The wound has healed, and the scar is still talking.

We always say the most irrational things when we are most impulsive, and calm down and regret it. Tomorrow is the second day of the first month, but I will leave my family and go back to the city alone. I don't want to face such a mess with my family on such a special day.

? Cleaning the house, learning to cook with my father, sitting in the yard in the sun, eating and chatting with my family are all what I imagined, but everything was shattered by my sudden emotions. What kind of mood is this? I always thought that I was hiding the complex emotions of being rejected, inferior and difficult to integrate, but this time I still hurt my closest family. I feel sad and regretful, but I still protect myself like a hedgehog. Because I know that even if I am forgiven, that scar will always be there.

? At this moment, the mood really responded to the lyrics: I regret it, I am so sad, I want to start over, okay?

? Forget it, stop dreaming and face it when it happens. This year, I will learn to accept my imperfect self, accept myself, love myself, and make my heart stronger little by little. Only in this way can we protect ourselves from harm and others.