My mother died, and I was in pain ... I didn't know how to survive.

Have you read that sentence? I deleted it.

Not everything is artificial.

I also have your idea that people will die sooner or later, and living is really boring. I know my mother very well. After all kinds of setbacks and blows, she committed suicide with the idea that life was meaningless. Do you want to now? I think so too.

But how many people will be happy after I die? Without a stubborn girl by my side, people who hate me should be very happy. Well, I'll show them something alive and moist, at least I'll make them cry.

Your understanding of death is not profound, because

Death is not the opposite of life, but a part of life.

If we live, we must die.

If you regard death as a natural law, there will be no thoughts and attitudes of suicide and negative life.

You were born, and death has been included in your life because of your life.

Besides, you know:

Man, life, is essentially lonely and helpless. People can't get mutual understanding or comfort in their communication.

You should thank your mother for giving you life so that you can know yourself clearly. After all, life is the most important part of you now. You can't force anyone to accompany you through life. Even he (she) is willing to do so. Independence is a process that everyone must go through.

Your previous life may have been too smooth, and you suffered unimaginable things such as the death of your mother and the loss of your job, so you felt a little beaten. But as long as you stand up, you won't be so easily knocked down by the difficulties of life. However, it is easy to fall, but difficult to get up.

You should live seriously before you can accept death with a clear conscience. Otherwise, you have failed the pain your mother endured when she gave birth to you.

In fact, you are the continuation of your mother's life. Look in the mirror. Your eyebrows, eyes, nose or ears will always be the epitome of your mother. When you get old, it (they) will be more like your mother.

You should also think about why your mother gave birth to you.

In fact, it is also to keep her genes going.

Maybe what I said, if you feel mature and look down on a minor, there is nothing you can do.

Wish: Find a good job again and live seriously.