How do you feel when you pay the rent every month?

When I pay the rent every month, I secretly make up my mind that I must buy my own house this year and stop helping the landlord to pay the mortgage. I don't think it's worth it. I have to bite the bullet and pay the rent I work in Futian District, Shenzhen, so I rented a house nearby. The housing price in Shenzhen is still relatively high in the whole country. I rented a house of 14 square meters, with a separate bathroom, a bed without much space and a refrigerator. The monthly rent is about 2000 yuan. This house price really put a lot of pressure on me when I first entered the workplace, so every time I paid the rent, I secretly decided to make money as soon as possible, have my own house and don't have to help the landlord pay the mortgage. Every time I pay the money, I feel very unhappy because the price is too high, but I have no choice but to bite the bullet and pay the rent. There is no money again. For a rookie who just graduated, my monthly salary is just a little bit, and there is not much money left in my hand except rent, so after paying the room rate every month, I feel poor again, and the balance in my bank card has also decreased by more than half. So I won't go out for a week after paying the rent every month, and I won't go shopping with my friends, because I think I was poor at that time and I spent all my living expenses that week. Earn money, buy your own house and rent it out. Buying a house in Shenzhen is a very unrealistic thing for me now, so every time I pay the rent, I want to try to buy a suite in my hometown and rent it out, which can help me share part of the room fee every month and relieve my pressure on life. Every time I pay the rent, I secretly blame myself for not working hard before and saving any money. If I had been saving money before, I would probably have my own small house now, and I wouldn't feel bad about the rent any more.