It’s my first time posting a selfie in space, so I’m so nervous

It’s the first time I post a selfie on the Internet, and I’m really nervous.

I usually save selfies I like as private in the space, and then secretly set them to public so that not many people see them. But I actually posted the selfie, which surprised me.

This is because I have to submit screenshots of the epidemic survey to the Provincial Department of Education every day, and I have been informed by counselors in the past two days. I don’t know what the problem is, and I feel aggrieved and depressed for no reason. Heartbroken, because for fear of making mistakes, I check three times every day to see if I have filled it out correctly. I have also clicked on the submission points. The submission time was just that night, but there is no record of me in the background. In order to express my sadness, anger and helplessness at this time. I just expressed my feelings.

After posting four screenshots, I thought it would be better and more interesting to add an emoticon pack, but I didn’t find it, nor did I find those beautiful pictures, but I had an idea and turned to my own I just wanted to post the photo for some reason. I can’t say it’s narcissistic, and it’s not very good-looking. Maybe I think it represents myself better, but I was very nervous and couldn’t press the publish button.

My fingers drew countless circles in the air. They were all elongated ovals up and down, because I really didn’t have the courage to send them out. What I was thinking was that I was usually an introvert among my classmates. Shy people, will they think I'm narcissistic or are they surprised that I would post photos, will someone have bad comments, will they wonder why I look like this, and are they afraid that I won't be able to express myself when school starts? I have never been so active and lively online.

But my inner voice finally outweighed my fear, so I boldly spoke out, because what you want to do makes your affairs uncontrollable by others, and what others want to say is their own handwriting. No. Although there weren’t many likes when I posted it, I was satisfied. After all, it wasn’t as scary as I imagined. Maybe the things I feared would really exist, but the more fearful a person is, the more they reveal their true self, and they may be further away from the real one. Get closer to yourself.

After I finished posting my talk, I was too nervous to express it, so I sent a secret and received encouragement.

Before and after I started speaking, I could feel my heart skipping a beat, my stomach twitching twice, and my hands feeling a little overwhelmed. But this familiar feeling felt right to me. It’s all too familiar to me.

Some people will say, "I just want to say something. What's the point of being nervous?" But that's not necessarily the case for me who is habitually shy. Yes, I am always embarrassed. I often don't like people in front of my classmates. I even feel a little nervous when I speak. Sometimes I think my shyness is really cute, but I know that this society still needs to be more cheerful, so I keep trying to expose myself. The more afraid I am of speaking, the more I have to speak. The more you are afraid of being shy, the more you do it. Only in this way can you be less afraid and be able to be yourself better and take charge of yourself.