Tell me about my views on fame and fortune.

It is funny to write this title. Only when people become famous can they talk about fame and fortune. I have been retired for nearly 20 years. Because I love growing vegetables, I am called "working people" by my neighbors next door and "fat aunt" by my young neighbors in the vegetable field. Until now, she is neither famous nor profitable. What about her fame and fortune?

Say it's funny or not. In the final analysis, people are equal, born as human beings and live in the world. Who doesn't have a view of fame and fortune?

However, the qualification for success is really important.

Where is my nameless and unprofitable qualification? In the words I don't love, in more than 600 articles I have worked hard to pay.

To be precise, my articles so far are 670. These 670 articles can be described as all my efforts, and it is difficult to make them.

Needless to say, all writers have personal experiences. I only said my difficulties, and only I can understand them.

The first difficulty is that I don't like writing, but I really don't, which is determined by my natural genes.

Writing is a heavy burden, Alexander. As long as I can find an excuse not to write, I feel relaxed and happy. I often look at my husband. If I have some love to write, I dare not say that the quality and quantity of my works must be n times as much as now.

The second difficulty is that I have been forced by the pressure of life for decades and have no time and energy to write.

I lost my mother when I was eight months old. My miserable childhood is in my book Farewell to the Years, so I won't say much.

19671February when my husband and I got married, my father blamed me for getting married early and only gave me ten yuan as a dowry. My husband gave me more than three yuan and personally went to the county seat to buy a red medium-sized box, which was made of wood sawdust. The smiling face of my husband who walked four or five miles home with his box on his back is still in front of my eyes.

This "mahogany" box is the treasure of my life and has always accompanied me.

The son of a college student in her husband's family married an educated youth who didn't graduate from high school, and his shoulders were not generally flat. Didn't give me a penny as a bride price, didn't even buy a pair of socks. Instead, I put on a new cotton-padded jacket for my husband and a new quilt, a gauze mosquito net and a pair of pillowcases for us.

Many years later, my mother-in-law smiled and said, "Who told you to catch up at that time? Who told you not to? "

I have never even told my children these past events. Today is the first time.

All this is to say that our family life started with a low starting point and a weak foundation. My husband graduated from college and worked for ten years. After we got married, we never had a house, so we had to build our own new house. My husband and I paid back the house loan we owed for another ten years.

After I returned to my hometown as an educated youth, I lived in the countryside for more than ten years until I took the last bus back to town in 198 1 year1October.

Then find a job for the three children to study and go to school.

Then I will marry my son and my daughter.

Then I will help my children take care of their grandchildren and their lives.

There are also parental support, medical care and other things.

It is in these ten years, twenty years, thirty years and forty years that a family will have no food, clothes and books if it is not busy. . .

Exchange reports, typical experiences and summary materials. I haven't stopped writing for forty years, and I haven't written less. But if you want to write your own literary works, you really have no energy and time.

The third difficulty is that my childhood bitter life experience and long-term hard life have caused great harm to my body, and my serious illness has always been with me, affecting my mood.

The fourth difficulty is that since I can remember, I have that innate inferiority complex. At any time, under any circumstances, I feel inferior to others everywhere, and I have no confidence at all.

It is precisely because of my inferiority complex in my bones that I have been afraid of exams, competitions and competitions since I was a child.

The typical performance is that the senior one joined the school table tennis team, and the provincial table tennis seed female players came to our school to perform once. Communication.

When I practiced with No.2 female seed at random, I unexpectedly defeated her because I didn't have any ideological concerns. The so-called "newborn calves are not afraid of tigers".

However, in the subsequent official competition, I lost, as I expected.

When it comes to games, exams and competitions, you will be nervous and lose control of your nerves. Fortunately, I still have some self-knowledge and know that my psychological quality is extremely poor, so for decades, I never dared to confront anyone, nor did I dare to argue with others.

There are other difficulties, just these four difficulties, especially the fourth one.

Its negative effects have seriously hindered and limited my inherent growth of fame and fortune as a person.

Going back to these 670 articles is my painstaking efforts.

My first children's literary novel Little Brother was sent to the literary edition of Anhui Daily from a remote rural post office with an 8-cent stamp. Another sketch "Street Corner" is to post an eight-point stamp at the town post office after returning to the city and send it to Anhui Youth Daily. Both articles were published. There are also two mini-novels published by Friends of Dawn.

A few years ago, due to the advice and encouragement of a netizen with great literary talent and humor in Tianya. Com prose world edition, my child helped me to contribute online to the XX Evening News in this city. Hehe, I don't know why, I didn't.

Besides, my 670 articles have never been submitted to any newspaper, magazine, media or website. So far, I have not voted for any of them.

Why not vote? Is it because I don't have any fame and fortune?

How come? In fact, I think about how to deal with my article almost every day.

Contribute?

Many years ago, I heard how difficult it is to publish an article in paper media. It is usually difficult, but it is said that the article has been upgraded to a commodity now, and it takes people and money to publish the demand.

I am willing to spend money. Asking for help is killing me.

The deep-rooted inferiority complex just set off my almost paranoid self-esteem. I always feel that paying someone for help can't lift my head and control my mouth. This is a shameful thing, and I don't want to think about it, let alone do it.

It is better to help others ask for help and feel confident and helpful, but I am willing.

Publishing house?

In addition to spending money to find people, publishing houses have to find ways to promote themselves. Finding the market has always been my weakness. Even if it is published, it is best not to publish it at home.

Self-funded publication?

Although you save money at your own expense, you need to buy a book number and spend a lot of money. And there are sales channels. If it can't be sold, it will still be left at home and covered with dust.

"Would you like to watch your piles of books take up a lot of place and space in the room without worrying, then I will publish them at my own expense. Isn't it the book number of 20 thousand yuan? Make up your mind. "

Whenever it comes to self-funded publishing, husband and children are unanimous in their support.

God, how much patience and determination can I have, feeling sorry for myself every day when I see that my books can't be sold, and comforting myself without worrying?

Besides, I spent so much hard-earned money.

Sponsor publication?

More than ten years ago, when my Lost Years was published, a friend proposed to sponsor the society to publish it. I remember I refused without thinking.

How can you have the heart to use other people's money for no reason? Where is the dignity? And it's hard to report human feelings. Eating the food here will hurt your stomach.

On second thought, I think it's better to write an article like this on my Tianya blog "Farewell Years" and Sina blog "Wang Yulan's Blog".

Like I said, it's the feeling of putting a lot of money in a safe.

Go back to the title of my article and talk about my views on fame and fortune.

I want both material benefits and spiritual fame.

I have had a strong desire for a long time. I will use my unremitting efforts to write and publish a collection dedicated to teachers, classmates, colleagues, relatives and friends and family who have given me care, help and support to show my sincere love and gratitude!

This is one of the reasons why I want a name.

Another reason is that I want to let those who have suppressed and hurt me know that I exist.

Why should I make a profit?

This can be answered in one sentence, food and clothing is not enough to run a well-off life.

Not greed. Food and clothing, but my children and I have to pay off the house loan for many years.

More importantly, you should prepare enough deposits to deal with all kinds of situations and make you feel safe at home.

The word fame and fortune seems simple, but if it is expanded, it means that it can't be finished in a day. No, I can't finish it in three days and nights.

For example, people say fame and fortune, fame and fortune, and there are endless background stories.

Storytelling is not my strong point, so I just want to talk about my view of fame and fortune here.

In fact, being nameless and unprofitable is light, and living freely and steadily.

It is said that "people are afraid of being famous and pigs are afraid of being strong", not me. Explaining name and meaning is also a burden, even a hidden danger.

Look at me. I don't need to dress up and do my hair anywhere. My husband and I cut our own hair, so we can travel calmly like dogs.

Hey, who will pay attention to you?

The same is true of silver, which has no advantage. If I have ten dollars in my pocket when I go out, I want to keep touching it for fear of losing it.

If I pretend to be a hundred, a thousand, ten thousand, a million, ten million, hundreds of millions, I'm just afraid, afraid, suspicious, afraid. . . That's enough for me. Do you think I'm alive?