When have you ever felt hollowed out?

People who may be too emotional will eventually have a bad life. Trust, attachment, nostalgia, minutes make you miserable. At that time, I felt inexplicably that my body was hollowed out. At that moment, it seemed that only an empty shell was left, and my spirit was broken. I didn't think about anything, and I didn't want to do anything. I just want to stay at that moment, because there are no more "distractions" in my mind. . .

We have nothing to say from the beginning to the end. In this period of change, I have given everything to bring our relationship closer and closer. I never thought that one day we would become "strangers". We also have conflicts and quarrels at ordinary times, but the more we quarrel, the closer we get. She said that even if I abandoned her one day, she would not give up on me and bring me back. After hearing this sentence, I feel particularly at ease. We will be good friends for life, because we have precious memories and experiences, which is enough. .

But the university separated us in different cities, saying it was far away, but our hearts were together. However, we haven't seen each other for three years. During this period, I gave up the opportunity to meet her several times because of something. I haven't seen her since she came to Taiyuan recently. She may be unhappy, but I thought she would understand me. I apologized to her more than once, but her words made me taste that feeling for the first time. She said she wouldn't meet. It's a simple sentence, but every word pokes into my heart like a knife. At that moment, I tasted the feeling that my body was hollowed out, as if I suddenly lost my memory and my mind was blank. I stayed there and woke up hating myself for hurting her and making her so disappointed. But why did she say that so easily? What was the previous agreement? This is a joke. .

I didn't reply to her afterwards. I just want to be quiet. . That's uncomfortable. I don't want to go through it again. I was really hurt that time. I dare not rely on others any more, for fear that people's hearts will change and promises will not be fulfilled, so that I only believe that only I can give myself a sense of security in this world.