20 18 my words: gaining weight is an endless cycle.

My year of 2065438+2008 saw myself become a dead fat house. In the dead of night, I often persuade myself not to order takeout tomorrow. It is enough to eat eight points full tomorrow. Don't eat so greasy tomorrow. The best way to barbecue hot pot is to quit. ...

However, the result is tomorrow the day after tomorrow, how many tomorrows there are, and every day is a waste. It seems that this fiag was also established by the ancients, and the final result is the same for everyone.

From this, every excuse I give myself, every inch of fat on my body, is my compromise on life.

Now the word "fat" can't be said casually, because you always eat your food, and you know that you are fat, but others feel particularly harsh when they say it.

Most people don't want to be fat, but they can't lose weight after various reasons.

Maybe they are lazy in sports, maybe they can't control their greedy mouths, or maybe they have unhealthy routines. In short, people who can't control their bodies are self-disciplined, but few people are willing to admit their self-discipline. Even if they do, they don't want to be reminded by others every day.

"What's wrong with me being fat? I am very fat. Did I eat your rice? I am fat, I use you to invite me to dinner? " This reply sounds well-founded, and who knows how many times she has shed tears.

My fatness is naturally due to my lack of self-discipline.

It was last year that I sweated in the gym. The bed and chair have become my new home. It's so comfortable to sit and lie down. Why do I have to walk and run? So the meat piled up on the belly is like a child who is pregnant for three months.

At noon at 356 degrees in June this year, I went to eat spicy crayfish and drink cold beer with my friends. After eating, I touched my chubby belly and prepared to take the bus.

That day, I wore a loose skirt, flat sandals, and my mobile phone key was in my skirt pocket. The pocket happened to be in the abdominal seat. There are many people on the bus. I found a relatively free place to stand. At this time, a very good little boy stood up and said to me, "Aunt, you'd better sit down."

I'm surprised. I have always been a group of people without seats on the bus. Why did you give me your seat this time? My friend looked me up and down, and then his eyes fell on my stomach. I also looked down. I am not touched by the little boy's behavior at all. I managed to squeeze out a smile on my face: "Thank you brother, my sister is not tired."

What a polite boy, but I mistake the fat man for a three-month-old child.

When I was not fat, I especially liked shopping and trying on clothes. In the fitting room, I always felt that dress belonged to me. I took out my mobile phone and took a selfie. When I took enough photos, I took out the label and looked at it. The price on the label makes me feel that this dress doesn't suit me. I found a suitable reason to refuse the enthusiastic praise of the salesgirl and left reluctantly.

Lying in bed at night watching the selfie in my mobile phone, I feel that I can't say goodbye to that dress easily. In order to save money on clothes, there is no money to buy snacks, no money to buy snacks, and no money to have a hot pot barbecue buffet. Steamed bread and old godmother can solve the food for a day, so it is difficult to gain weight.

When buying new clothes, I want to buy matching bags and shoes. When I put on new clothes and shoes, I want to make up. I want to go out to play, take photos and make friends when I make up. So people are getting better and better, and there are more and more friends. With the help of my friends, I occasionally improve my food.

People are thin, beautiful, fashionable, relaxed, happy and energetic.

Then I gained weight.

It will be embarrassing to try on clothes in the mall after you get fat. I always have to ask the salesman to find another size. I don't know if you feel this way when you go shopping. There is a little pride in the tone of changing M code to S code, but changing M code to L code will change your mood.

So I don't often go shopping, and I always feel that I will lose weight soon, so I don't often buy clothes. Old clothes were rejected and I didn't want to wear them out, so home life began.

You don't want to put on makeup until you go out. I often forget to wash my face before going to bed at night, so my skin is getting worse and worse, and ugliness begins like this.

I don't want to take a selfie without makeup. I don't want to go out in the circle of friends, and there's nothing to send. I have to envy my friends' colorful lives.

I no longer buy clothes and cosmetics, so I have plenty of money, so I have money to buy snacks, snack and take-out eight times a day. When you are full, you feel sleepy and blood flows into your stomach. My brain wants to find a pillow when there is no oxygen. I want to close my eyes when I touch the pillow. It was two hours before I opened my eyes again. The food had just been digested.

Therefore, I am getting fatter and uglier.

Eating this behavior itself can bring happiness and satisfaction, and food will promote the secretion of dopamine, thus producing physical pleasure. Happiness always comes at a price.

Nowadays, losing weight seems to be the mantra of every girl. These days, people in the circle of friends always share their own 20 19 banner. Almost everyone will say that they must lose weight, eat less snacks, drink less milk tea, cook and eat as little as possible, or stay up late every day, exercise more and run in the morning.

Without exception, if you do this, you will basically not gain more weight.

How important it is to be thin, and it will become more and more profound after getting fat. I suddenly remembered a sentence. How can you control your life if you can't even control your body?

After becoming fat, I think this sentence is really reasonable. People who can control their bodies are not only self-disciplined, but also willing to sweat. Of course, this praise does not include those who eat too much and are not fat. They may be kissed by angels.

To tell the truth, when I was in the fat house, I didn't feel the joy of indulgence, but I became more and more anxious, because I watched myself get ugly day by day, but I didn't want to make any changes. No time is an excellent reason, and not going out to meet people has become an excuse to escape. But on second thought, it didn't take much time.

It's just the act of gaining weight, which seems to form a closed loop. I can't find the exit, and I can't get out of this circle anyway.

When buying clothes, you should choose the kind that covers the meat. The color should be darker, because it is slim, and there is an extra step of makeup. The photos taken with the filter are really beautiful, but in fact, the face has become extremely dirty, and it takes a lot of effort to repair it when you sweat. You should not only ensure your own beauty, but also take care of the surrounding scenery. In order to ensure the credibility of retouching, even you dare to find a pure white wall as the background for taking a selfie.

The fat on your body and the roughness of your skin are irresponsible to yourself. 20 18 is coming to an end. If you want to raise the flag of 20 19, then don't live like this on 20 18.

Live a little more delicately and have more expectations for tomorrow.