Tell me about the current experience without an predecessor.

I once thought, would I be happier if I didn't meet my first love? In fact, I don't know the answer, because I thank him for his appearance, which has given my original plain youth a different color, but I think if he didn't appear, maybe I wouldn't be so sad and get married so rashly.

We always wonder, after losing a relationship, if we go back to the beginning and the day we met, will we choose to turn around and walk away, so that we won't have too much communication with him in this life, and we won't pay too much youth and heartache for our later feelings.

Sometimes I wonder what I would have done if I had not met him. I fantasize that if he does not appear, my youth will be very calm and my youth will be as dull as water. I don't know if I like that kind of life. Although I still feel sad when I think of him sometimes, I am very grateful to him for giving me someone to think about and something to remember in the lonely night.

I'm thinking, if we hadn't been together and I hadn't met him, then I might have got married on a blind date, but in the dead of night, no one would remember and there must be nothing to think about. If so, is my youth too dull, and I haven't met anyone worth remembering at this presumptuous age, which makes me feel as sweet as honey, as painful as a knife, and as chaotic as hemp?

Our love may not be a perfect ending, and will eventually be separated because of a change of heart, but in any case, we really loved each other once, and he really wanted to treat me for a lifetime. He really loved me and did a lot of things for me, but later we were not suitable, so we separated, so in the end we had such unforgettable youth, different youth.