Talk about the bleak New Year's Day

1. The first time I cried because you weren't there, the first time I laughed because I met you, and the first time I laughed because I couldn't be with you.

2. The wound is a shame given by others and an illusion that you persist in …

The most regrettable thing in life is to give up what you shouldn't give up easily and stick to what you shouldn't stick to. ...

I finally realized how helpless and involuntary it is to like someone.

Know what I mean, sympathize with you, you must ask for it.

6. If my future with you is doomed to end like this, can you let me not meet you in the first place?

Although the last sentence is a bit long, I think it is more appropriate.