If you were the younger brother in "Bottom Hot Girl"...

I recently watched the popular movie "Bottom Girl". After watching it, I admired Mr. Tsuboda for his persistence in pursuing his dreams, his encouragement and education in teaching students in accordance with their aptitude, and his willingness to never give up on anyone. He also praised Sayaka's persistence in learning, her perseverance in changing her own situation, and her determination to adjust herself and continue on when faced with difficulties. I really want to feel like I am right. Fortunately, I am also such a person, and I also found that I look a bit like a person in the movie. But unfortunately, it is not Mr. Tsuboda or Sayaka. The person I resemble is Sayaka. The younger brother - the younger brother who is loved and expected by his father; the younger brother who actually doesn't like baseball and doesn't have much talent for baseball; the younger brother who can't do anything else except baseball!

So, let’s talk about me. Recently, I can be described as "in dire straits". I passed the exam and applied for the position of shift leader. This was originally a happy thing, but it led to a series of questions. I speculated whether it was my ability. My shortcomings are not recognized by others. Is it because I occupy other people's positions that I am ridiculed by others... Why? Why does this problem occur? This also caused me to think about another side, why am I not good? Why am I not recognized? Because after working for three years, I don’t have strong business skills; or because I only want to work in a clerical job and always want to escape from my current job, but I don’t work hard to learn the knowledge of my current position...

I I was very depressed and puzzled. Then I detailed all the annoying things I encountered at work with my mother. I talked about my unhappiness and dislike in a depressed mood, which really made my mother fall into trying to find solutions and find solutions. I was thinking about whether they could help me change departments or positions, and this also made me always rely on my parents. This is also the reason why I don’t like to tell my parents about my affairs, although I can’t help it.

Looking back carefully, I, the eldest son who is loved and expected by his parents and who has been admitted to a prestigious university, am not as good as the younger sister whose parents have less control, who has a good life, high awareness, and high emotional intelligence. My sister is now engaged, has become a popular teacher, and has two vacations. But I, who studied literature at a prestigious university, am struggling in a position full of science knowledge, and I have no vacations, day and night. Zhifeng's class. It feels like the age-old meme about "accompanying a friend for an interview, but he was the one who got admitted in the end." The child who is not loved by his parents is always more promising than the child who enjoys the love of his parents.

I am very disappointed with myself and speechless. After all, I have never planned my own life, I am not working hard enough, and I am not perseverant enough. But I want to change, and how should I do it?

Just like Sayaka's younger brother, he only knows baseball and can't do anything else, and baseball is not his favorite. What will happen to him in the future? After seeing Sayaka's success, he was not shown in the movie, but I hope he can have the strong perseverance to study and work hard like Sayaka. Even if the road ahead is long, confusing, and exhausting, he must persevere. Work hard to the end and live your life the way you want it to be. This is also what I hope for myself.

?The lack of communication and language skills in interpersonal communication, in the final analysis, is a "slowness", a "speaking", and a "practice". Slow down, think, and think before speaking. Saying it once is not enough. You need to practice and speak more.

?I hope that from now on, I will continue to work hard and rely on my own efforts; I will continue to practice, speak, and learn; I will not be impatient or timid, but move forward bravely!

PS. Every time I write a text about self-depression and self-denial, it is actually a kind of sorting out myself, because in such self-destruction and sorting out process, I find that sometimes I am If you think too much, you can still do a lot, so don’t be depressed in your own conscious environment and do things!