Awkward sentence

I can't wait to find an ant hole (or a crack in the ground), which is embarrassing;

Still hiding half of her face behind her guitar from us, too shy to look;

I can't wait to disappear into this world at once;

Standing is not, sitting is not, walking is not, I don't know when to stop, my hands are not in my pocket, nor behind my back, and I am at a loss.

I didn't know what to do when I first met you;

The deer in my heart is bumping and plopping, and many words are awkward in my mouth. Want to get close but dare not go forward.