still vivid in Ma Gong's mind. I remember my mother was very strict with her when she just started practicing sign language at the age of five or six. The young hemp bow always feels wronged and is often taught by his mother to cry. But at this time, she will find her mother secretly crying. That's because she still can't understand all this, and she always hates her mother for being too cruel. Now Ma Gong finally understands that if she can't master sign language well, it will be difficult for her to communicate with others and she will live in a lonely and narrow world all her life. Now, she can work, have love and raise her offspring, which should be said to be given by her mother. Ma Gong's heart is full of gratitude. At the end of "Struggle", she wrote: "I thank all the people who have given me love, and I also thank myself for fighting my fate for 29 years. Because, it is in this struggle that I learned to experience love, and I also learned to give love to the people around me without reservation, my parents, husbands, children and even more people. "