I just came to work and I'm all thumbs.

As a nurse who has worked in clinic for half a year, I want to talk about my feelings.

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I still remember when I volunteered for the college entrance examination, and I was full of expectations for the future. At that time, for my future career, I should be a translator, a lawyer, or an urban white-collar worker, sitting in a high-rise building drinking coffee, typing on a computer keyboard and reading documents.

It will never be the medical profession. It turned out to be counterproductive. I applied for the nursing major. How can I put it? At first, I didn't know what this major was for. After the real contact, the biggest feeling in my heart is that there are so many books, the content can't be finished, and the experimental operation can't be finished.

A girl must dissect a white rabbit, a toad and a mouse.

I still remember the first time I took venous blood from the rabbit ear and carefully cut a knife at the rabbit ear. There's not much blood, and it's scabbed. Seeing this, the teacher directly picked up the tool knife and cut the rabbit's ear twice. The rabbit's big ears suddenly turned red, which scared me.

At that time, I thought the teacher was cruel. In fact, I wanted to be as crisp and neat as him. Sophomore students began to learn the basis of nursing, and the knowledge points were subdivided, which was closely related to clinical practice. All kinds of nursing operation exams seem simple, but they need patience and careful efforts.

It is also at this time that I think the theory and practice of this major is 1: 1, which is an even number.

But when I really came into contact with the clinic, I found that specialized courses drowned me in the ocean of knowledge. I studied hard at school and learned a lot of theoretical knowledge. When I really went to clinical practice, I found that my study was poor and theory could not guide practice well.

When I first became an intern,

2065438+2008, with longing and joy, I can finally go to the hospital I have been longing for-Sir Run Run Run Shaw Hospital.

The first department of internship is the emergency department. I worked in the emergency room two days ago, and I was rescued on the first day. I am familiar with the environment and the place where things are placed. Just turned around, came a patient with acute severe pancreatitis.

Suddenly, the teachers rushed to the resuscitation room quickly and orderly, focusing on ECG monitoring, oxygen inhalation, venous access, blood drawing, electrocardiogram and so on. Every operation was coordinated neatly and rhythmically, and I was like an outsider at that time, having no idea what to do.

I can only stand there and watch.

Look at the teachers again. Calm, keep a good attitude and do what you should do is the tacit understanding of cooperation between colleagues. For several moments, I especially wanted to rush to help, but then I thought, what can I do? What should I do?

My mind is blank, and I am afraid that my little actions will implicate the teachers. It is also in these moments of hesitation that I deeply realized my smallness in front of life. No matter what I think or experience, there is nothing I can do.

During my internship in the emergency department for one month, I often felt anxious and stressed. From the rescue room to the pre-examination desk to the infusion room and observation room, I learned a lot of nursing operations, and the teacher also told me a lot of theories, which were expanded on the basis of my understanding.

Always hesitant and cautious at first, but especially want to operate. I know that practice is very important for nurses. Practice makes perfect if you dare to try and keep trying.

At that time, I remember that my first nursing operation was venous blood collection. At that time, I was very afraid of this operation, worried that the vein selection was not good, and my poor performance made the patient dissatisfied, but I made a lot of progress.

Facts have proved that you don't have to worry too much about things you haven't touched before.

Before the actual operation, the teacher explained the operation steps and precautions to me in detail, and showed me the steps carefully and patiently during the first few patients' blood drawing, and then encouraged me to draw blood for the patients.

Resist the inner fear, from checking the doctor's advice, printing labels and labeling to preparing oneself, materials and environment, explain the purpose of blood drawing to patients, and gain their understanding and cooperation.

Then I found the vein, disinfected it, punctured it and pulled out the needle. After a series of procedures, I was a little clumsy, but the teacher always affirmed me and the patient didn't say anything bad.

Later, every patient, I independently completed the operation of venous blood collection, and the teacher looked at me silently. After more than a dozen patients came down, I gradually became familiar with the operation process and became clear. Compared with the initial anxiety and worry, the gap in my heart is not so big, but a slow sense of accomplishment.

However, not every patient successfully collected blood in this operation. I have three patients who failed to collect blood. I was scared, nervous and helpless at the moment when the needle went in and I didn't see the blood coming back. I'm afraid the patient will complain. What worries me is whether I will try a second operation. Helpless is why the puncture was not successful.

Finally, I apologized to the patient and tried again. If I fail the second time, I will go to the teacher. After every operation, the teacher always asks me to find the reason, whether it is successful or not, and then she supplements it.

Finally, after my internship in the emergency department, I wrote a five-and-a-half-page weekly diary to summarize what I learned in the emergency department. During this period, I experienced the rescue of four patients, two of whom were endotracheal intubation and cardiopulmonary resuscitation in the rescue room.

Every time I am rescued, I feel small and helpless, which makes me feel that I am not suitable to stay in the emergency department at every moment of helplessness. Now that I think about it, I have rich experience in the emergency department. Later, each department of internship has its own different growth, but it is based on the emergency department. Going once becomes deeper and more meaningful.

When I first started working,

The end of the internship officially ushered in a turning point in my life. On July 20 19, I started a new stage of my life in Zhejiang People's Hospital with a nervous mood and an unknown future.

I just want to work independently as soon as possible. I want to be better than others. I hope I can be so involved during my internship. Every time you go to an operation, there is a lot of pressure. I just want to succeed, but what if I can't do it well? Then every time I don't do well, I go back to cry after work.

I am not the only one. I believe that anyone who has just come out to work will have such a mentality.

Not only that, I am full of affection for the nursing industry, which is good, but it is easy to ignore the focus of work and forget things. I am about to get off work and my work is not finished.

But what I care about most is the poor operation, because since I worked, I have found that the profession of nurse has technical content. I have been operating, practicing and taking exams many times, and I have grown up in repeated work, which makes me calm, solid in theory and skilled in technology.

When I first started working, I often missed the needle. The more you want to improve your technology, the greater the pressure, the greater the pressure, and the worse your performance, forming a vicious circle.

I have thought about why, in fact, my state of mind accounts for a large part of the reason. During the internship, I always subconsciously rely on the teacher, and I often try to operate with a mentality. If I fail, I will go to the teacher. So when I face patients, I am always very happy and relaxed, without pressure, and I don't care so much about the results. In this case, it is easier to succeed.

Later, my college roommate and I went to our class teacher and told him about our work and wanted to know how to improve our operation skills.

The teacher said that she was in poor condition only once in clinical work and was not sure about her own operation. Every time after that, she was confident and calm. ? I believe it, after all, I became a head nurse after working for three years! She told me that no matter how busy and anxious you are, don't panic, and you must keep a good attitude.

Just like venipuncture, there are two results: failure and success.

Look for your most sure vein before puncture, instead of holding the mentality that I want to try. This is not easy to succeed, and it will also affect your mood and bring more negative effects.

Nursing work has a characteristic: the working hours are fixed, but the workload is not fixed.

Everyone's speed is different. You can't evaluate your work in the process of comparing with others. The key is that you have done everything you should, made no mistakes, and brought no inconvenience to others.

What if salt water delays one or two people? That doesn't prove that you can't. ? My roommate works in another hospital, and the department is a bit special. At first, she was often not confident in operation. Fortunately, the work pace of the department is not urgent, and the shift teacher will also guide her how to work more efficiently and grow faster. ? After a few months, she gradually understood that before venous blood collection or superficial vein indwelling, she must calm down and find her most sure vein. If she finds the right one, she will have an operation, which will have a high success rate and give her confidence. If you don't know, ask the teacher. Never bite the bullet. Wasting time is not good for the patient's blood vessels. ? Later, I tried this method at work. I didn't think about the result before I did it. I calmed down and found my most certain vein. I found it and operated it. It is very useful!

Even if it doesn't hit the nail on the head every time, the success rate has improved a lot. In case of failure, I won't be as sad as before, but constantly sum up experience and slowly improve myself!

Time flies. I have been working in the clinic for half a year. Originally, my Chinese New Year holiday was seven days, which sounded very satisfactory. Because the Spring Festival holiday in novel coronavirus was extended, the head nurse rescheduled the day before I returned to Hangzhou, so I took another three days off. ?

After resting for more than ten days, I am not familiar with the process, and I have to hesitate for a few seconds to do anything. I feel like I am going to screw up when doing invasive surgery.

A new patient came this afternoon, and I was in charge of receiving her. After measuring vital signs, collecting medical history, completing nursing records and preaching various precautions, I asked her to see a doctor in the doctor's office.

After a while, the doctor ordered an emergency operation. Under the guidance of the teacher, open venous access, draw blood, use drugs, and make preoperative preparations. According to the doctor's advice, the patient was anxious because of excessive bleeding, and saw that the two doctors in charge of the operation were younger. I couldn't help worrying and kept asking me, "Is it serious?" "Why do you suddenly need surgery?" "Is it okay for a young doctor?" Questions like this.

While I was seriously looking for intravenous injection, I patiently answered the patient's questions. At this time, I was at a loss. Suddenly I said, "Are you an intern nurse?"

I was a little unconvinced and showed my work permit directly, which was a little sad. ? "Our medical staff are still very confident in their own work. Everyone grows up bit by bit. In order to treat and care for patients better, it is enough to receive a thank you, even if it is just a word. No matter how experienced doctors and nurses are, they are not gods, and we will also have the pressure to worry about patients. You see young doctors, but being able to enter this hospital means they can. A person's Excellence lies not in his age, but in his ability, hard work, achievements, and many other aspects that I have not mentioned. " ?

"Many people will go through this stage of youth. There are too many things to learn and many questions and negatives to accept. If you try to trust them once, you will know if their technology will work? " I spoke my mind while looking for blood vessels. ? The patient stopped talking, but she chose a vein to puncture me. She feels straight and obvious, but in fact she is thin and collapsed.

She hasn't eaten all day, and she is still bleeding. Even after a long period of pressure band, her blood vessels are still not full. And the time of pressing the pulse band is also regular. I can't wait for a long time to fill the vein by pressing the pulse band. ? I respected the patient's request and punctured the vein of her choice. In fact, I know in my heart that this will be a failure. I evaluated the patient's condition myself and found the patient's blood vessels. Although I didn't find my most sure blood vessel, I confirmed that I didn't have much confidence in the blood vessel chosen by the patient. ?

From the beginning of my work, I have been groping for a suitable working method. When I have a clue, I think this is the next step.

In fact, this is just the beginning. In the actual situation, it is necessary to combine the patient's thoughts, the patient's physical condition and other factors. What we have to do is to try, challenge and accumulate experience in various situations with the most basic methods.

? A teacher once said to me, "What we do is the work of conscience, and we are dealing with life every day. Even if you accumulate experience in the clinic all the year round, no one dares to say that you can easily cope with all kinds of emergencies, and even the more you do, the more flustered you are. " ? Because when I was young, there were many sayings that "newborn calves are not afraid of tigers". Facing the unknown and novelty, I have always wanted to explore. Slowly, I found that life is really fragile. Maybe I never woke up in my sleep, maybe I fainted in the toilet and never woke up, maybe I ate allergic food by mistake and didn't have time to save it. ? Life is a race against time, but there is too much time to do nothing! If you are lucky about what you have experienced, it is only the beginning. In clinical work, choosing persistence is a long way! ? I hope I can make a little progress every day in clinical work, improve myself in every attempt and challenge, and think in every review.

Facing the epidemic, I want to be a brave and responsible medical staff.

The Spring Festival in 2020 will be very different. Novel coronavirus suddenly attacked, broke out in spots, and was in full swing. People all over the country celebrate the Spring Festival with anxiety and anxiety.

In the past, when people in China celebrated the New Year, family reunion, companionship with friends and family visits were very lively. Walking around was a joy and peace. ? However, large-scale mobility and large-scale aggregation are likely to increase the probability of disease transmission. We don't know whether everyone passing by is safe or not, nor who they have been in contact with.

At first, friends were forwarding news such as wearing masks, washing hands frequently, walking around and not spreading rumors, but many people still didn't know the specific situation of the epidemic.

Take my hometown of Shanxi rural area as an example. Go home on the 28th of the twelfth lunar month. Before that, my parents had heard the news. When chatting, the most vivid explanation is "just like SARS". ? Advise them to wash their hands frequently, work and rest regularly, keep warm, wear masks, and don't wander around, and so on, seemingly simple things, which actually made me cry.

Compared with SARS in 2003, now is the information age, with faster information dissemination, better medical technology and health conditions, and more talents, but the epidemic situation is not lighter than then.

Perhaps the "SARS incident" left a deep impression on parents, so that no matter what they face now, they all believe that everything will be fine. ?

I remember the year of SARS, when I was in the first grade. Every day, the air in the classroom is disinfected with vinegar. Every student must bring his own cup. The school will cook soup and medicine in the morning and afternoon, and everyone has a share. The owner is responsible for pouring it into his own cup. ? Until now, I can still remember the taste of the soup, bitter and slightly sweet, with a lingering fragrance on my lips and teeth. Suddenly one day, the teacher called me outside the classroom and told me not to come in the afternoon. My mother is in hospital. It may be atypical pneumonia. For everyone's safety, I will stay at home.

At that time, I went home obediently, and grandma was not convinced. I am a healthy little girl, how can I be unsafe? In fact, my mother suffers from chronic gastritis, which leads to a fever. Patients with fever must be isolated, so my mother was hospitalized for a few days. After everyone knew about it, there was a lot of discussion, saying that my mother might have SARS. ?

Fortunately, the whole family was safe, and China overcame the disease. But every time I think about it, my heart is always scared. I'm afraid that my closest relatives will leave, not only me, but my mother is always angry and helpless every time she talks about it.

Today, the epidemic continues. The research and development of confirmed cases, deaths, medical materials and epidemic drugs have all become a matter of constant concern. At first, I thought it would be spring soon, but the reality is not optimistic. ? The government organized online diagnosis, sent medical staff from all over the country to support Wuhan, many caring people donated money to Wuhan, and a new hospital was built in Wuhan. Travel has been restricted everywhere, and everyone consciously stays at home to protect themselves and others, and even contributes to the motherland.

As a nurse, although I didn't struggle clinically during the Spring Festival, I was very concerned about the situation there. Thousands of miles away, I saw that the hospital sent retrograde people and provided medical supplies. The hospital leaders and middle-level cadres all went to work, and the number of people on duty increased during the New Year. ?

On the 29 th, 30 th and the first three days of the first day, the circle of friends is a blessing to the retrograde. Senior sisters who have worked for one or two years take the initiative to sign up to support the front line; Even my roommate is willing to take a step forward even if he works for half a year; My university teachers, intern teachers and colleagues constantly encourage their students and comrades in the circle of friends.

Now back to clinical work, I will work harder, always protect myself, wash my hands frequently, wear a mask and hat, and keep my distance from others at work.

Taking care of yourself is the premise of serious work, abiding by the policies of the hospital, and actively participating in many trainings on COVID-19 organized by the hospital. ? Rational use of medical materials, cooperation with colleagues, concern about patients' condition, appease patients' psychology and protect clinical work.

Although there is no struggle in the front line, if you need me, stand by and watch at any time! In the face of the epidemic, I consciously and have the responsibility to stand up!

The epidemic is ruthless, and no medical staff will choose to give up the opportunity to save others' lives. But when they see someone hiding their illness, or not telling them whether they have been to Wuhan or whether they have been in contact with suspected people, I know that they don't fully trust the medical staff, and they are also afraid that they will be isolated and not believed by others. ? Actually, it's not. Early detection can help you receive treatment earlier and better. It is to help yourself and help everyone and the country overcome the epidemic as soon as possible. ? In the face of the epidemic, every medical staff and I are brave and full of responsibility. Please believe us! Let us cheer for Wuhan and China with love, confidence and responsibility!