Nurse trainee experience

Reflections of a trainee nurse

Internship is a kind of expectation, an expectation for one’s own growth, an expectation for one’s role to begin to change, and an expectation for one’s own dreams; There is also a sense of fear when studying, a lack of confidence in oneself, a worry that one cannot adapt to the new environment, and even more anxiety that one will not know what to do.

I came to XXX Hospital with hope and confusion and started my internship career. From then on, my identity will change from a student to a trainee nurse, my living environment will change from school to hospital, and the people I come into contact with will change from teachers and classmates to doctors, nurses, and patients. Regarding these three major changes and how to be a qualified internship nurse, although the teacher has given us countless instructions, I still feel uneasy. I am not used to it, I am afraid of being scolded by the teacher, and I am afraid that I will do better than others. I'm so scared, I don't know where to start...

The first rotation department is ICU. My teacher is Teacher Wan Ling. She is an expert in operations in the hospital. She works quickly and has beautiful movements. Standard operation, which virtually gave me a lot of pressure. At the beginning of my internship life, I felt a sense of frustration. I felt very insignificant in front of the teacher. I even worked without thinking and just performed tasks mechanically. I just wanted to do the job well every time, but the more I wanted to do it well first. The more mistakes you make, the more you fear, and the more you fear, the more you make mistakes. This forms a vicious cycle. So much so that I didn’t dare to take the initiative to ask for operations, but the teacher felt that I was not taking the initiative to do the work. Sometimes I would burst into tears when I felt wronged. Facing the teacher's busy figure every day, I only sigh in my heart, complaining that I can't apply theory to practice, complaining that I didn't study hard during my previous internship, and I wish I was clumsy. Maybe it’s because I have poor adaptability and can’t communicate with teachers, so I’m still hesitant after entering CCU, but I’m also very grateful to my teachers, who are very patient with me and care about me. When I arrived in the operating room, Teacher Li Nan could see my progress every day. She encouraged me even a little bit. Even if I was stupid and made a mistake, she would explain the principles to me and let me know the root cause of the mistake instead of scolding me. It played a guiding role. I began to have my own ideas and regained the passion for work. No matter how hard or tiring I am, as long as I feel comfortable, I can spend every day happily!

Now I have entered the fourth rotation department, bone three. I thought I could adapt quickly, but the reality really poured cold water on me. I felt even more stupid and didn't know what to do. The teacher also felt that since we had been practicing for so long and were undergraduates, we should be able to do things easily. That’s right, I’m really ashamed to face the teacher’s helplessness! I fell into a slump again and returned to my mindless life, without any order at all. However, when Teacher He Ting knew that I had not received operational training due to low self-esteem and lack of initiative, she told me the importance of operational skills and helped me find opportunities for training. It was the teacher who once again inspired my enthusiasm. I really appreciate the teacher's care for me. I will work harder to live up to the teacher's expectations of me!

Now I am still looking forward to and afraid of "internship". I am excited because internship is an opportunity to integrate theory with practice. It is very fresh and interesting to apply the theories I have learned for four years to clinical practice. Then, when you have to operate on patients, you want to truly see the essence of the disease through the symptoms, but you don’t know what to do, so you inevitably become panicked. I also asked many intern classmates and they all had different opinions. In short, it is "like a person drinking water, knowing whether it is cold or warm." But one thing is clear. The true mastery of knowledge is to use it in practice, and use practice to verify and consolidate what you have learned. Learning how to communicate with patients and teachers is very important! Not being good at contacting people is a major weakness of mine. That kind of timidity and unnaturalness will make me lose a lot of learning opportunities, so I think communication is also an art. If you learn it well, you will It will benefit you a lot. After nearly five months of internship, I also have this experience. Here, I have summarized the following points:

1. The problem of theoretical knowledge: I have always been a student before, and the school is student-centered. The Chinese-style education has always been cramming: passively accepting so much knowledge. Although I have taken so many exams, my knowledge seems to have disappeared in my mind, so I have to keep flipping through books. When I was speechless again and again when the teacher asked questions, I realized that my memory was superficial. The memory without time is like the footprints on the beach. At the time, it seemed profound and obvious, but it could not withstand the cleaning of time.

2. Role transformation problem. At the beginning of the internship, I didn’t understand many things. Although I had done internships before, I still felt that I was not confident enough when it came to actual operations. Could I have made a mistake? What if I did? I always do things timidly, and the classmates who intern with me perform very well. I think the teacher likes them, and things don't seem to be my turn. I blindly follow the basic care and follow the operations every day. I wanted to say, "Let me try it too," but I didn't dare. Therefore, I think role transformation is a hurdle, and I must work hard to overcome this. The main method is to take initiative. I found that as long as I take the initiative to ask questions and put forward operational requirements, the teachers are very happy to teach. You can no longer wait for the teacher to ask you to do something like you did in school.

3. Courage training. When facing patients, especially surgical patients, it is common to see blood. Seeing patients moaning in pain, especially during operations, will always make your heart rise to your throat. Therefore, if you are cautious and restrained, it will cause more harm to the patient. Big pain. Therefore, the courage must be exercised to be bigger and bigger. Being bold and careful is the goal I pursue. Only accuracy and speed can the patient's pain be solved early.

4. Aseptic concepts and standardized operations. During the surgical internship, every teacher emphasized the concept of sterility. Therefore, I deeply understood the concept of sterility and unconsciously abided by it during operations. And standardized operation is really a very conservative and safe approach! As for new methods and innovative thinking, we have to get familiar with the situation first.

5. Smile service: Here, I see smiling faces, and they all feel particularly beautiful and cute. It makes me feel that if I were a patient, I would Would not hesitate to choose to live here. Therefore, I also ask myself not to bring emotions to work, and keep a sunny smile every day to make patients feel warm!

All in all, these five months have been a process of adaptation, and many shortcomings need to be improved. This is a learning process, and many concepts have been corrected. Although it is hard and tiring, I believe that I can definitely overcome it. This is just the beginning of the internship. You will need to continue to explore in the future. At the same time, you must have requirements for yourself to gain something. I think the next internship is a challenge and an opportunity. I must seize this opportunity.