I really want to die.

Your question is vague, but I can feel the heaviness in the text. I don't know what you went through, but I think it must be some kind of unspeakable pain, a difficult choice between life and death under repression. At the same time, a person of 16 years old doesn't know how to release it. At the same time, you are paranoid. Do you want to recall all the pains you have experienced in your mind over and over again every night? Why didn't you think of a kind smile, a humor that made you laugh and a greeting that touched you? If not, think about it now, there is still time. You are not in pain now, but you hate that no one listens to you and that no one understands your pain. Hate those who give you ridicule and sarcasm, hate that no one gives you hope and courage, so that you can't see the sunshine and hope, and you can only immerse yourself in the darkness you weave all day. Buddha said that everything has a cause and effect. If the pain is what we are destined to bear, why not walk with him with a smile instead of carrying it on our body, just as Jesus bears the sins of the world. If pain is a shadow, don't rush to get rid of it. Sit in the shade and it will disappear. Everyone has his own pain. Those who seem to be beautiful and happy also have their unknown side. But they can forget it for a while and let happy things occupy their daily lives, even if it is only one minute a day. But where do happy things come from? Look around you more every day, and you will find that. You can only find out for yourself. You want to die, just want to punish the people you hate with your own life. Unfortunately, it can only be exchanged for short-term and cheap regrets. Live bravely, and one day, you will be grateful for the pain, because only those who have experienced the pain will truly understand the meaning of happiness.