So suddenly, I fell in love with Barbie.

Eleven years ago, I first heard about Barbie dolls when I was a freshman in college.

A roommate often talks about her little niece. It is said that this three-year-old girl is a Barbie fan and wants to buy a new Barbie every time she goes shopping. Roommate sighed with emotion: "A Barbie doll is cheaper 100 yuan, but it is several hundred yuan more expensive. My sister spent thousands of dollars to buy her Barbie dolls. "

At that time, more than 100 yuan was my food for half a month. So the word "Barbie" is equivalent to a memory engraved with "expensive". So much so that I went to search for information about Barbie dolls, but I never found it tempting to see beautiful girl soldiers and plastic figures wearing all kinds of beautiful clothes. I can't understand why so many little girls are so obsessed with Barbie dolls, let alone the mentality that parents are willing to spend a lot of money to buy Barbie dolls for their daughters.

When I was a child, I liked dolls that could blink very much. My neighbor's sister has a doll like this. Every day, she took pains to show off her doll in front of me. She showed the doll's big blue eyes and the long eyelashes exposed when she closed her eyes after lying down. I watched eagerly. I dream of holding that doll, and I want to know what it's like to hold such a beautiful doll in my arms.

But my neighbor's sister won't be reluctant, because I've never seen her put down her doll or let anyone hug her. So I can only envy eagerly, and my heart is going crazy with jealousy.

But I dare not ask my mother for a doll, because our family can't afford it. In my childhood memory, the toys my parents bought me were only an inflatable plastic airplane model and a frog that jumped when winding. And more toys belong to me, which are homemade earth toys without spending money, such as pistols made of wire, slingshots made of branches and wood blade made of wood. These are all tools for my cousins and me to play games.

I have little pocket money. I'm going to give all the lucky money I received during the New Year to my mother and save it to pay the tuition for next semester. I remember one year, my 5-year-old brother took the 10 yuan lucky money from my grandmother and went to the store to change two toy pistols, which was severely beaten by my mother. Because at that time, a strong laborer like Dad could earn 15 yuan in a day. 10 yuan is almost a lot of money. So our tuition and living expenses add up to 10 yuan and 15 yuan.

Therefore, a sensible person like me can only suppress my love for dolls so strongly that I once thought I didn't like these girls' toys.

When I arrived at the university, I suddenly had a desire for plush toys, and it was a strong desire.

At that time, I left home for the first time in my life, took the train for the first time, left the county town for the first time and went to the north for the first time. Originally, I was full of novelty and longing for the unknown world, but after I settled down smoothly, my heart suddenly ached.

When I sang "Green Flowers in the Army" during military training, suddenly my nose was sore and my throat was tight, and big tears danced freely with the north wind rustling.

Walking on the road, "I feel sad when I see rustling leaves" and "I feel sad when I see gurgling water". I want to cry inexplicably, but I have to look up at the sky at a 45-degree angle for fear that my roommate will see it and hold back my tears.

In my diary, I call myself "a Southern Yan flying north, lost in the cold northwest wind".

At that time, I was crazy about Chyi Chin's songs, especially the famous Wolf. Because it is so desolate and lonely, just like my mood.

Listening to my roommates talking about the love and warmth of my parents at home, thinking that I can't wait to escape, I decided to apply for this northern school, which is thousands of miles away from home. I was wet with tears again.

I want a plush toy. I long for the fuzzy touch and the warmth in my arms.

Finally, I bought a little white sheep at the price of 8 yuan at the stall in front of the water house. Since then, this little sheep has settled in my bed and stayed with me for four years, especially during the seven-day long holiday on May Day and National Day. My roommates have all gone home, and I am the only one who has to stay alone because it takes six days to go back and forth by train and I can't afford a ticket.

I graduated in the summer of 2009. On the day when they officially left school, the three roommates had gone their separate ways. I dragged my heavy luggage alone, set foot on the train and went back to the south to explore the unknown world, but because of too much luggage, the white lamb had to stay in the north. I know it will eventually be thrown into the trash can, but I can't bear to treat my ex-partner like this, so I have to put it on my empty bed.

Once separated, there is no possibility of seeing you again.

I came to Fuzhou, the provincial capital. Thanks to the help of my friend Rong Rong, I stayed at her house for half a month for free. After the work unit was determined, I found a shared house in an old community not far from the unit. The second landlord pulled a curtain in the living room and set up a small bed, which became my official foothold in Fuzhou. I paid 275 yuan a month in rent, excluding water, electricity and gas. Fortunately, my mother gave me 2000 yuan to settle down and spent the most difficult three-month internship with me.

At that time, I didn't feel that the conditions were difficult, but I was full of infinite enthusiasm for my new job and infinite yearning for my new life. After I got my internship salary in 700 yuan in January, although it was a problem to eat and rent a house, I chose a plush toy for myself at the price of 25 yuan at the stall of Student Street in Normal University: a yellow big-headed dog with its tongue sticking out and wearing striped clothes.

With the company of the big-headed dog, it seems that a person is not so lonely in a foreign land. Although it can't talk, it doesn't need dog food!

So on nights and weekends when no friends get together, I hold my puppy and make up Jin Yong's martial arts novels with my mobile phone. It's like a dream.

From then on, this MengMeng yellow-headed dog started the mode of permanent companionship, and I was forced to move again and again, marry and have children with me. Now, this dog has become my daughter's toy.

After that, there are more and more kinds of plush toys, but it turns out that lambs and puppies have an irreplaceable position in my heart. Thank you for your company and comfort in those years.

Because of the restriction of family material conditions, I don't have a pink princess dress or a pink doll, so I have never had a pink princess dream. Pink is my most disdainful color.

I've always liked cool colors, especially blue. Psychologists say that blue represents profundity, eternity, calmness, rationality, honesty and ruthlessness. I think we should add another one: melancholy. Yes, I like the faint melancholy temperament revealed by blue.

In the first two years of my daughter's life, the clothes and toys I bought for her were very pink and gentle, but now it seems that they are not even neutral. I didn't mean to, just because I like cool colors. In my opinion, cool colors have a little fresh beauty.

After my daughter can express herself, as a respectful mother, I always let her choose her own clothes, shoes and toys. Then a lot of pink things appeared in our family, because I found out that my daughter was born with pink control. She has a pink princess dream. She likes all red and pink things.

Not surprisingly, one day in the toy area of the supermarket, my daughter took a fancy to Barbie and refused to let go.

The first thing I saw was the price tag. Oh, it's too expensive! The price of the dolls made in China is less than a quarter of Barbie's. I picked up two and explored them carefully. I have to say, "you get what you pay for." There is not much difference between the material and the appearance of workmanship, but Barbie is so attractive in her hand. Barbie has a graceful figure, a quiet face and all kinds of beautiful clothes and jewelry. No wonder it is regarded as the favorite thing by little girls all over the world.

Finally, I didn't buy a Barbie doll for my daughter. I promised Barbie a birthday wish when she was four years old. But I bought her some princess dresses as compensation, that is, fluffy princess dresses with seven or eight layers of yarn. It used to be the skirt I longed for when I was a child. Children's Day was celebrated every year, but in the end my mother bought me the simplest and cheapest cloth skirt.

I found myself suddenly in love with Barbie dolls. I secretly went to the flagship store to observe and compare one by one. I saw the most expensive one, a limited edition wedding dress series, a single doll, and the price was 1999 yuan. I'm crazy about it. If I am not short of money, I will not hesitate to buy it back.

I found that I envy my daughter and her self-confidence, pride and calmness when she called herself big princess.

And buy those pink princess dresses, pink shoes and pink toys for my daughter, and look at her satisfied smile and be satisfied. In fact, have you ever compensated me for my desire to bury my heart?

Because, which girl has never hidden a princess dream in her heart?