Wandering singer Ah Chen

Ah Chen is a natural singer. His singing is not melodious, but it is powerful. So he often said that he wanted to be a folk singer in the future. According to Ah Chen’s knowledge of the deeds of several folk singers, he said that the first step for folk singers is to run away from home. Ah Chen ran away from home twice, both in high school. The first time was because his grades fell out of the top ten in the class. His mother beat Ah Chen severely in the rented house at school and told him to go to the school to find a teacher. The boy's pride made Ah Chen stop his mother and said, "Just hit me and don't go to the teacher." His mother pushed Ah Chen away and insisted on going to the teacher. Then Ah Chen threatened, "If you dare to go to the teacher, I will run away from home." His mother still ignored Ah Chen. Ah Chen couldn't bear it anymore. He left the rental house angrily, ran to the street, and walked south along the street. But then Achen figured that the class time was almost here, so he went back to class. When he arrived at the classroom door, he saw his mother talking to the class teacher. talk.

The second time Ah Chen ran away from home was when he was desperate for the world. At that time, his parents often quarreled and would blame him for their anger. There were also several children in the school. The gangster was pestering him. He felt that he could no longer stay at home or at school, so he used a classmate's mobile phone to send his father a text message like this: "Mom and Dad, I don't want to go to school anymore. I want to run away from home. Before, I don't have the ability to cut off the flesh and return it to my mother. I've calculated my expenses in the past few years and the interest that will be expected in the future. I will pay you back five hundred thousand in the future, and then we will take care of yourselves. Myself." Ah Chen was completely disappointed when he sent this text message. Then this time he continued walking south along the street. He was very confused. He had not prepared anything yet and seemed to be living on his own. He was thinking about how to support himself. When he walked out of the populated area and walked to the power station, he suddenly had the idea of ????suicide. He carefully recalled his life in the past few years and tried hard to find the reason why he did not commit suicide. In the past few years, he had failed in puppy love. His family suffered from domestic violence every day. In school, because he sang well, several gangsters pestered him every day, and his grades were average. The more Ah Chen thought about it, the more desperate he became. He took a step towards the power station, and then a taxi stopped behind him. Ah Chen's sister came down with a big belly. She asked Ah Chen, "What do you want to do?" "I don't want to live anymore, don't worry about it." "Me." Ah Chen's sister tried hard to pull Ah Chen and said, "How dare you try to do something stupid today?" "It's useless for you to hold me. There's a car here. I'll get out of here." "You go ahead, you." If you go, I will go too. You have to remember that I am two people." Ah Chen was stunned for a moment. He looked at his sister's big belly and felt that this was his personal grudge. He couldn't involve his little nephew, so he had to go with his sister. Got in the car and went back. After returning home, Ah Chen's father kept teasing Ah Chen with 500,000 yuan. Since Achen failed to commit suicide, he couldn't get angry and could only smile awkwardly.

Ah Chen often told me that he read too many idle books when he was young, so he was always pretentious. During the entire three years of high school, he never studied hard. He always wanted to do something shocking and impress his parents. He founded F4 at that time, and then the four of them took the time to set up a street stall in the square next to the school. He said that his original idea was to form a band, but because the hardware was not good, they gave up and turned to other things, such as creating forums, websites, micro-films, etc. After listening to this, I couldn't help but marvel at the richness of his high school life. He returned to "Fart." He couldn't afford to make a website, and he only made one short film with AV quality in the micro-movies. None of them lasted more than three days. He spent the entire high school in such a tangled and depressed way, busy but accomplishing nothing, feeling very empty. Ah Chen had been resisting studying at that time because he only wanted to be a folk singer in the future. He thought he was destined to drop out of school, but he was not sure whether he would be in high school or college. Later, he heard that there were many folk singers in Yunnan, so he thought he would take the exam there first. As a result, he ended up staying in Henan Province. His original plan was to apply for the Chinese Department, but he ended up studying agriculture instead. Because Ah Chen’s father’s boss was from agriculture, he changed Ah Chen’s choice. He began to feel that fate was cruel.

Regarding college, Ah Chen told me that he drank fake wine when he was young and slept through his entire youth. Ah Chen's first day at college was amazing. They were in military training at that time. During the break, Ah Chen sang a song titled "I Want to Find a Wife."

So he became the squad leader inexplicably. He was very excited at the beginning because his class teacher in high school said that the people who can become monitors in college are very powerful. Ah Chen then felt that he was very powerful. I am constantly busy organizing various activities and filling out various forms every day. I feel that my days are quite fulfilling. Ah Chen lived in a six-person dormitory, but only five people lived there. Ah Chen's lower bunk room was occupied by a top student named Xiao Cai. He got the first place in admission and received a scholarship of 3,000 yuan. However, when he found out that his scholarship was actually just a bursary with a different name, he shouted He said "Damn it." His cousin is a university professor at Ah Chen University, and his dream is to be like his cousin. On the lower bunk opposite Achen is a thin and dark little man named Xiao Yan. He is addicted to games all day long and cannot extricate himself. He said that he wants to play professionally and live broadcast in the future. He hangs up on DNF every day and then plays League of Legends. Although he said this, his League of Legends couldn't even beat Ah Chen. How to describe it? It’s the Ten Thousand Years Bronze Five, a peerless pit. Ah Chen said that one time he saw Xiao Yan scolding someone. Ah Chen felt that he couldn't stand it anymore, so he told Xiao Yan to ask him for the address of the person who was scolding him. So Xiao Yan got another trick. Every time he scolded someone, he asked for their address, pretending to be a gangster boss, and bluffing the other person. The man in the shop opposite Ah Chen is a brother who loves cycling. He once rode from school to Beijing.

Ah Chen spent a busy year like this. During the summer vacation a year later, he had a party with his former high school brothers and learned one thing about Lin Hui. When Ah Chen was in high school, he liked a girl named Lin Hui, but after many confessions, he failed. Originally, he was not going to give up, but when he confessed for the last time, Lin Hui's performance scared Ah Chen. He gave up the idea of ??confessing. At that time, he sang a song "Just Once" for Lin Hui at the New Year's Day party. After Lin Hui listened quietly, he called Ah Chen out and took Ah Chen into the school's grove. Just when Ah Chen regretted When she didn't buy condoms, Lin Hui knelt down to Ah Chen and begged Ah Chen not to pester him again. Ah Chen was stunned for a moment, and then knelt down to Lin Hui and said she would never pester him again. . At this high school reunion, Achen's brother told him that Lin Hui had had an abortion. Achen's heart sank and he asked his brother to continue. Lin Hui had a boyfriend when she was in the second grade of junior high school. Then the boy in the third grade of junior high school changed his mind. Lin Hui was very sad. Later, when she was in the first year of high school, the boy came back to find Lin Hui and coaxed Lin Hui into bed with sweet words. Lin Hui became pregnant. When Lin Hui's mother found out, she beat Lin Hui and then went to find the boy. But it was too difficult. The boy's family were all members of the underworld in the county. Lin Hui's mother could only be angry with the mute, and Lin Hui suffered the consequences of being mute. Later, Lin Hui became discouraged about love and was afraid of sweet-talking boys. By the way, Lin Hui's parents divorced a long time ago, and she has always been very insecure.

Ah Chen clenched his fists and felt tightness in his chest. He wanted to do something, but felt powerless. He remembered that when he chased her in high school, his first confession failed. Chen was not discouraged. He decided to write a song for Lin Hui, so after finishing his homework every night, he kept listening to the song, copying the lyrics, and writing sentences. He often wrote until he fell asleep on the table and went to class during the day. He also kept repeating a few sentences. But before his song was written, Valentine's Day came. He thought that the time of confession was more important than the way of confession, so he put the song aside, borrowed five yuan from his classmates, and bought a cup of milk tea for Lin Hui. Ah Chen was very poor at the time. He had never had any pocket money before college. As a result, the second confession was unsuccessful. When he was about to graduate, Ah Chen took a thick copy of the lyrics and felt very sad. He hummed the song to himself and then burned the lyrics book. Later, Ah Chen never wrote a song again. He said that he burned his talent together that day.

There was a wound on Ah Chen’s chest. He stayed when he was a sophomore. At that time, because he was stimulated by Lin Hui's incident, he immediately resigned from the position of monitor after returning to school. He felt that it was time for him to start doing what he wanted to do, forming a band. He started learning guitar. He bought a five-string guitar from a senior. The senior told him that this guitar can play folk songs by pressing one string, and can be used as a bass guitar by removing one string. Ah Chen was impressed by the versatility of the guitar and bought it. It took Ah Chen one month to learn the single string, and another three months to learn the chord.

Ah Chen felt that the time was about to come, and he planned to travel to a few more places, experience the feeling of wandering, write a few songs, and then find someone to form a band. But here comes the problem. Ah Chen gets carsick. Even a bus stop of five stops can make him miserable. When he thinks about going to a distant place, he must take a bus. He feels uncomfortable when riding in a bus, and he will vomit if he feels uncomfortable. Henan people are already suffering enough. , he can no longer embarrass Henan people. What's more terrible is that Ah Chen is afraid of being alone. Afraid of being alone. Although he often felt lonely inside. He wanted to find someone to accompany him on his wanderings. He found his roommate who liked cycling, and the roommate who liked cycling said he should go for a ride. Ah Chen hesitated.

What turned Ah Chen’s hesitation into despair was because of a woman. This woman's name is Gao Shuang, she is twenty-two years old, beautiful, kind-hearted, and gentle to others. Ah Chen has been secretly in love with her since she entered school, and no one knows about it. Gao Shuang not only doesn't know about it, but she doesn't even know who Ah Chen is. The whole school was taking a nap, only three people were awake, Ah Chen, Gao Shuang and a strange man. The man stood on the roof of the teaching building and put a knife against Gao Shuang's neck. He felt very sad. He originally planned to stab Gao Shuang once and then jump off the building to commit suicide. But in the end, there was no audience, only the idiot in front of him. Ah Chen stood opposite them. He was panicked for a while, then straightened his hair, calmed down and asked, "You want to kill her?"

"No, just stab her." The man replied.

"Why?"

"Because I hate her"

"Well, that makes sense." Ah Chen pinched his chin, feeling happy He looked panicked after hearing this. "Well, just stab me and let her go"

"It's her I hate, not you"

"Look, you hate her, so you It's very reasonable to stab her. I love her, so it's very reasonable for me to be stabbed for her, and you didn't have to jump off the building after stabbing me."

The man thought for a while, then let go of Gao Shuang and stabbed Ah Chen. Before Ah Chen fainted, she asked him, "Why do you hate her?"

"Because her boyfriend gave me a loan shark"< /p>

"Fuck!" Then Ah Chen fell into darkness.

Later, Ah Chen was discharged from the hospital and returned to the dormitory. The roommate who was riding the bicycle sold the bicycle. The roommate who was a top student started playing League of Legends and wanted to play professionally. The roommate continued to spray his teammates in front of the computer. Ah Chen sighed and sold the guitar on Xianyu.

After Ah Chen finished telling the story, he drank a glass of wine and ate five skewers. I looked at him for a while and said, "What is the real story about you giving up on your dream?" Ah Chen I paused and continued to ask, "What's the real story about Gao Shuang?" Ah Chen shook his glass and said, "Didn't I tell you, I drank fake wine when I was young. I slept through my entire youth.

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A song was played next to the barbecue stall, and Ah Chen slowly sang along while looking at the street:

A car is coming after the rain

< p> Driving through the pale dusk

Driving south on the old iron plate

The lover is no longer there

Listening to the poetry radio under the thick smoke

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Coughing without emotion

At least it looks

Still cute on the way home

The strings have lost their posture

Again Missing that night

The child listening to the song

Time flies monologue

Grinding the chaos into a cassette

The withered feelings

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Trampled into years

Just grow old

Don’t wake up alone

The departure you long for

Just Nowhere to stop

Just sing

Eyes narrowed

And the burst of tears

is just an existence that has not arrived

Youth is drunk again

In the arms of the unknown

Wasted by laughter

Generous in gathering and dispersing

Tossing and turning but unable to reach the right platform

If wandering is growth

A must-pass road sign

In the years when you wake up< /p>

That barren future

Like in the season of regret

Unfruitful love

Stained every page of poetry

The most painful confession of a kiss

And the wind is blowing

There is no need to let go

Just grow old

Say goodbye to loneliness Wake up

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